So, I give you the first angsty fic in the CCS Drabbles. Truthfully, writing angst is so much easier then writing humour for me. Don't know if I'll continue this plotline or not…

Disclaimer: CCS belongs to CLAMP, not me...


Drabble: Suicide

Word Count: 448

Rating: Teen

I gazed down to the world below me. The bright sun shone down on me as I stood on the highest skyscraper in the city staring down at the city below. Everything looked so peaceful, so ethereal, just like a picture you'd find on a postcard.

"If I left this world, would anybody care? Would people remember me? Would I still be loved? "I walked slowly to the edge of the high skyscraper as those forbidden questions rushed through my mind.

"Would he still remember me?" I wouldn't think so. After his betrayal, I felt dead, like there was something missing inside me. I've become a hollow shell of what I used to be. I used to be that cheerful clumsy girl you'd see hanging out around the park or walking with her friends. Now that girl is gone and she will never return. She has left and nothing of her remains. She had fled to somewhere where her childhood still remains, a fantasy world of happiness, of love and a beautiful, bright future.

As I gazed down, I thought bitterly "Wouldn't it be easy to just fall and let go? To end this heartless, cruel existence we call life? Perhaps the next world would be better, somewhere with no heartaches or misery, where sorrow was just a tale, and hate was a myth. Would that be possible? I used to think that love and happiness was real.

"I stood on the edge of the building as the wind currents swirled around me. Tilting my head, letting the sun shine on my face as the wind blew around me, whipping my auburn hair and tearing at my clothes, I thought "Yes, this would be a good place to die. My life may have been meaningless and short but maybe...just maybe...I would find peace I used to think the world was full of happiness and love. I was naive I know that love has never existed for me and never will and that happiness was just a child's illusion. For in this world, nothing is real. All is hidden behind a mask of lies and deceit."

The clock tower chimed in the distance. Perhaps it was time to let go. With one last sigh of regret, I looked down to my beautiful city and leaped. "Thank you. Syaoran, even though you never truly loved me, at least you taught me what love was. At least I'll die feeling that one precious emotion. Arigato, Sayonara. Thank you, Goodbye. I love you."

"STOP!DON'T LEAP! PLEASE!" That desperate plea rang out. My heart beat faster. "He's here. Does he still remember me?" But it was too late, I was falling.

"NO!"