so as promised there is a chapter from Alice's POV. hope you like it. and i know its very vague. but things will clear up later. read on. and review even if you hate it. which you probably do. because i certainly am beginning to.


DISCLAIMER: no they are not mine. It all belongs To Stephenie Meyer. i dont own anything. dont sue me!


ALICE

Bella and I had had just returned from a heady shopping trip, with she moaning about how heavy the bags were, and me laughing and rolling my eyes. When I felt the same tell tale signs of a vision coming. I saw nothing particularly interesting. Just me standing alone. And with the vision came the feeling. Of loneliness. Of complete , utter loneliness, of the darkness advancing around me. As was my wont I searched around for Jasper. And that is when the world slipped from beneath my feet.

I could not see him. He just slipped out of the future. Just like that. I searched and searched and searched but his future was no where. not in the family. Away. anywhere. Anytime. He was just not there.

Bella jerked my shoulder to get my attention. I don't know how long I stood there with my face blanked out and my expression frozen in horror and shock. And hurt.

I called him. I told him to not do any thing. What ever he was going to do. But he wouldn't listen. I tried reasoning , I tried being stern, even absurd, I tried insult. But he did not stop. Of course I should have known that. My jasper never shirked away from a challenge. And I was posing to him was a challenge. He would never refuse it. He would never turn around. He said he was going to the hospital. I wondered what could happen in the hospital to make his entire lifetime disappear. To make his future disappear. Permanently.

I know Nessie and the wolves make holes in our future. But despite being blind there I can see the whole family around them if I try hard enough. And God knows, how hard was I trying now. He is the witness, I searched as if my life depended n it. And it most probably did. I could see my family. Every now and then. Doing all the things n life. Every single one of them but him. That stupid overprotective oversensitive fool.

I said to him to stop he moved on. I spoke harshly, he rebuked me. I try to save him, he saves me with his life. I try to offend him to make him turn around. At least that will change his decisions and maybe, just maybe he will appear in the future. But he did not. His future was not there when I searched for him. I could see him reaching the hospital and then no further. My vision failed then. Nothing else.

With him not listening to me, I hung up on him. There was nothing more to do now. I heard Bella calling me tentatively from behind me, I was already too far in the future to realize that. I called Emmett and told him that I was not coming back. That I was fine, but I wanted to be alone for some time. My poor brother kept asking me questions and I kept silent, listening to his voice. And then I hung up on him too and did the only plausible thing.

I ran away.

Jasper being no where In the future meant only thing. Only one thing that wrung my soul. that he did not exist in the future. i did not know when it would happen, how it would happen. I just did not want to be around when it did. I did not want to know if anything happened to him. So I went away. Away from him, from Bella, from my family. From everything. From my Jasper.

Despite what everyone believed I was not the pillar that kept us upright and together, he was. He was my light. The darkness that engulfed me, he was the antidote to that. And if he was nowhere in life, what was my purpose to be?

Every body kept calling me. Edward. Carlisle. Esme. Emmett. Rosalie. I did not care. I did not answer. I dumped the phone to get rid of the nuisance. There was no point to live in a world where he did not. To live without him, to watch the shadows creep back into my life. To know that even if I tried to go home, he wouldn't be there with that smirk, pouring over a book, or shaking his head at another one of Edward's antics.

Bella searched for me. I saw her coming even through the daze I was in. I escaped her, of course. She became an irritant after the third time I ditched her. Why wouldn't she just go away? Can't somebody even wallow in peace? And leave she did. Every time I saw her coming for me, I wished it was his face. But his future was somewhere lost.

He was just.. . Gone.


rieveiw, it may gimme the courage to write all that is in m mind, along with trying to take my exams ..