Why is Yoongi so afraid of telling anyone? Why can't he just speak his mind out, he's just afraid that everyone will hate him if he tells them. So he hasn't told anyone.
He can admit it to himself, he is gay and he is crushing on his best friends little brother. And no one knows. And Yoongi is happy about it, or so he says, because no one knows what's reality.
But the thing why he kind of wants to tell his friends is because he kind of thinks that Tae might like guys too. He just kind of knows it. And if Tae likes guys, there's the small opportunity that Tae might like him, but like that's unlikely, like someone like Jungkook would be more of his type, Yoongi is too grumpy and quiet and anti-social.
And now Yoongi is choking on air. Today at school lunch Taehyung said that he has something to say to everyone, and told everyone that he is gay. So Tae really is gay? Yoongi was right? He really is choking on air. And Taehyung is noticing quietly mouthing 'do it too' to him, and that makes Yoongi choke again.
How does Tae know? Now Yoongi is worried. How did he know? Should he do like Tae told him to? He is almost hyperventilating. "I am too" he just barely whispers, totally out of breath and that makes everyone's stares turn to him and they're not anymore staring at Taehyung, but Yoongi. Yoongi. And Yoongi is ready to cry. They're staring at him. They know.
"Could you go away, please" Namjoon, Taes big brother says. "Me or Yoongi or both?" Tae asks, big eyed and looking a bit afraid. "Both" Namjoon continues, whispering himself, looking like he would cry too. Is he that afraid of them? Or is he afraid what others think? Hopefully the next, Yoongi thinks, already crying, but just now realizing it.
He really is sobbing there sitting next to the table staring at Tae who is signing for Yoongi to get up and leave, but Yoongi can't, his legs aren't working and then Tae is there, helping him up and dragging him out of the room. "I-i-i'm so-so-so-sorry" Yoongi sobs while hugging Tae tightly into him. "Hey, what are you sorry about, there's nothing to be sorry for" Tae says rubbing Yoongi's back comfortingly. "They threw us out" Yoongi whispers in Taehyungs chest. "It isn't your fault, it's their fault, they're stupid. Now shush and let's go sit down" Tae continues and goes dragging Yoongi to sit on the stairs to the second floor, pulling Yoongi to his lap and hugging him into himself.
Yoongi is surprised, Tae isn't mad at him? How Tae isn't mad at him? He just possibly ruined Taes friendships and everything. "Hey don't cry beautiful" Tae whispered in his ear, shocking Yoongi to stop crying and just stare at Taehyung. More precisely at Taehyungs lips, because they are beautiful. Beautiful. And then he notices that he is kissing Taehyung, whose turn it is now to be shocked. But he kisses back, and now they are kissing each other and it feels good. Great even. Amazing. Wonderful. Miraculous. What ever adjective you can think of using. And they are kissing for a long time before Namjoon appears coughing awkwardly. That makes them pull apart and stare at Namjoon who is clearly ready to say something. "We had a talk about this, and they think that you shouldn't be with us, they are afraid how others will think, but I'm fully supporting you guys, you are cute together" He says, winking his eye and doing awkward moves with his hands. After that he just like disappears fastly, going back to others.
"Wow, they don't want us back" Tae says shocked by the fact. "I wouldn't have believed so" Tae continues "I thought that you all would act like that if I came out" Yoongi whispers, hoping that Tae will not hear him. "You shouldn't have" Taehyung answers, clearly hearing what Yoongi said, and then awkwardly looking into Yoongi's eyes. "Why did you kiss me?" He questions and Yoongi starts blushing furiously, thinking that should he run away. Yeah he probably should run away. He's trying to get up but Taehyung is fast to put his hands securely around Yoongis torso, making it impossible for Yoongi to run. Well shit. "I kind of like, like you?" Yoongi says, making it sound like a question then turning his face away from Tae. But Tae isn't taking that, he pulls Yoongis face back facing his with his fingers and pulls him closer "I like you too" he whispers against Yoongis lips and then they're kissing again.
Yoongi can't think anything. He is officially happy. Officially not able to think. Not able to do anything, but move his lips and tongue together with Tae's. And it feels amazing.
This couldn't have turned out better.
