Chapter 4 – Is this love?
Wiping the sweat from his brow, it took Finn just a couple of minutes to regain his ability of thinking straight. Trying to put on his clothes back, he pushed Quinn aside, breathing deeply. She seemed offended with his manners.
- Is it necessary for you to shove me?
He was nervous again. Even worse, he has just come to his senses, remembering that they hadn't used any protection.
- We have to go to a drugstore right now.
- What's wrong, Finn? Are you feeling sick?
- No, Quinn. We didn't use any protection. And I definitely don't want to feel the way I felt last year, do you? We need a morning after pill.
Saying that, he turned on the car, driving at the speed of sound, to the next drugstore.
Quinn felt strange about what happened. Of course Finn was a wonderful person, he was thoughtful and nice, but the passion they've shared once was lost for good, and she knew it from the moment they've started sharing some intimacy. The fireworks were over. But she had to think about their campaign for Prom Queen and King for the next year, that was the most important thing right now for her. Maybe he wasn't the hottest guy about town, but he was her best choice to be her King, and possibly her future husband. Well, LOVE is overrated, anyway. She needed someone nice and hardworking, and Finn was definitely the best candidate.
She was so focused on her own thoughts that she didn't notice Finn in front of her, holding a glass of water and the two pills.
- Just take them.
She swallowed the pills with no water, watching him frowning as if he was thinking about anything else but them. She was absolutely sure he was thinking about HER. The annoying midget, the dwarf. Rachel freaking Berry. Swallowing her pride, she put on her best poker face, trying to look like she was pretty upset.
- You look angry, Finn. Didn't you enjoy our first time?
He was far from thrilled. He was having the same feeling he had when sleeping with Santana: the sexual relief was obvious, but once more he's behaved like a robot. Well, like most man do. Sex for guys is automatic. Push the buttons, and there you have it.
He felt empty. As if he had no soul. Because he didn't love Quinn. He had never loved anyone else but Rachel. But now they weren't together anymore, she didn't want him, and he had to learn how to live without her. Quinn was pretty and hot, everybody wanted her. And she wanted him. End of story. Maybe he would never know what real love is.
His stupid pride that had always made him do the most stupid things was there again, making him blind, preventing him to be himself once more.
- It was very hot, of course I liked it!
What a big fat liar he was…
And so was Quinn, she didn't stop thinking about Sam the whole time.
It was Monday again. The whole Glee Club was gathered, they had to vote to choose their MVP for Regionals. And Rachel was unanimously voted.
- If I could just say a few words…
Rachel could hear Santana saying:
- And there she goes, making me regret voting for her…
Rachel didn't mind at all. That unique moment was far too special to be ruined by some stupid Santana's remark.
Barely holding herself together, she stated:
- Well, first of all, I just wanted to say how amazing the song you guys wrote was. I was so inspired! You know, it's funny, I won a lot of trophies before, in singing competitions, and dancing competitions, but I've always felt like the girl who never gets the brass ring. And maybe I'll never will, but today and at Regionals the way you guys believed in me and took a chance with me…
She had fat tears trying to roll down her eyes. It was difficult to Finn not to feel proud for her, and his own feelings were now a mix of love and hate, he was living in his own "twilight zone".
- All I've ever wanted was to feel special and feel chosen and I just want… I want to thank you guys so much for giving me that.
Everybody stood up and gave Rachel a big collective hug, except for Finn and Quinn. Rachel was so thrilled for being, for the first time ever, really LOVED by them.
Finn wanted so bad to be there, next to her, smelling her strawberry scented hair and her cherry glittered lips… but right now he was committed not only to his own foolish pride, but also to Quinn, who he thought that was in love with him.
Meanwhile, Quinn watched Finn's eyes fixed upon Rachel, thinking to herself why she was more jealous of Rachel being hugged by everyone, including Sam, than of Finn, that couldn't help looking tenderly at Rachel.
Well, it doesn't matter. Her plans couldn't, and certainly wouldn't be changed because she was having second thoughts about Sam. She had to move on with her plans of being Rachel's friend. They had a bad start with the song, and Finn got mad at her because she promised not to tell Rachel about them before Regionals. But if it wasn't for her, Rachel wouldn't have written "Get it Right", right?
With that particular thought on her mind, she joined the collective hug, leaving a dumbfounded Finn behind her.
Was she loosing it completely? Or was she really trying to be better than before?
His mind was a mess.
HE WAS A COMPLETE MESS ANYWAY. He didn't know what love is, and he was pretty sure love wasn't what he was feeling.
Okay guys, short chapter, sorry it took me so long... but next one we'll have Rachel facing Quinn. This is gonna be really something... Please review, it's so important to me...
