Are we okay ?

Suddenly Alex turned her head away and laid her cheek on Reid's, so that her lips were at his ear.

"We shouldn't do this, I'm sorry…I'm not that good with scotch, I'll go upstairs-"

"No Alex, I should be sorry for do- trying this, I'll better go now."

Reid got up and left before she could say a word. Alex buried her face in her hands and sighed, hopefully she hadn't destroyed the one thing that meant so much to her. She cleaned up and took her bag upstairs, got changed and went to bed, only to fall into a restless sleep.

"Get up Mommy! Get up!"

Ethan said loudly the next morning when he ran into his mother's bedroom. Immediately Alex sat straight up in bed only to be tackled back down into her pillow by her son, who jumped up at her and pulled her into a tight hug.

"Good Moring Ethan." she said sleepily as she smiled at him.

"Come on Mommy get up!" he said and sent her his best ear to ear grin.

"Alright I'm up." together they got out of her bed and Ethan quickly pulled her down the stairs, and she could already smell Coffee and Pancakes. They walked into the kitchen where Kat stood in front of the laid breakfast table.

"Welcome home Mom!" Kat said smiling.

"Come here," she opened her arms and embraced her son and daughter tight and even fought off some tears. "That wasn't necessary sweetheart."

"Yes it was, 'cause we have the best mother in the world!"

"And I have the best children!" Alex answered and kissed Kat's cheek. "I picked the flowers for you." Ethan said proudly. She bent down and gave him a kiss on his cheek. "They are beautiful, thank you!" then they sat down to eat together.

"Did everything go well, while I was away?" Alex asked.

"Yep, I woke Ethan, took him to school, I cooked, helped with his homework and so on." Kat answered as she poured herself some coffee. Of course Kat only "forgot" to tell her mom about the party where she got drunk and had smoked again. Alex then saw something new on her daughter and blinked before she looked again. On both of Kat's ears were new earrings, on her left one were a second earlobe piercing and a Helix, and on her right one were two new earlobe piercings.

"When exactly did you plan on telling me that you got your ears pierced four more times than I allowed you to?"

"Shoot! I knew the Helix was too much, but I thought you as a Profiler would notice it earlier." Kat said with a smirk.

"I thought there was no need to pay such a close attention to your ears! Guess I was wrong, but stop now okay? Or else I'll glue your ears to your head!" Alex warned .

"Yeah, I think it's enough, for now."

Alex narrowed her eyes at that, Kat only giggled.

"Can I get something like that too Mom?" Ethan asked which made Alex stare at him.

"No!...When your older…maybe."

Ethan only grinned at that and Alex looked at Kat with her best "Stop getting such stupid ideas in the head of your little brother!" look, but the grin of her daughter only widened at that.

"I'm going to meet a couple of friends so you two have to do something on your own today…" Kat said.

"Okay what do you want to do today?" Alex asked as she looked at her son, who thought over it for a moment.

"Can we go to the park?"

"Sure, the park it is then!" She laughed as he threw his fists in the air.

After they cleaned the table together and got dressed, Alex took her clothes out of her to go bag and wanted to do the laundry. She didn't believe that Kat had washed anything, so she went to bathroom to collect the dirty clothes from there too. As she walked into the room, she walked into Kat, who flinched as she dried herself from the shower she had been taking.

"God Ma! Couldn't you knock?" she asked loud as she quickly covered her breasts with one arm, shocked that her mother walked into her liked that and that she wasn't making any appearance to leave! If she wasn't careful, her mother would be able to see the hickey at her neck, her navel and the one that was almost on her right breast.

"What? There is nothing I haven't seen before, apart from the fact that you are my daughter." Alex said calmly, as she walked over to the hamper.

"You still could've knocked!"

"Why? This is still my house Kat, technically I can walk into any room I want, without knocking."

"Are we going to discuss this now? Seriously? Get out Mom!" Kat said. Alex turned to leave when something on Kat made her stop.

"Is that a hickey at your neck…and navel?" she asked as she stood in front of her.

Quickly Kat covered the one on her bellybutton, and mentally cursed Toby for this. But she forgot that her mother would now be able to see the worst one. "Err- No, that's-" but Alex came even closer and pulled the left arm of her daughter away from her chest, so the hickey could be clearly seen.

"Kathrin Marie Blake! Could you please tell me how that hickey got there?" she asked intimidatingly.

"Do I really have to explain that to you? I'm fifteen Mom! What are you expecting me to do?"

"Well I expected that you wouldn't let a boy do a hickey on your breast! Who was that anyway?"

"You can't really think that I would tell you who did this, could you? Gee Mom!" Kat groaned embarrassed. "And just to get the facts straight, it's not on my breast it's above." she mumbled while she blushed.

"You…you would tell me if you had sex, wouldn't you?"

"Oh my God Mother! Even if I would, then clearly not while standing naked in front of you in the bathroom! Get out!" with that Kat shoved her mom out of the bathroom.

Was her daughter having sex? She was only fifteen! Okay it was legal if the boy was her age, but that didn't mean she was allowed to- No she couldn't imagine that! Suddenly Alex could understand her own mother better, Kat was still her little baby girl for God's sake!

"Mom, are you ready?" Ethan called from down the stairs with his soccer ball already under his arm waiting for her to come down. She looked at the laundry in her arms, to hell with this! She wanted to spend the day with her son.

When they got to the park Ethan quickly found some other boys to play with and Alex stood some feet away from the pitch and the other parents around. She glanced down at her cell and saw that she received a message from Spencer and her stomach turned.

'I just wanted to apologize to you for yesterday. I promise it's not going to happen again. Are we okay?'

Alex's heart crumpled up because she regretted that she hadn't kissed him. Alex didn't know what to do next, there was something, but…she just couldn't tell what. She didn't want that one thing to break, because they weren't good at being anything more than friends.

'Of course we are fine! There is nothing to apologize for Spencer,'

"Hello!"

She looked up and saw a man standing in front of her who smiled friendly at her. He was taller than her, had short blonde hair and green eyes sparkling with kindness and intelligence.

"Hi," She said and smiled back, "Can I help you?" Alex watched Ethan out of the corner of her eyes, she knew that even though someone talked to her she had to watch her son. She didn't want him to be one of her cases!

"Well, I guess no, I ha." He scratched the back of his head nervously. "I only wanted to keep you some company. You looked a little lonely from over there and I wanted to get away from those women who constantly try to flirt." he stated and Alex looked over his shoulder to see that the group of single ladies sent her looks which could kill.

"Same for me."

"Are they constantly flirting with you too?"

She gave a short laugh "No, I mean I don't like those women either, they think they are perfect, but when only one men walks by, they try to pick him up."

"And you're different?" he asked.

"Charming, but no I'm not like that. I'm not at home as much as I would like to be, so I want to spend as much time with my son as possible, before he's too embarrassed to be seen with me!" now he gave a short laugh.

"Yeah I know that! Who is yours?" for a moment Alex wasn't sure if she should answer and the man seemed to notice that. He then pointed to a blond kid that was playing with Ethan, so she wouldn't think he was some creep.

"My son Brandon is the one in the goal. You're a nice change from those over there."

"The one in the red "Flash" T-Shirt his name is Ethan," Alex said as she pointed towards her son. "Thanks…but I probably just suck at being a single mom."

"I doubt that, If you like you can call me Peter!" He said as he held out his hand.

"Alex," Alex answered as she shook his hand. "So, Peter, why did you really come over to me? I saw that you were standing on the other side of the goal so the women were only able to stare at you but never talk to you!" she asked and grinned at the perplex look on his face.

"How did you manage to psyche me out that fast?" He asked.

"Well, I'm Profiler with the FBI so a side effect of my job is to keep a closer look at my surroundings. Especially the little details, it's kinda hard to turn that off."

"Darn! Compared to that, my Lawyer job really screws up." He said in mock anger.

"It's not that great believe me. You see a lot of bad things and you are often away from home, I lost counting at how many times my son was angry at me for not being able to watch his soccer games and don't let me start with the paperwork."

"Ha! That's why I have a secretary!" he said proudly.

"Yeah, I could use one of those too." Alex replied.

That was when their boys came running up to them. "Hey, do you already want to go?" Alex asked

"No we only came to collect my ball. The other kid with the ball had to go home!" Ethan said.

"Okay, or are you heading home now too?" She asked and looked at Peter.

"Nope we-" But before he could finish the sentence the two already ran away to play again. "-have enough time…when you're going out with me?" He added.

"That's blackmailing."

"Guilty as charged, so?"

"I don't know Peter-" she couldn't really go out with him, not after last night could she? But then again, Spencer would probably never go out with her.

"Come on, one dinner and if that doesn't work out that's okay. But I can be pretty persistent." he smiled at her again and Alex thought about it, what could go wrong?

"Okay."

"Well-Oh what?" He asked a little bit surprised.

"Yes, I'd like to have dinner with you." Alex said as she smiled at him.

"Great, what about tonight, around eight?"

"Sounds perfect." she answered still smiling.


"Could you finally stop now? For the last time Mom, you look great!" Kat said as she stood in the doorframe to her mother's bedroom and shook her head as she watched how her mother fumbled with the fabric of her dress for the dozenth time. It was black, went down to her knees and the fabric, which created a nice V neck, went over her right shoulder leaving her left bare. She wore black pumps, her hair was curled up in an elegant way and she wore decent make-up.

"You think so? Maybe I should-"

"Oh No! You're going on this date with this guy, clear? Shorty's already over at Christina's and I'll be there too in a couple of minutes okay? Since Kurt, it's about time you got back into the dating game!"

'Even though it should be Spence and not this jerk!' Kat mentally added but she would make sure they would be together, even if it meant to manipulate this date her mother was about to have.

"You deserve someone nice, so enjoy the evening and see what happens. If something happens then that's great and if it doesn't then that's okay too." Kat said as she dragged her mother out of her bedroom.

"I hope you have a great time!" she said and kissed her mother's cheek.

"Thank you, "Alex said as the doorbell rang. "I'll see you lat-"

"Oh that's something you can completely forget! In the next 12 hours nothing in the world is able to get me into this house." Kat winked at her and Alex sent her a reproachful glance because her daughter thought she would sleep with Peter on their first date. She was not a saint, but she clearly wouldn't sleep with him.

When she opened the door, in front of her stood a really handsome Peter. He wore a Black suit, a white shirt and no tie and he also seemed to check her out.

"You look amazing!" he said and smiled.

"Thanks, you don't look that bad yourself." Alex answered, before he could answer Kat butted in.

"Okay folks that was my cue. I'm gone, have fun and if I were you, I would be careful with my doings, you never know who's maybe watching and-"

"Kathrin Marie Blake! If you are not over at Christi's in ten seconds you will never be out of your room until the cows come home!" Kat only grinned cheekily at a confused Peter.

"It was a nice to meet you Peter, you should get her into bed before mid-"

"Kat!"

"I'm outta here," She then squashed past Peter and ran towards Christina's house on the other side of the road, who was also spying out of her kitchen window.

"That was my teenage daughter, who you or anyone else will ever see again because she will be grounded until she's eighty or I'm dead, whatever comes first." Alex grumbled embarrassed as she locked the front door.

"Nah, don't be too hard on her. I was worse her age!" he said as he led her to his car. "She's not going to follow us, is she?" Peter asked as he opened the passenger door.

"No, she just loves to embarrass me, nothing more."

They drove to DC where he stopped at a fancy Restaurant Alex never had been to or even heard of. As they walked to the entrance he held out his arm and she quickly linked arms with him.

"Welcome!" A nice waitress behind a desk said to the couple.

"Hello I reserved for two, the name is Stein." Peter said.

"Yes I see it, please follow me!" the woman led them to their table which had a beautiful view of the garden which was decorated very romantically. Many tiny lights were in the bushes and trees around the big fountain in the middle of the backyard with swimming candles in it.

"I intended to eat outside but it's supposed to rain, so I thought I shouldn't risk anything. I hope you don't mind?"

"What? No, it's beautiful here!"

"So, I'm not beginning this forced dinner that bad then?" He asked and smiled.

"No, not bad at all!" then the waitress came already back to them.

"Would you like to order?"

"Yes I would like to have a bottle of your 2010 Chateuneuf du Pape Vielles Vignes!" He said in perfect French pronunciation, but when Alex looked at the price, she caught her breath.

"Wait! Peter! A wine costing less than 225$ is also okay."

"Believe me I have the money and I want it to be an unforgettable night. Even if it's only because of the expensive wine!" she smiled.

"Okay…"

When they had also ordered their food, they began to talk.

"So FBI huh?"

"Yes, when I'm not flying over the country catching serial killers, I'm a doctor for Forensic Linguistics at George Town and of course a Mother. In between I sometimes even sleep and breathe."

"Really? Wow…FBI Agent, Professor and Mother, that's impressive. But why FBI?" He asked really interested.

"Ah…I think it's a family thing. My father was a captain in our home town as was my older brother and my younger brother. As the only girl I always had to do my own thing so, as there was no Agent in the family, I decided to go to the academy after college."

"Do you sometimes regret that you chose this path?" she hesitated and thought for a moment. There was her mother, her brother, the abduction of her daughter, the disappearance and probably death of her husband, her kids, the Team and especially Spencer.

"No. Without this job I would be someone else and I wouldn't be in this state, not to say in this restaurant." she said truthfully.

"And why are you here then? I mean you're often away from you kids, why are you doing this?" Peter asked after taking a sip from his wine, wanting to hear more about this interesting woman in front of him.

"I don't see many good things in my job. There is so much cruelness…sometimes that much, that I think I'm going to lose the belief in the good in mankind, but then I come home to my kids or phone them to hear their voices. I hug them and I know that I did the right thing to do that job, because I'm lucky enough to be able to hug my children. And for every life we save, I know it was worth everything and they know it too. I love my job even though it can be hard and make you lose the faith in humanity…but if we don't do this and take that upon ourselves…who else is? 'cause you'd be surprised how few are trying to become an Agent or better said are able to do the job!"

"Enough of me, what kind of Lawyer are you?" Alex asked, trying to shake the images of a certain Agent who was one of the reasons she loved this job so much, out of her mind.

"Well, at least not one of kind who tries to get the bad boys you arrested out of prison. I'm a tax lawyer." Peter said and nipped at his wine.

"Yes, that would've led to a conflict of interests, if you wanted to get the people I arrest out of custody. So, why did you want to become a tax lawyer?"

"I grew up in a poor family, was the first one who would be able to attend a college and so I had to work hard to get through college. I worked as a Pizza boy and one day my employee, a really nice man, got a letter from the revenue authorities. He was an immigrant and didn't understand a word in that letter or what fiscal evasion was. So he got bankrupt and I had no job, like six other nice people and that was terrifying. What those authorities could do with a blink of an eye and so I did everything to become a tax lawyer."

They talked about different things whilst they waited for their food and also while they ate, sometimes she caught herself in expecting him to fall into a long speech about different things like Spencer always did and the longer she thought about that, the more she missed it. Alex missed it relaxing and talking about things nobody else thought were interesting or things everybody else even thought were deadly boring!

Alex had stopped while she ordered, because she thought he would say something about the bad spelling mistake in the menu. She nearly wanted him to tell her for the thousandth time, why a toast was called a toast. She missed laughing about his jokes no one else thought were funny.

Alex missed hearing what he did all day when there was no case, what books he read and over which theories he had been thinking. She missed the fact that it wasn't him with whom she sat here.

'Now pull yourself together damn it!' Alex tried and she tried it really, but now she couldn't ban Spencer from her thoughts and if she was truthful she didn't even want him to leave her thoughts.

"Are you alright?" Peter asked as he brushed his hand over hers which caused her to flinch a little and he gave her a questioning look.

"No, it's…I-I'm really sorry Peter, but this isn't going to work. I thought I was ready, but I wasn't. I'm really, really sorry, but I can't do this Peter. I'm sorry!"

Alex laid the money for her food on the table and left the Restaurant, before she would make it even worse. When she stood outside, she took a few deep breaths and walked down the side walk, it was only then, that Alex remembered that she had no car! She would have to call a cab. Just as she had her cell out of her purse, it began to rain like the world was going to end.

She cursed in several languages and ran to a roofed house entrance. That was when her look came over a street sign; this road was somehow familiar with her. Then she realized that she had been here before, at least she drove through this street, but at nights it looked different. Alex started walking, though it rained like hell and four blocks straight down the road and two blocks to the right, she stood at the front door of his apartment building and rang his doorbell. Alex probably looked like she had taken a swim.

"Hello?"

"Spencer? It's me Alex, could I come in? It's kinda cold out here." she asked shivering and whipped the rain from her face.

For a moment there was silence on the other side of the intercom. "Yes! Yes of course!" The buzzer could be heard and she stepped inside. She stepped out of her pumps and walked up the stairs to his apartment, where she knocked one time, before the door was opened. When he saw her, his eyes widened as she really did look like she had taken a swim and the next thing he noticed was how she was dressed and he had to swallow.

"God Alex, did you walk here from Alexandria in the rain?" he asked as he quickly led her inside.

"Thanks and no just a couple of blocks." she answered as she stepped inside and gave a little sneeze, which he thought was very cute.

"You're frozen Alex!" he stated quite reproachfully as he touched her bare shoulder.

"Would it be rude to ask, if I could change into some of your clothes?" she asked and her cheeks turned slight red.

"I think it would if we weren't friends!" Spencer said and smiled at her, before he led her to his bedroom. She followed him hesitantly, they knew each other long enough but neither had been in the bedroom of the other. It wasn't very big, just enough space for the surprising large bed, his drawer and of course a bookshelf, Alex really liked it.

"Here," He said as he laid a sweater and a pair of pajama pants on his bed. Both was too small for him, but looked like it could fit her just fine. "Well…I'll make us a cup of tea." he added and his cheeks turned red as he turned around to quickly leave his room as he realized she was about to change.

"Wait!" He stopped and looked at her, but Alex had turned around so he wouldn't see her face while she talked.

"Could you help me with the zipper?"

"With the-?…Oh! Y-yes 'course." He stepped closer to her and Alex stroked her wet hair aside, so he had better access to the sipper of her dress. He was very thankful that she couldn't see him swallowing as he slowly pulled the sipper down and blushed as he saw more and more. When he reached the clasp of her lace bra he suddenly stopped.

"Here you go." Reid mumbled and hurried out of his room and into the kitchen where he stood and waited for the water to boil, trying not to think of Alex half naked in his bedroom. When the tea was finished he took the two cups and made it back into the living room where Alex sat on his old tattered sofa. He placed the cups in front of her and handed her a blanket which she thankfully laid around herself.

"So how do I come to this honor?" he asked and sat down beside her.

"Well I had a Date and I ran away. Oh God I just ran from a date!" She hid her face in her hands and only seemed to realize now what she had done. But she was also not able to see, how his jaw tightened when she had started to speak, or how Spencer couldn't help himself but smile when he understood that she had run away.

"Oh man, why did you do that?" He asked trying to sound not as happy about that as he was feeling right now.

"The truth? I thought I should date again, but that was a mistake. It started real nice, he was really nice, but…something was missing, something just didn't seem to fit." Alex said, but left out the big fact that she wished it would have been him.

"If I'm interrupting you I could call a taxi no problem!" she said as she realized she just went over without asking if he had time.

"What? No! You would never interrupt something, I wasn't doing anything anyway!" he answered and saw that she was still shivering, so he moved closer to her and laid his arm around her and handed her one cup. They both could stay like this forever, they didn't want to let go of each other, as they enjoyed the others present more than anything else in the world.

But the ringing of his cellphone destroyed the moment and they forced themselves to let go of each other, even though something in the both of them, refused to let the other one go.

"Hello?...okay…I'll tell Alex...okay, see you tomorrow!" He hung up and she looked at him confused as he shifted back into the position he was before and laid his arm back around her.

"That was a new case in New York and somehow Hotch's brother has something to do with it." Spencer explained and laid his head on hers. Even though she would have to leave early tomorrow morning, she stayed with Spencer way after midnight and enjoyed his company, wishing to finally find the courage to tell him how she felt. But she had still time to tell him. She would tell him after this case she promised herself.

She couldn't intuit that then it maybe would be too late