Doubt


"If there's a god please listen to me! Earlier I was complaining about the fact that I was alone, but I came to the conclusion that being alone is really nice, so please make this Titan go away!" Jinx prayed silently. Kid Flash had found her only a couple of hours of later. She had even left the town. The villainess was in a park outside Keystone City, but somehow he had found her and even though she was really angry and annoyed, she was slightly impressed, but of course she would never admit that.

The pink haired girl was sitting on a bench, while she was trying her best to ignore him, but despite her efforts she just couldn't. "You are getting on my nerves" Jinx groaned "Go away! Talk to someone else!" "I thought you were ignoring me?" he asked and she didn't even have to look at him to know that he had this stupid grin on his face. "Usually I would, but apparently you are so unbelievably good at getting on my nerves that I just can't!" she hissed.

He was leaning against a tree and was looking at her in a way she couldn't really describe. It was giving her creeps. "Sorry, but as long as you are a potential threat I can't let you out of my sight" he answered. She buried her face under her hands and said desperate "I can't believe that they made you an Honorary Titan. They must have been out of their minds!" Jinx sighed. "I think I'll get a headache."

"They made me a Titan, because I saved them from some Brotherhood guys" he answered in his usual light hearted way. "Wait!" she turned her head to him surprised "You saved them from the Brotherhood of Evil? You saved the Teen Titans? Really?" A split second later he was behind her. She had to turn her head again. "Well, yes. They underestimated them once and I helped them out. Those Brotherhood guys are really everywhere. We are quite busy at the moment" he explained lightly, but Jinx could hear that he was worried. She would be too, if she would face a threat as big as the Brotherhood of Evil.

"Should you really tell someone like me those kinds of things?" she asked him a bit sceptical. Again he moved at superhuman speed and appeared right in front of her. He was smiling. "And what is someone like you?" he asked. Jinx rolled her eyes. "A criminal. I'm not on your side" she answered. "I think you are" the red haired hero responded smiling. "What?" the girl said confused. Of what was he talking about?

Now he was sitting next to her. Couldn't he stand still for just a moment? "I think that you are on my side. The good side. Probably you want to be a hero, but you're too afraid to admit that" he said grinning. For a second Jinx simply stared at him then she stood up and said "Yeah, in your dreams!"

"Ridiculous! I? Wanting to be a hero? This boy is crazy!" she thought, while she was walking away. Suddenly Jinx turned around and asked "Just out of curiosity: Why do you think that?" He moved again and was next to her within a second. Apparently he never moved at normal speed. "Just a feeling. But you said that you wanna be somebody, who gets respect. Is there a better way to achieve that than being a hero?" He looked at her for a while. She was quite surprised. Eventually the girl managed to answer. "I thought heroes are heroes because they want to protect the normal people from villains and not for their own personal goals."

"You saved those people without letting anyone know. That's pretty much the same."

"No, it's not! I only punished those thieves. I just didn't want that someone of my friends could find that out."

"And how did it feel? Even if you did only punish them" obviously he didn't believe her "you must have felt something when you saw that those people were safe because of you."

Jinx couldn't answer that. She really couldn't, because it would be like admitting…that he was right.

"I…I'm not going to answer that. It's none of your business anyway" she answered.

"So it felt good?"

"I never said that!"

"But you never denied it."

"I…" Jinx started, but she couldn't finish the sentence. Then the villainess clenched her fist. "Who cares what he's thinking?" she thought bitter and stormed away. "Hey, you didn't answer my question!" he said. Then the pink haired girl stopped and turned around. "You want the truth? You really want it? Fine then I'll tell you the truth. Yes, it felt good! And I know that that's a cliché, but it was annoyingly rewarding. But know what? I don't care! I really don't. And do you know why? Because I like being a villain. Besides I would be the worst heroine in history! I hate taking orders, I'm impatient and I always break rules. Plus, and this time I'm serious, it's too late for me anyway! Perhaps for you it's never too late, but for me it is!" she explained calm but her voice was sharp "Believe whatever you want, but I'm a villain."

"And why do think that it's too late?" he asked serious. She glanced at him "Because I can't change myself anymore. I'm a villain and I'll always be a villain!" "You don't have to change yourself. You would be a great heroine just the way you are. What's wrong with the way you are?" Surprised Jinx looked at him. She knew that her mouth was open, but she didn't care. No one had said something like that to her before. No one. Not even her friends. Absolutely nobody.

"You…really think that?" the girl asked a bit amazed. "Really" he assured me. For a second she looked at the ground then Jinx looked into his eyes. This was just like in the museum. Even back then his words had affected her, although she had only intended to catch him. She bit my lip. "I should just turn around and go…" the villainess thought. She really turned around, but didn't walk away. Jinx struggled with herself for a while before she could say something.

"I…can't" the pink haired girl said after some moments.

"You can't what?" he asked.

"I…can't switch…the sides. If I did that, I would betray my…friends…and everything else." And now it was out. She had said it. Jinx had admitted that…being a hero was in a weird was appealing. The thought of never running away again to be…free in a way was tempting. Of course she wasn't seriously considering it, although…NO! This was not an option!

"Right now you are only betraying yourself" he answered. "What…" She slowly turned around. He looked at her seriously but still very friendly. Then she asked "What do you mean by that?" "You believe that only because you are a villain now you can never be something more. You are different and you know that, you are just too afraid to admit that you don't want to be a criminal anymore."

Again her jaw dropped. It took her some moments to answer. "St-stop trying to convert me!" the girl crossed her arms in front of her chest "It's not going to work!" "I'm only telling you the truth, Jinx. Nothing more" he answered now cheerful again. She groaned desperately. "Please stop being so damn understanding! So awfully kind! It's getting on my nerves. Just leave me alone or if you have to arrest me! But please stop talking!" the vilainess said and walked away. And relieved she realised that he wasn't following her.


Edit: Yay, 3rd person POV!