Another night of terrible insomnia, means another update! I hope everyone had a fan-bloody-tastic Saint Patricks day, and if you didn't celebrate, hope you had a swell weekend! As always leave me a review, follow or favorite!

Chapter songs, After The Goldrush - Neil Young, Where We Belong - Thriving Ivory, Ain't No Easy Way - Black Rebel Motorcyle Club, Into The Mystic - The Wallflowers, You're Heart Is An Empty Room - Death Cab For Cutie, Radioactive - Imagine Dragons

"All ordered, 45 minute wait, so I grabbed us some chips, Billy insisted." When my eyes met hers I was searching for answers. Why was I feeling this way? Why now? The persistent ache in my stomach was throbbing, meeting the beats of my heart as I watched her hips sway back and forth, how lovely the shade of blue she was wearing made her porcelain skin glow, how full and pink her lips were and how badly I wanted to taste them.

"Jake?" she murmured, her expression concerned as she placed the bag of tortilla chips on the work bench, stepping towards me.

"Sorry Bells, just got a bit of a headache, didn't mean to space out you.." I laughed, it wasn't a lie, my head felt it was going to explode with all this new information that it was trying to process, I felt like I was going to over heat.

"Oh, well I can go, I didn't know or I would hav-." I raised my hands cutting her off, of course she would see it as her fault, she always did.

"Naw don't worry, it's from lack of food." I mumbled, shoving a handful of chips into my mouth, for her benefit. I honestly had no will to eat at this moment. My stomach was too full of butterflies. Her face relaxed as she dipped her hand into the bag.

When the pizza came, we washed up and took a seat on the porch, it was a clear night, not too cold, but Billy brought out a quilt for us. I tossed it Bella, I didn't wanna to be that close to her right now, I didn't know how I would react.

"Mmm this is really good Jake, good choise for toppings." she around a bite. I laughed and nodded as I stuffed my own face, but I had to admit it was nice to see her eating. She needed some meat on her bones.

"Is it okay if I come over again tomorrow? I only have a half day, and Billy said you guys don't even have school tomorrow." she said as she looked down at her slice, only half eaten, and I had already had about half the damn thing to myself.

"Bells what did I tell you, so long as I'm here, you're welcome. Hell if you wanna hang with Billy I'm sure he wouldn't mind the company." I couldn't believe she kept asking after the countless times I said I always wanted her here. Maybe she was just use to being left out. Left behind more like it. I fisted my hands, anger bubbling again as I thought about him and what he had done.

"Yeah but I don't want to keep you from your school work, and well, other friends. I feel like I'm stealing you away." she sighed, finally putting her half eaten slice on her napkin, wrapping her hands around her knees, the quilt slipped off as she leaned her head forward.

"Ahh don't be silly Bells, I get enough of Quil and Embry at school, sides I prefer hanging out with you and I really don't mind if you wanna 'steal' me." I said softly, pulling the blanket up around her frail little shoulders, she looked up at me, her warm brown eyes staring into mine. I could feel that familiar pull between us again, I wanted so badly to lean in and touch my fingers to her cheeks, taste her lips with mine. The fluttering in my stomach was so intense it hurt. I needed to touch her.

"You're too nice to me, I don't deserve it." Her face hung low again, breaking eye contact with me, breaking the pull between us. I shook my head, trying to remove myself from the heavy daze she had put me in with just her intense stare.

"Are you crazy Bella? You deserve the very best, more then what I can give. But so long as you want to hang around me, I'll do my best to make you happy and make sure you stay that way, you deserve no less then perfect Bells." I finally got the guts to touch her, placing my hand on hers, her fingers were cold, and balled into tiny little fists. She jerked her arm back at first, but she relaxed it, letting me entwine it with my own. I instantly felt her warming up at my touch. She sighed heavily, her eyes looking up at the sky.

"Thank you, you know I'll do the same, for as long as you'll let me, as long as you want me. You're all I've got Jake." Her words were no less then a whisper but I heard them clear as day. Her voice was so broken, so sad it made my heart sting for her. I wanted to take all the pain, the bad memories, the tears, the depression, right out of her, and make things right. Make her euphoric. As she made me, with her mere presence.

"I'm never going to send you away Bells, never." I smiled, tilting her face up to mine. Her eyes were starting to drip wetness at the corners, but she pulled her mouth up into a smile as she leaned forward. I was hoping for a kiss, but her arms encircled me, pulling me closer. This was enough. This is where I wanted to be. In her warm arms, her lovely scent swirling up my nose, her face buried in the crook of my neck. I wondered if she could feel how fast my pulse was racing.

"I better get going, but I'll be here as soon as I can tomorrow. Do you think we can paint and ride them tomorrow?" She still had one arm loosely around my waist, I rested my chin on her head, trying to ignore how her fresh aroma whirled in my nose, making me dizzy. It was a sweet scent, a fruity smell, it made my mouth water.

"Sure sure, anytime you want, I'll be here. And I think so, I'll give them the once over before bed tonight, we can spray paint them, it dries faster." I put my arm over her shoulder experimentally, trying to gauge how far I could take it before she pulled away. To my surprise she leaned closer to me, snuggling into my side, sending a jolt of electricity threw my veins.

"I'm so comfy and warm. I could sleep right here." she sighed, letting out a long breath as she pulled her knees up, leaning them against my thighs. I felt a twinge in my jeans as she touched me, a reaction I knew would happen eventually, but now was definitely not the time.

"I'd say stay the night, but sadly you have school tomorrow. I'm pretty dang comfy too." I pulled myself closer to her, just wanting to feel her warmth, she squeezed me tighter and sighed again, this one was almost annoyed. I knew it. I pushed too far. Here comes the rejection.

"Maybe tomorrow, I mean, it's friday, and I got nothing except homework as a date all weekend. I mean it's up to you I just thought it would be fun, we could like tent out in the yard like we used to as kids, remember that?" she laughed. Her laughter brought a swell to my chest, it was like music, so carefree, so lighthearted, I loved it. I loved her.

"Yeah and my dad and Charlie would always try to come out and scare us, and we'd pretend to be scared just for there sake." I laughed too, remembering. We both let out a slow breath, as she got to her feet, wrapping her hands around herself.

"You're so warm Jake, now I'm gonna freeze without you." she said as she headed toward the truck. I followed close behind. I wanted to grasp her into my arms and keep her there. She hopped into the drivers seat and cranked the heat. I could see the pink on her cheeks becoming more visible. Thankfully.

"I'll see you tomorrow Bella, sleep well." I murmured, touching my hand to her face. Not caring if she pushed me away, I just wanted to feel her skin beneath my fingers again. She gazed back at me, a hardy look of indecision and timidness in her eyes. She blinked and leaned into my palm, touching her petal soft lips to me for a moment before smiling.

"Goodnight, thank you, for everything."

As she pulled away I stood there for a moment before heading back to the garage. I taped off all the important parts and set out the paint we would use tomorrow. I needed to keep my head busy. Test the wheels, test the breaks, test the throttle, did I put gas in the tanks? I racked my brain trying not to think of her. And of course failed miserably

The next morning I was up bright and early, early enough that my dad stared at me strangely as I poured myself a cup of coffee.

"Bad night Jake?" he asked as he filled his bowl with corn flakes. His eyebrows pulled down heavily over his eyes. He could read me like a book and I hated it.

"Yeah. Just had a nightmare and couldn't fall back asleep." I sighed, plunking down at the table. It wasn't a nightmare but an absolute fantasy. I didn't know how many more of these lucid dreams of Bella I could take. They would leave me breathless, my heart beating unevenly and much too quick, light-headed, and quite hard between my legs. I was 16, the wet dreams stopped a long time ago.

"I'm sure it'll pass son, you know when you mom died, I acquired terrible insomnia, I went days without sleep, it was a terrible time." I blanked out on my cereal as my dad spoke. I didn't have it in me to listen. I had to figure out how I was going to get through the day with Bella without making her uncomfortable. I mean what was I going to say? 'Oh hey Bells, just thought you should know I'm in love with you, and I've been dreaming about jumping your bones' I groaned in my head, as I ate bite after bite, for once not caring about what I was eating, barely even tasting it.

"Just try not to worry so much Jake, things will fall into place." my dad finished, dumping his bowl into the sink. I nodded my head and smiled for his benefit as he rolled out of the kitchen, thankfully leaving me alone. I slammed my head into my hands, why me? Why couldn't I just be the friend she needed? What was so difficult and awful about that?

When her truck pulled it, it pulled me from my dull trance that I had been in all morning. Almost afraid to see her. But once I felt her presence it all disappeared leaving nothing but bliss. She met me at the garage, a hug smile on her face. I let my eyes wander over her body, she was clad in a pair of blue jeans and a baggy red and black flannel shirt. She looked adorable. I instinctively wrapped her up in my arms, holding her tightly, I didn't want to let her go.

"I kinda need to breathe Jake.." she laughed as I set her down, for once I felt a flush touch my cheeks. Maybe I was over a little over zealous.

"Lets get this show on the road, I've set out the paints and covered everything but the frame and tank, so it's all ready to go." I grinned motioning her forward. She smiled the biggest smile I had seen so far, and it knocked me back a bit. How incredibly beautiful she was. I followed behind her, ignoring all other thoughts coursing through my muddled head.

Hope this was alright! I'm a little muddled myself, and I did this in a daze! Please take a moment to review it would mean the world to me!