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A/N: Sorry about the typing errors on the previous chapters :) thanks for all your reviews!!! Okay, here's the rest of the story.
TO LOVE OR NOT TO LOVE
Lily giggled softly to herself. It was the first time James had heard her laugh. He felt his hand reached for hers. The two looked at each other for a moment. James edged closer to her hoping she would not back away. He felt his lips meet hers. Unlike all the other times he had kissed other girls he had gone out with, this kiss felt real, he wanted it to kiss to last forever, for the first time, the kiss meant something, something he could not describe...
The 'kiss', lasted 2 seconds. He felt Lily pushing him away.
"I can't! I'm sorry. It's just that I don't want to end up like those other girls that you went out with. I don't want to ruin our friendship just like that." She sobbed
James looked disappointed, but knew she was right. Every single girl that he has been with has been left heartbroken. But he knew inside that Lily was unlike any other girl he had been with before. He had never felt this way for a girl before. "Lily, you're different". James tried to explain.
"Maybe we would be better off as friends," she interrupted "I'm really sorry about everything. I don't know what I can do to make it up to you. All this trouble I have caused. I'm really sorry,"
James remembered a similar conversation with Rachel. "It's not your fault. It has really nothing to do with you. I don't even know why I bothered to come down here in the middle of the night to find that you have no feelings for me what-so-ever," James said feeling hurt and annoyed. "I think we should go back to Gryffindor Tower before any more trouble is caused." He picked up his invisibility cloak and walked off trying his hardest not to look back at her.
James crawled into his bed. He sat there for a while, thinking about what a great night it could have been.
"And where were you?" Sirius asked suddenly, scaring James half to death.
"I went to get some food from the kitchen" James lied.
Sirius looked him in a 'yeah sure' sort of way. "Oh really," he said sarcastically, "And where's the food? You can't lie to me. I know everything."
James looked annoyed "Yeah, I'm sure you do"
Sirius put on an evil smile. "Lets play a game," He suggested once again.
"What? Lets see what Jamesie's been up to by asking him game?" he asked ironically
Sirius cracked up at this. He fell back on his bed laughing. He finally straightened his face, but before he knew it he fell back onto his bed laughing and rolling. All this laughing woke up Lupin.
"What is the matter with you guys? Its 2am in the morning for gods sake! Go back to sleep!" He fell back down on his bed and went back to sleep.
James looked really irritated. "He's right Sirius! Go to sleep," pulled up his sheets and once again lay awake in his bed. He thought about all the things he would've done with Lily that night, and whether he should've just left her there. He thought as he watched the leaves from the trees outside fall swiftly to the ground.
Lily could not sleep the whole night either. She didn't even know herself whether what she did was right or wrong. She got up from her bed, and sat there for a moment. She reached underneath her pillow and took out a little silver diary with Lily Evans engraved on the cover. On the side, there was a little silver lock. Lily took out her want and whispered 'Alohomora'. The key unlocked. She got out a pen and wrote:
James Potter. does he really think that I would like him just because he got into detention for me? As if! But he kissed me! Why did he kiss me? No. What about all those other girls that he has gone out with and kissed. Every single one of them is left rejected. He's just not my type. But then again, he kissed me and told me that he loved me. It was so real. Rachel and Ruby would be dying to hear something like this from him. What was the matter with me? I completely ruined the perfect chance to make Rachel jealous make her feel sad about what she and her mother did to mine. For once something she couldn't get. Something that would be mine and not hers. What was wrong with me?
Wake up Lily! He loves you! More than Rachel. He wouldn't tell Rachel that he loved her. I'm going to hold onto this opportunity. I shouldn't let him get away.
Lily closed her diary. She thought about how she was going to ask James to still love her. She blew out the candle that was next to her bed and soon she went to sleep.
The next day James walked sleepily down to the Gryffindor table for breakfast. His eyes were puffed. Everyone could tell he didn't get much sleep. Sirius was already seated at the table. James sat down on the seat in between Sirius and Lupin.
"Not enough sleep? Eh?" Lupin asked
"No. He had enough sleep. It's just that Lily and him had a little misunderstanding and little James is sad now." Sirius said sarcastically.
"Shut Up!" James shouted "and how did you know anyways?"
Sirius looked at him strangely. "I followed you,"
James's face turned red. "You WHAT?! You FOLLOWED ME? Why did you follow me?"
Sirius gave him a sweet, innocent look. "Excuse me, but you stepped on my head when you went out last night with your invisibility cloak. You never go out at night without me, so I what was I supposed to do? What if you forgot about me or something, so I followed, until I saw you talking to Lily and when Drakebobbybob gave you detention, and when you kissed her, up to the bit where she breaks away. And then I was in a way afraid that you would see me so I went back to Gryffindor Tower, just before you came back." He had said this super fast, without taking a single breath, James was quite impressed.
"You saw and heard everything?" James asked, even though he knew the answer. Sirius nodded.
James looked at him angrily. He got up and stormed out of the hall.
"Well, I guess he's going back to sleep" Lupin said
Almost everyone on the table near them heard this conversation. The rumor that James kissed Lily traveled around the school like the speed of light. No sooner had it reached the ears of Rachel and Ruby.
"What?! James Potter kissed Lily Evans? Oh that loser, I bet she forced him to or something" Ruby sulked.
Rachel looked down at her feet. She had no idea what to say at this point in time. "Well they make a good couple," she finally said.
Ruby raised an eyebrow. "I thought you liked him Rachel!"
Rachel finally looked up. "I do. But my mother always told me. What is yours will always be yours, and what isn't will never be. If James likes Lily, then there's nothing I can do about it." Rachel said, softly. Not only was she upset she was deeply hurt inside as well.
"Don't be such a loser Rachel! I bet Lily Evans started the rumor just to be more popular! Like James would fall for something like her. Well that bitch! I'll just go and prove to her that she is nothing but a lying try- hard" Ruby shouted then stormed through the door, in search of Lily.
Rachel was left alone on the couch in the common room. No longer had Ruby left, Sirius walked in. He noticed Rachel in the corner. Sirius straitened his shirt, ruffled his hair, and walked over casually to Rachel.
"So, ah...ah" to his surprise, he was lost for words, this has certainly never happened in front of a girl before.
Rachel looked up at him. "Did James really kiss Lily?" she asked looking slightly embarrassed.
Sirius thought about this, whether he should lie to her, or hit her with the truth. "He ah...ah...he......" once again he was lost for words.
"I thought Lily wouldn't make something like that up. I knew it was true from the beginning" Rachel sighed
Sirius felt extremely sorry for her, he didn't even know why, there has been hundreds of girls who have ended up in a situation like Rachel's. "Um, Rachel? Would you like to go out with me?"
"What did you say?" said a puzzled Rachel
"Um would you... um... like to... um go to the um... Hogsmeade...um...go to Hogsmeade with me?" he asked. It was strange for him. He had never had to ask anybody to go out with him before, it was always them that asked him. He has never embarrassed himself so much infront of a girl so much before.
"You mean as a friend?" she asked
"Yeah, as a friend" Sirius confirmed.
Rachel smiled "I'd love to" she answered
Sirius felt a dash of sunlight shine in his heart. "So tomorrow 9am?" he asked
Rachel thought for a moment "Tomorrow 9am" she answered
"Okay then, see you" Sirius said, and walked off, thinking about what he would do tomorrow with Rachel. He suddenly felt very proud of himself as he had successfully asked Rachel to go out with him!
A/N: Okay end of next chapter. Hope you like the story so far :). PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!!
A/N: Sorry about the typing errors on the previous chapters :) thanks for all your reviews!!! Okay, here's the rest of the story.
TO LOVE OR NOT TO LOVE
Lily giggled softly to herself. It was the first time James had heard her laugh. He felt his hand reached for hers. The two looked at each other for a moment. James edged closer to her hoping she would not back away. He felt his lips meet hers. Unlike all the other times he had kissed other girls he had gone out with, this kiss felt real, he wanted it to kiss to last forever, for the first time, the kiss meant something, something he could not describe...
The 'kiss', lasted 2 seconds. He felt Lily pushing him away.
"I can't! I'm sorry. It's just that I don't want to end up like those other girls that you went out with. I don't want to ruin our friendship just like that." She sobbed
James looked disappointed, but knew she was right. Every single girl that he has been with has been left heartbroken. But he knew inside that Lily was unlike any other girl he had been with before. He had never felt this way for a girl before. "Lily, you're different". James tried to explain.
"Maybe we would be better off as friends," she interrupted "I'm really sorry about everything. I don't know what I can do to make it up to you. All this trouble I have caused. I'm really sorry,"
James remembered a similar conversation with Rachel. "It's not your fault. It has really nothing to do with you. I don't even know why I bothered to come down here in the middle of the night to find that you have no feelings for me what-so-ever," James said feeling hurt and annoyed. "I think we should go back to Gryffindor Tower before any more trouble is caused." He picked up his invisibility cloak and walked off trying his hardest not to look back at her.
James crawled into his bed. He sat there for a while, thinking about what a great night it could have been.
"And where were you?" Sirius asked suddenly, scaring James half to death.
"I went to get some food from the kitchen" James lied.
Sirius looked him in a 'yeah sure' sort of way. "Oh really," he said sarcastically, "And where's the food? You can't lie to me. I know everything."
James looked annoyed "Yeah, I'm sure you do"
Sirius put on an evil smile. "Lets play a game," He suggested once again.
"What? Lets see what Jamesie's been up to by asking him game?" he asked ironically
Sirius cracked up at this. He fell back on his bed laughing. He finally straightened his face, but before he knew it he fell back onto his bed laughing and rolling. All this laughing woke up Lupin.
"What is the matter with you guys? Its 2am in the morning for gods sake! Go back to sleep!" He fell back down on his bed and went back to sleep.
James looked really irritated. "He's right Sirius! Go to sleep," pulled up his sheets and once again lay awake in his bed. He thought about all the things he would've done with Lily that night, and whether he should've just left her there. He thought as he watched the leaves from the trees outside fall swiftly to the ground.
Lily could not sleep the whole night either. She didn't even know herself whether what she did was right or wrong. She got up from her bed, and sat there for a moment. She reached underneath her pillow and took out a little silver diary with Lily Evans engraved on the cover. On the side, there was a little silver lock. Lily took out her want and whispered 'Alohomora'. The key unlocked. She got out a pen and wrote:
James Potter. does he really think that I would like him just because he got into detention for me? As if! But he kissed me! Why did he kiss me? No. What about all those other girls that he has gone out with and kissed. Every single one of them is left rejected. He's just not my type. But then again, he kissed me and told me that he loved me. It was so real. Rachel and Ruby would be dying to hear something like this from him. What was the matter with me? I completely ruined the perfect chance to make Rachel jealous make her feel sad about what she and her mother did to mine. For once something she couldn't get. Something that would be mine and not hers. What was wrong with me?
Wake up Lily! He loves you! More than Rachel. He wouldn't tell Rachel that he loved her. I'm going to hold onto this opportunity. I shouldn't let him get away.
Lily closed her diary. She thought about how she was going to ask James to still love her. She blew out the candle that was next to her bed and soon she went to sleep.
The next day James walked sleepily down to the Gryffindor table for breakfast. His eyes were puffed. Everyone could tell he didn't get much sleep. Sirius was already seated at the table. James sat down on the seat in between Sirius and Lupin.
"Not enough sleep? Eh?" Lupin asked
"No. He had enough sleep. It's just that Lily and him had a little misunderstanding and little James is sad now." Sirius said sarcastically.
"Shut Up!" James shouted "and how did you know anyways?"
Sirius looked at him strangely. "I followed you,"
James's face turned red. "You WHAT?! You FOLLOWED ME? Why did you follow me?"
Sirius gave him a sweet, innocent look. "Excuse me, but you stepped on my head when you went out last night with your invisibility cloak. You never go out at night without me, so I what was I supposed to do? What if you forgot about me or something, so I followed, until I saw you talking to Lily and when Drakebobbybob gave you detention, and when you kissed her, up to the bit where she breaks away. And then I was in a way afraid that you would see me so I went back to Gryffindor Tower, just before you came back." He had said this super fast, without taking a single breath, James was quite impressed.
"You saw and heard everything?" James asked, even though he knew the answer. Sirius nodded.
James looked at him angrily. He got up and stormed out of the hall.
"Well, I guess he's going back to sleep" Lupin said
Almost everyone on the table near them heard this conversation. The rumor that James kissed Lily traveled around the school like the speed of light. No sooner had it reached the ears of Rachel and Ruby.
"What?! James Potter kissed Lily Evans? Oh that loser, I bet she forced him to or something" Ruby sulked.
Rachel looked down at her feet. She had no idea what to say at this point in time. "Well they make a good couple," she finally said.
Ruby raised an eyebrow. "I thought you liked him Rachel!"
Rachel finally looked up. "I do. But my mother always told me. What is yours will always be yours, and what isn't will never be. If James likes Lily, then there's nothing I can do about it." Rachel said, softly. Not only was she upset she was deeply hurt inside as well.
"Don't be such a loser Rachel! I bet Lily Evans started the rumor just to be more popular! Like James would fall for something like her. Well that bitch! I'll just go and prove to her that she is nothing but a lying try- hard" Ruby shouted then stormed through the door, in search of Lily.
Rachel was left alone on the couch in the common room. No longer had Ruby left, Sirius walked in. He noticed Rachel in the corner. Sirius straitened his shirt, ruffled his hair, and walked over casually to Rachel.
"So, ah...ah" to his surprise, he was lost for words, this has certainly never happened in front of a girl before.
Rachel looked up at him. "Did James really kiss Lily?" she asked looking slightly embarrassed.
Sirius thought about this, whether he should lie to her, or hit her with the truth. "He ah...ah...he......" once again he was lost for words.
"I thought Lily wouldn't make something like that up. I knew it was true from the beginning" Rachel sighed
Sirius felt extremely sorry for her, he didn't even know why, there has been hundreds of girls who have ended up in a situation like Rachel's. "Um, Rachel? Would you like to go out with me?"
"What did you say?" said a puzzled Rachel
"Um would you... um... like to... um go to the um... Hogsmeade...um...go to Hogsmeade with me?" he asked. It was strange for him. He had never had to ask anybody to go out with him before, it was always them that asked him. He has never embarrassed himself so much infront of a girl so much before.
"You mean as a friend?" she asked
"Yeah, as a friend" Sirius confirmed.
Rachel smiled "I'd love to" she answered
Sirius felt a dash of sunlight shine in his heart. "So tomorrow 9am?" he asked
Rachel thought for a moment "Tomorrow 9am" she answered
"Okay then, see you" Sirius said, and walked off, thinking about what he would do tomorrow with Rachel. He suddenly felt very proud of himself as he had successfully asked Rachel to go out with him!
A/N: Okay end of next chapter. Hope you like the story so far :). PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!!
