Okay, so after putting some thought into it, I have some better reasoning that can hopefully better explain why I stopped all my fics...
I was honestly really disappointed in almost every single thing I wrote and uploaded. I mean, part of it was because I felt like people were leaving, but I had no one else to blame but myself... I took so damn long just to upload anything and I hardly ever actually got back into writing for certain stories and as I looked back at some of them... I just couldn't bear to look at it. The writing was awful. The characters were whiny and OOC and some of the things I wrote just weren't stories I could bring myself to continue. Untold Stories will probably never see an end because Mello is based off of someone I practically idolised when I first wrote it. But I glorified a really abusive relationship with someone who was constantly manipulating me and... Looking back, I can't bring myself to just turn everything around and make Mello a complete piece of shit. I just can't. And I refuse to write out anything else for it because I just have no clue what freaking directiom to take things in. School Days was one I wanted to continue... But Jeevas, I am having a hard time trying to revive that and trying to bring back my muse for it. If any of you are still even out there, though, I may attempt to redo it or... Something... Though I may rename it after watching a very... Interesting anime with the same name... My DN story with BB and L is garbage and I'm not even going to bother trying to explain myself with that one. I'm just bad at writing.
After all this ranting, I feel better. I do feel bad for abandoning you guys and my fics, but I just needed the time to sort shit out and I really needed time before deciding it was a good idea to write anything ever again because, again, some of my older fics just make me... Cringe.
If you're still out there, I really appreciate it. I have a new fanfic account. The username is Otaku-kid1997. Original. I know... Message me on that account. Let me know if you still wanted me to update anything. I'll get back to you when I can and I will see what I can do about my absence from this site. Thank you for reading and I hope to talk to you guys again.
