I decided that since it was pretty outside … at least for me.
I grabbed my Ipod and phone and walked out the door for a walk.
I no longer hear Ally screaming and Nicole crying. The birds chirping also fades as I increase the volume of my Ipod.
What I hear now is the soft playing of a guitar and calm lyrics of The Scene Aesthetic's song Beauty in the breakdown.
Come on, take a step towards meSo you can figure me outI've been hoping and praying for a single wayTo show you what I'm all about
And I know, and I know this is the only way of pleasing the crowdsBut when this is over and done with and we walk awayThere should be no doubtsSo let's get a little closer nowLet's get a little closer now
The place is beautiful here, I'll give you that. The building were not over populated here. The were trees everywhere. And I loved it.
You say, you say that we're all tied upAnd wrapped around in useless, states of mindBut at the same time we're still youngWe have the time to realize that we were wrong
Come on love run with meGet the hell out of this townSo we can get a better feel for each otherI'll take you, back to, when youRemembered how you used toJust live your life a little for meTake the time to let it goStep away and watch me grow
I felt like I was alone in the world. So I danced, not like swayed my arms but I full on danced with spins and everything.So let's get a little closer nowLet's get a little closer nowYou say, you say that we're all tied upAnd wrapped around in useless, states of mindBut at the same time we're still youngWe have the time to realize that we were wrongYou can stay if you want toAnd I write to you and tell you how you've always been so special to meYou can stay if you want to, and I'll tryYou can stay if you want toAnd I write to you and tell you how you've always been so special to meYou can stay if you want to, and I'll tryTo keep you close to me (x3)You say, you say that we're all tied upAnd wrapped around in useless, states of mindBut at the same time we're still youngWe have the time to realize that we were wrong
I no longer felt like I was walking alone.
Like someone was there behind me.
I wasn't for sure so I turned as fast as I possibly could and saw….nothing. I must be going crazy.
I could no longer dance. I wanted to though I love to dance but when people weren't watching.
I decided to to walk back home since it was getting late.
As I opened the door I could hear my mother and father fighting about something or other.
I wanted to leave and go to La Push right now!
I walked up to my father and told him about he bonfire and how a student came to introduced himself and had invited us to the bonfire this evening while he was out shopping. I also said I was tired and out going to take a nap.
"Okay honey"
I walked up the stairs and into my bathroom which was across my room. The walls were white for the time being. I washed my face and put my hair in a ponytail and headed for my room.
With my ipod still attached I closed my eyes and fell asleep to Play radio play! Song I am a pirate, you are a princess.
is there a hole in your heartor am i mistakeni can see your capillary veinsyou be the patient I'll be the surgeonjust like 1st grade on the playground all daysoon enough you'll hear the black top calling for youafter that there is not much else you can dohave you forgotten your placeI'm being sarcasticthat shit could kill a bus of kidswe have a good thingshe is a bad thingwhy would she want to break uswho would want to break ussoon enough you'll hear the black top calling your nameevery day your life will never be the samei am a pirate you are a princesswe could sale the seven seasbring back some presentsfor all the peopleeveryone will love us even Courtney will love us.
The same guy from my other dream was in this one. I was still walking outside with my ipod on. I felt like someone was there so I turned and I saw the angel. Staring at me with interested eyes. There was admiration in his eyes. How someone could feel that way about be was surprising an uprising at the same time.
I had a urge to look away incase he wasn't real and my eyes were playing games on me. I felt something touch my hand.
As I look up I see that the angel is right in front of me, so close I can feel his breath, the smell of it. Ohh how much I wanted to taste it.
Then he spoke again.
"Haley."
Oh God. His voice was sultry and I wanted nothing more then to never wake up from this dream. Ever. But of course everything good has to come to an end. But mine came way too fast.
I felt as though someone was near me. I open my eyes but nothing was there nothing proved to me that there was something or someone in my room. I look at my clock 8:43.
What?! I have to get ready and go.
I rundown stairs and only managed to trip twice. "Mom Dad Are you guys ready to go?"
"We're waiting on you!"
"Okay, I just woke up."
Once I got to my bathroom, I noticed my make-up running from sweat.
Was it from running up and down the stairs or my dream?
I didn't waste too much time on that question. I showered and changed into a new outfit. It was my All Time Low shirt with dark blue skinny jeans. I did my make-up to look bold but not over done. I let my hair hang in ringlets and walked out the door.
It took twenty minutes to get to La Push.
Mom, Nicole and Ally stayed at home. Nicole could of come but she's been crying ever since we left. It's quite annoying actually.
It's not like her life is over, but that's she thinks. She looks like a zombie. She does what she has to, but nothing more. She cries and hold her stomach like if she lets go she'll fall apart.
If that's what love does to a person, why do so many people want it? As we walk onto the beach all you call really see is the fire. With it's red, orange, yellow with the hint of blue at the top.
I love that hint, it like the brunette in a room full of blondes. It's different which makes it stand out more then any of the other colors. I see people laughing about a joke some said. Half eaten hot dogs in there hands and a few of them with beers attached to there mouths.
I saw Embry and he waved for me to come over by him. So I brought my dad for him to meet him and his friends.
"Hey Embry, this is my dad. Dad this is Embry, he's the one who stopped by while you were a the store."
"Oh, Hi Embry I'm Mr…"
"Thomas. I know you're the first teacher here that's not from the reservation. That I know of."
My dad went to get something to eat. So Embry introduced me to his friends but they all looked more like brothers to me. Cousins maybe. He pointed to a kid with short hair and a very pretty girl who were looking at each with loving eyes. That probably won't last too long.
I thought to myself,
"This is Quil and his girlfriend Claire."
"Hi, I'm Haley."
They both greeted me and Embry moved on to the next couple. "This is Paul and Kim." Now Kim was extremely beautiful and she was different, she wore band shirts that were cut up and holes in her jeans, so you can see her bright pink leggings. And Paul once again looked at her like he would go to the end of the Earth for her. Even as she stuffed her face with food the look never changed.
I said hey and Paul replied but Kim waved because her mouth was full.
As Embry moved on to the last couple I thought 'Jesus do they all have to be couples and what's with the glances?'
Now this couple was different. They were older.
And the man had more of a protective vibe then the others. And now I know why, his girlfriend was beautiful, probably the prettiest.
Before I greeted them Embry whispered in my ear.
"Don't stare at her face."
I didn't understand what he meant. Then I saw her whole face. There were three long scars on the right side of her face. One covered her mouth another her eye. I thought about it and she was still so beautiful I had to look away.
I whispered back "I had no idea someone could be so beautiful."
"Why, thank you." His reply made me laugh, but not just any other laugh it was a full on laugh. Which didn't stop until every eye was on me. I must of looked as red as the fire.
I leaned into Embry and said " I meant her."
Then Embry introduced me to Sam and Emily, she wasn't his girlfriend, she was his fiancé.
I spent that night talking to every one. I had a lot of fun laughing making jokes. These people were different then the ones in Orlando, they were easy to talk to. Then the guys had to go real quick. Probably the guys room.
So the girls decided to talk.
Since I was sitting next to Emily I decided to tell her something.
"Emily, I want you to know that you're the most beautiful person I've seen here. Probably ever." I laughed. I haven't even known her for 3 hours and yet I felt she needed to know.
I saw the tears building up in her eyes.
"Oh dear God, please don't cry I didn't mean to. I was just surprised by how pretty you are. Please don't cry….."
Then I heard it.
She was laughing. Laughing?
"It's ok. I was just touched. The comment made me happy, not sad." Then she hugged me. And not the one arm hugs it was a big hug that brought me comfort.
I saw the boys coming and I heard Embry say "Sam it looks like you have competition." Which leaded to a smack in the arm.
That made me laugh. And then I hear Emily say "Sam meet my new best friend!"
Then she told everyone what happened.
I could feel the heat coming off of my face.
I needed to go. And I needed to go right now.
But I couldn't just leave, they were my first friends here and I didn't want to ruin it but my face was probably as red as can be, what if they thought I was a lesbian? I'm not but I'd be red and then they would think I was.
What if the girl I think her name was Leah, what if she came on to me.
I mean she is kinda ……. Big. For a girl. And most guys. I dug my head into my knees and wanted to go, they were now making jokes and laughing. I felt horrible. The I felt a hand on my shoulder. When I turned I saw my dad "Honey, we should go. Tomorrow is your first day at Forks High School and I want you to get a good nights sleep." Ohh dad if I could ever love you more I just did. I waved to everyone and said goodnight. Then I saw Embry jog to me. "Hey, I wanted to wish you good luck on first day. Night."
"You too. Bye." I like having new friends. I like having friends period. I miss Charlotte terribly. I call her a lot. But it's not the same.
After a twenty minutes of my dad talking and me supposedly listening I started to think of my first day tomorrow. I wasn't like my sister Nicole she liked to be unnoticed. I on the other hand wanted people to see me, and yet at the same time I was really shy.
Nicole was loud and out spoken, but since the moved she doesn't really talk. So I can't wait till tomorrow. I had a weird feeling that something …….Big was going to happen.
