Ok I'm so very completely really really really really really really really really sorry for not updating in like what FOREVER! See even I'm mad at myself. But I do have a reason I went bowling with my friends and broke my pointer middle and thumb fingers. So I couldn't write until I got the thingies that they put on your fingers off. But now there off and my fingers don't hurt anymore and I can write again! YAY! Who's exited? ME!Ok no more procrastinating on to the story!

Convo between Big Time Rush and me

Me: Hey look everybody her comes Kendal! What's up kendork?

Kendall: One the cake that Carlos threw and two I'm not KENDORK!

Me: Ok fine party pooper let's just get to the story.

WARNING!: Ok so there is actually warning in this chapter. Warning child abuse.

James couldn't sleep. He tried he tossed and turned but couldn't seem to get comfortable. All that was running through his head was 'not them, not again, I don't think I can live with that again. Besides what if my friends find out? I can't let that happen either. God my life is really messed up.' Eventually he fell asleep from exhaustion. The next day he woke up earlier than normal and decided to go on a run. It was chilly and wet because it rained last night. But James didn't care. He knew he would warm up once he started running. He ran until the sun started to rise. He then realized that he should get home his friends would wake up soon and he needed to be there. He got home just in time because his friends started come out of their rooms when he walked in.

"Hey James where ya been?" Carlos asked still sleepy.

"Oh I just went on a morning run." He replied casually.

"Hey James you ok you look like you went to hell and back." Logan told him worriedly. And he was right. James had big purple rings around his eyes and his hair wasn't as shinny as normal. He was just worrying about his parents to much.

"Huh? Oh yeah I'm fine just….tired is all." He said walking over to the couch. Then they had breakfast and cleaned the whole apartment getting ready for James parents. They then all collapsed on the couch.

"Man I never knew how tiring it is cleaning a house." Carlos complained.

"Ya but it's done so be happy." Logan told him. Just then the door bell rang and Kendall got up to answer it. When he opened the door he saw James parents standing there.

"Oh you must be James parents right?" Kendall asked.

"Yes we are." His mom answered. She was about 5 foot with long brown hair and chocolate brown eyes that when you looked into them they looked like they were looking into your sole. She was a small petite woman that had a nice figure.

"May we come in?" His father asked. He was a tall burly man with big arms and a lean figure. He had short dark hair and big dark brown eyes that looked cold and hard. He had a beard that was medium length.

"Um yeah sure." Kendall was stunned at how much James looked like his mom. But had a figure like his dads. They walked in and dropped their bags in the living room.

"JAMSEY-POO!" His mom yelled and opened her arms wide for a hug. James got up hesitantly not sure if his parents where for real or not. But then I dawned on him that they were being nice to him around his friends so they won't know. That made him relax just the slightest that his friend won't find out. He then got up and gave his mom a small hug. As he was wrapped around her with his head by her mouth she whispered….

"We'll get you tonight when you decide to come to your apartment to "hang out" She whispered menacingly. At that James started to tremble just a little. 'Going to their house? That would be horrible!' He thought but he knew if he didn't suggest it soon the consequences would be ten times worse. His parents talked with his friends and told them how much they loved James and how he was always spoiled rotten. 'Ha yeah right they love me.' James thought bitterly.

But soon it was time for his parents to leave and he knew he had to go with them so he stood up sucked in a big breath and tried to hide the tremble in his voice.

"hey why don't I go with you and maybe spend the night, you know so we can spend more time together." He suggested hoping maybe just maybe they will say no. But his hopes were crushed just like that.

"Oh we would love that honey come on we need to get going his mother said in her loving tone. It sickened James hearing her use that fake tone just to fool his friends. But just as long as his friends never found out he would be ok. So after his parents got their stuff together they all left to go to where ever his parents were staying.

They finally arrived at this old looking house in the middle of nowhere. James looked around and decided it was because his parents didn't want people to hear his screams of pain, that they caused him. He silently fallowed his parents up to the door of the house and inside. The inside looked at least a bit better. Livable James decided.

His parents when to one of the back bedrooms ad put their stuff down. They them walked to the fridge and grabbed a couple of beers. It seems they came here before going to the palm woods. James sat down in what looked to the living room and waited patiently for his parents to come. When they finally did he asked them a question he's been waiting forever to ask.

"Where's Shane? "

"That little brat? Once you left he went up for adoption." His mother said without even looking bad for doing it.

"Y-you gave him away?" James asked stunned that they could possibly be that cruel.

"Hell yeah what else would we do with him. He gave us heart break again because he was nothing like your older brother Mathew. He was a god. He liked football, soccer, baseball basically every sport out there and he always got good grades in school." His father said proudly. "Nothing like you the only sport you liked was hockey, you're always obsessed with your looks and you're dumber than a mule. Who could want a son like you?" His father told him cold heartedly. "Shane is just like you. No one will ever want him."

By this time James was almost in tears by the words of his father. How could he have abandoned Shane like that? Just like Mathew abandoned him. He might never see him again. 'You're such a horrible brother' James thought. 'Leaving Shane with these people all alone.' 'How could you?' Right after he finished that thought he felt something smack his cheek and leave it stinging. He looked up to see his dad towering over him.

"I know what you're thinking and yes, you are a horrible brother leaving your little brother all alone. Too bad, now you will never see him again." His father laughed evilly. He then picked James up and threw him into the wall with so much force that he left an indent. James just lay there unable to get up with how much pain he was in. His mother then went over there and started kicking him the ribs and stomach, telling him how much she hated him and how he should never have been born.

After she was finished with her rant Mr. Diamond grabbed James by the neck and picked him up slamming him against the wall again. And then started punching him repeatedly in the face. After he was satisfied with the damage he made he dropped James to the floor. Then his wife and he drove off to go to a couple night clubs. They left James on the floor curled up in a ball bloody and crying on the floor. The only thing running through his head was all the things his parents told him. And he was starting to believe it.

He finally got the strength to get up. He swayed a bit at first but then got his footing. He had to get out of here. Go back to the palm woods. So he started the long journey back home in the dead of night. Broken and bruised physically and mentally.

Ok how was that good, bad, so horrible I should crawl in a hole and never come out? Tell me in a review! And again I'm so sorry for the long wait I so would have updated but I couldn't type unfortunately but now you have it so enjoy it.