Touch Me
Chapter 4
I glanced back at Sam and saw he was staring wide eyed with a slack jaw at me. Part of me was happy that I could touch him; while the other part was worried he would reject me like Dylan had. Awkwardly he began to stand up pulling me up with him. Once I was finally on my feet I snapped out of my trance and hugged him. I didn't cry, I was finally happy. I just stood there with my face buried in Sam's shirt inhaling his smell. Dear lord it felt amazing to be able to touch him like this. I can't remember the last time I was able to feel some one.
He tentatively brought his arms and wrapped the around my waist and pulled me closer to him, if that was possible. I smiled into his shirt when I felt him rest his chin on top of my head. We stayed like that for what felt like hours and I was perfectly fine with that, I couldn't have wanted it any other way.
When I finally pulled back I looked up at him with a nervous smile on my face. "Hey Sam." I said with a sheepish grin forming on my face.
"Kai, God do you know how much I've missed you? I can't believe this is happening."
"I know me either." I then noticed that his arms were still wrapped around my waist and my hands were still clutching his shirt. I let go of his shirt but I didn't back away.
"What do we do now?"
I sighed, "I don't know, I mean how is this even possible?" He just shrugged and let his hands fall from my waist. Dear lord I missed his touch already, so much that I nearly whimpered. God what was he doing to me?
I looked back at him again and realized how little clothes he had on. It may be Texas but I got cold in the winter and he was only wearing a sweater, t-shirt, and a pair of jeans. I quickly grabbed hold of his hand and started pulling him back in the direction of my car.
"Where are we going?"
"Back to my car. If I'm cold then I can't imagine how cold you must be." We walked back the rest of the way in silence. Once we got in I turned the car on and put the heater up.
I turned to him expectantly. "So what happened?"
He sighed. "I knew you were gonna ask that. Well I guess that after you ran away I started getting back into drugs again, but it was worse than before. I couldn't stop and I became the dead-beat loser that I am today. But on the bright side I have been clean for over a year." He added with a sheepish smile.
"Shit Sam, why did you do this to yourself?"
"I don't know. I really have no excuse, and I hold myself one hundred percent responsible for my actions, but I had just stopped caring." I reached over the console and slid my hand into his that were sitting in his lap. He slowly looked up and met my eyes.
I took a deep breath "Look, all that stuff is in the past and I'm willing to look past it" I took another breath. "But that doesn't mean I'm not disappointed in you. In fact I'm kinda pissed at you for just throwing away your life. Right now let's get just some place to stay. I don't think that my parents would take too kindly to letting you stay in their house looking like this. I bought an apartment building earlier because I'm going to be staying out here for a long time. If you don't have anywhere to stay I will let you stay with me only if you promise to get back on your feet and get a job."
I pulled the car out of the parking lot and glanced at him, still waiting for an answer. "I don't deserve this. I can't accept this Kai, but if you are anything like you were in high school then I know that I have no choice in the matter." He added with a small chuckle. I shook my head and smiled to myself as we headed into the more tame part of town. I finally reached my apartment complex and ushered Sam inside the apartment. Once we were inside things began to get awkward.
"So do you have any other belongings besides what you have on you?"
"No" he answered as he stood there by the door way, looking out of place.
"Ok then, I have an incredibly large amount of gift cards and coupons for some clothing stores so let's get you something decent to wear." I walked past him to the door after grabbing my purse. Once we got into the car another awkward silence took over.
"So, what store do you want to go to first?"
"I don't care."
"Well it's your clothes so you choose."
"Kai it's your money, you shouldn't even be doing this."
I took a deep breath, "Listen Sam. I don't want to have any of this I'm no good crap. You're my partner and I'm just trying to make a conversation with you so it's not awkward. The least you could do is help!" I looked back at him and I felt like I just kicked a puppy, a scruffy hot puppy but still a puppy.
I took another deep breath, "Listen Sam, I'm sorry for snapping at you like that. It's just that I'm a little stressed out. I mean I just found out that I can touch two people and I'm afraid that you can too. I mean what if you find someone else that you can touch and you choose to leave me to be with them-"
I was cut off when I felt a warm hand slip and encompass my hand that wasn't on the steering wheel. "McKensi I will never ever leave you. I want you to know that now. I'm sorry I wasn't putting much effort into the conversation; I'm just still a little shocked that I can touch you. You don't know how long I have dreamt of being able to just hold you." I looked over at him and pulled over to the side of the road and put the car in park.
"Why are we stopping?" I looked at him again so he could see how much emotion I had in my eyes. I leaned over the console and hugged him. I clutched onto him as though my life depended on it. Not even a second later I felt his arms wrap around my waist. He pulled me over the console onto his lap and just held me.
Once we were finished shopping we went back to my apartment. I ended up buying him nine shirts and ten pairs of pants. As we walked in he dropped the bags on the floor by the door. After locking the door I grabbed Sam's hand and lead him into the kitchen. "Do you want some hot Chocolate?"
"I would love some." I started mixing the chocolate milk when I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waits from behind. I sighed and leaned back into his touch. We stood like that until I realized I was still stirring the chocolate milk. I slowly pulled away from Sam and walked to the microwave with both of the mugs and put them in. I waited until the timer beeped to pull the mugs out. I handed a steaming mug to Sam and walked past him and into the living room. I was still in a daze from that hug. We hadn't even kissed yet and I was smitten. I sat on the couch and turned on the TV. I looked back at Sam, "Well are you coming over here or not?" I asked with a smile. I nearly laughed at the goofy grin that appeared on his face. I faced forward and watched the images flickering across the screen. I felt the cushion next to me shift as Sam sat down. I set my mug in between my legs and leaned my head on his shoulder. I closed my eyes and inhaled his sent as his arm wrapped around me, pulling me closer to him. I set my unfinished mug of hot chocolate on the floor and curled up next to Sam on the couch and let his heart beat lull me to sleep.
AN: I am sorry for the wait. Please please please review or something, I need to know if any one like this. To those how continue to review I love you (not in a creepy way). I have a crap load of home work with for my English teacher Ms. Leach (yes that really her name O.o) and a my uncle has lymphatic cancer and after nine years the doctors declared the chemo no longer helping so we are just waiting to see what happens. Sorry for the sob story but I needed a rant :). Maybe it will make y'all review. Sorry again if the updates come slow but I won't give up on this story.
