lHello there people! Welcome to the fourth chapter of 'Blessing'. I have nothing much to say, only that my classes ended, finally, and that I might be able to update a little bit more! Anyways, I leave you all with the new chapter, enjoy it!
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Chapter 4: Trust
Both men got inside of the car, closing the doors and starting the engine, Eiri was silent, he didn't know what to say, he glanced over to the boy that occupied the space of the passenger's side, the boy was playing with his fingers and humming a song that was playing in the radio, his eyes closed as if he was in some kind of trance as his voice hummed louder and later on he opened his mouth, words of the lyrics leaving his mouth disguised as whispers, whispers that were so faint but if you could hear them, they were like a spell… A spell that would make you forget about everything else, making you concentrate in that angelic voice.
Shuichi placed his hands over his legs as he kept on singing, Eiri's urge to touch the boy grew, he would give anything to touch that soft tanned skin, but he knew more than that… If he did that he would just break the trance the kid was on right now and it would be replaced by screams, but his urge was too much… He wanted to touch that fragile body, to have it wrap in his arms once again, to be able to make the boy his once again…
Make him 'his' once again? Didn't he just tell the boy that he was 'his'? And how'd that come to matter with him? Since when does he label things as 'his' and since when does he cares so much if he has that brat by his side or not? What was wrong with him?
The car pulled over in his garage, where he turned it off and opened the door, Shuichi was still singing as he felt a hand shaking him, "We're here… You can stop now." Eiri said as Shuichi rolled his eyes and got off the car.
The tall novelist walked before him, leading him inside of the house, turning on the lights and moving to the kitchen to grab a can of beer… Shuichi just stood there, looking blankly at nothing at all, his eyes were empty.
"So… What do you want to talk about?" Shuichi asked as Eiri opened the can of beer and stood besides him, one of his hands traveling to his thigh as the other one placed the beer in his mouth.
The blonde took his time to answer, he opened his eyes and looked at Shuichi, "Why'd you ran off like that?"
"Did I have another choice?" was the reply of the boy.
"Why do you always run away?" Eiri asked without thinking it twice.
"Maybe because is the only way I know how to deal with my problems?" The boy replied once again as soon as Eiri asked the question.
"Then why don't you change it?"
"Because I'm afraid…" To this answer he finally moved… he sulked his head in his shoulders, his hair covering his beautiful lavender eyes.
"Afraid of what?"
"Afraid of not being able to handle the truth…" Shuichi said as Eiri placed the beer down in the table, 'Afraid of not being able to handle you… To handle what you have done so far…'
Eiri cupped the face of the young one in his hands, "Afraid of not being able to handle the truth? When we feel like this… is when we notice that we're living in reality, you damn brat. Feeling afraid is just another thing that makes us human, you don't have to run away." He said as he cut the distance between their faces.
"What do you want from me, Yuki" Shuichi whispered as tears fell from his eyes.
"I could ask you the same thing, brat…" Eiri said as he kissed the boy.
The kiss was broken as fast as it was given, Shuichi pulled away, "Yuki… I want to know the truth… I want to be able to trust you once again…" the boy said as Eiri sighed and looked away.
"You want to know the truth… Which truth?" Eiri asked as he stood up straight and got his beer once again.
Shuichi looked at his 'lover' walk away and silently sighed, he closed his eyes and took his hands to his chest, the nervousness made it difficult to breathe, he could swear that he was forgetting about how to breathe… he felt he was lacking air, but he gathered his strength and the words finally left his mouth, "How long… How long have you been cheating on me…"
Eiri chuckled and took a sip of his beer, "Cheating on you? Well… I still don't see the point in 'cheating' when I just told you that you could stay here for a week and you've stood here for a period of three months… But If you wanna call it that way… Then I've only 'cheated' on you once." The blonde author said as he ran his long fingers through his locks. "Anything else you want to know?"
Shuichi turned around and looked at the author to look at him only to find a smirk in his lips as if he had done nothing bad at all, "W… What am I to you, Yuki?!" the boy yelled as Eiri quirked a brow at him, can resting in his mouth, "D… Do you think you can do with me whatever you want?! Do you think that I have no feelings?! That I'm just one of your 'fuck buddies'?! That I'm just another one of those you spend your night with and then toss them aside?! What gives you the right to think of me that way?! What… What am I… to you?" the boy said as he fell to his knees, no longer able to keep his cool.
Eiri turned around and watched as the boy sulked, a feeling of grief taking over him, burning him, making him want to say things he knew he couldn't say, "You're nothing..." Eiri said as Shuichi's eyes widened with pain. Big lavender eyes widened with horror and filled with pain and sadness as he saw the novelist walking towards him, "You're nothing you've said before… You're none of those things…" Eiri said as he kneeled himself in front of the boy and reached his hand to touch one of his cheeks, "You're none of those, brat… But at the same time… I cannot tell you what you are…" Eiri said kissing the boy's tears, 'Because if I tell you… I might be able to break you later on…'
Shuichi's hand caught Eiri's and brought is close to his mouth, then placing a soft kiss on the back of his hand, "I don't want to be broken again, Yuki… I want to be whole… and to always be with you… But… can you be with me?" Shuichi asked as Eiri smiled down at the boy and ran his long fingers through his pink hair.
"I can't promise that to you, brat… But let us live the moment… No one knows what awaits us tomorrow… And I cannot promise something I might not be able to keep." The blonde man said bringing his lips upon Shuichi's and kissing him.
Shuichi resisted for the first seconds, but then he finally gave in to the poison… a poison that might end up killing him later on… But he didn't care, he wanted to be with Eiri now, not caring about the future.
The kiss deepened as Shuichi welcomed the invasion of Eiri's tongue, his hands traveled the shirt of the author as he undid every button and took the piece of cloth off, his hands roamed the blonde's back as his mouth got separated from the other's.
Eiri's hands worked on the shirt of the boy that was lying between his arms, removing it careful enough to hurt the damn idiot, and as he pulled away from the kid to remove it he could spot a lustful glance directed in his way. Eiri smirked to himself as Shuichi's shirt was tossed aside, the boy searched for the other's body immediately, his hands still roaming his back as his mouth kissed and sighed in Eiri's shoulder blade.
Eiri got Shuichi in his arms and brought him to the couch, "I don't want it here…" Shuichi mumbled against Eiri's shoulder blade as the blonde just gave him a puzzled look, "I want you to take me… In your room…" Shuichi said as he kept on kissing the man's shoulders.
"Are you sure about that?" Eiri asked as Shuichi just nodded, this time his finger working its way down Eiri's spine and his tongue tracing an invisible line that ran from his shoulder to his neck, as Eiri carried him to the room.
As he made his way into his room, he placed the singer's body in his bed, slowly as if he was afraid to break a porcelain vase, as kisses were shared with fervent passion, caresses and nibbles in different part of each other's body just added log to their fire, moans and sighs could make them understand what each other felt.
Minutes later, moonlight piercing trough the blinds and shinning upon two male bodies, lying in bed, white silk covering what needed to be covered while sweat covered their whole bodies, Shuichi's small hand finding the other's and intertwining in a soft grip.
A sob left Shuichi's mouth as Eiri just looked down at him, "What's wrong now?" The novelist asked coldly as the pink haired boy never answered back, "Are you asleep?" he asked lightly shaking the body that lied on top of his and yet no response, "So… you are asllep…" Eiri whispered as his long fingers ran along his scalp, 'Why is it… That even though I claim not to worry over him, I do… How come that I don't want to brake him… Why do I want to keep this kid by my side… What is he? What does he have that no matter how much I try to run away from him or toss him aside I can't? Can someone help me with this? Can someone, please, make me understand what is he to me?'
Weeeeell… That's the end for you people… D See?! I've been updating lately! As I've said before, the whole story is a giftfic for Vindalootoo for being such an awesome writer! She deserves this and more! Thanks so much for sharing your stories with us!!
And well… This is it for me! I got an A+ in my 'History of Animation' class so I'm very hyper and happy and I need to work on my 'Graphics' final so wish me luck! Laterz! And sorry for the short chappies!
