Chapter 4 : Dreamless Sleep

Disclaimer : Once again, I don't own Ouran, except my Original Characters.

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After calming myself down, I went to my bedroom, pulling open the covers, I got in, not even bothering to turn off the lights. Actually, I sleep with the lights on. I know this sounds... peculiar, but it's something in the light- so warm and inviting- that I find so peaceful. So peaceful I don't mind sleeping with them on, or waking up at the blare of the lights and the sun's rays. I love it. The light.

After a while, sleep enveloped me, leaving a moisture on my cheeks and pillows. The tears.

The Next Morning

I fumbled with the pale yellow dress and slipped it on, and took my leather shoulder bag and ran out to the elevator. I pressed the button with

LOBBY

on it. Soft elevator music played as I traced my silver hair between two fingers. This is the first time I am actually able to have my natural hair and eye color. In the past, as 7 different people, I had worn wigs, sometimes dyes, to conceal my hair color, and contacts to change my eye color. This time I was allowed to have my natural hair and eye color.

The elevator door opened, and I ran out. I overslept. I went outside the apartment building, panting. My new chauffeur, I fired the other one, went to open the door for me. I went in. He hurried to his driver's seat and drove.

I sighed. I hadn't had breakfast. Typical. But, there were an assortment of snacks inside the limousine. I took out a bottle of lemonade and a yogurt from the miniature refrigerator.

By the time we had arrived at Ouran Academy, I had finished, and it was only 5 minutes before class started. This chauffeur was better than the last one. I expected to be a few minutes late, but instead was a few minutes early. I threw my garbage in a small trash can nearby. The chauffeur opened the door and I stepped outside, walking to class.

"Hey, see her? She's new isn't she?"

The girls walking behind me were whispering about me.

"Yeah. Mayako, right? That's a cute name, for such a cute girl! But she looks so scary, and distant. Cold, too."

"Yep. She's from the Shizuri family. Never heard of that family though. Have you?"

"No... not really. I just heard her family's big on business. Who knows. But she's albino, that's creepy, don't you think? And her demeanor is creepy too!"

"I know! So scary, and those red eyes of hers; you'd think she was a monster!"

I merely walked ahead.

'Say what you like.' I thought.

I reached my class, 1-A, and took a seat in the back again. Honestly, the room was loud with chatter. The Hitachins, the twins who tried to drag me, trick me, and force me to go to the host club were the center of it all, joking with Haruhi. And frustrating her, too. When I look at the scene, it's just so amusing.

When the sensei entered, we all started to listen to today's lectures.

After School

I walked outside and waited. Today had been a long day, all I want to do, is finish my homework and sleep for the rest of the night. Standing there, I felt two hands clasped on my shoulders. I turned around.

I give an exasperated sigh. "You don't know when to give up, do you?" I ask.

The two redheads grinned. "Nope."

I sigh again. "What are you going to do this time?"

They exchange mischievous smiles. I arch an eyebrow. I don't understand twins. Never had, never will.

"THIS!" They shout, pulling a brown sack over my head, so quickly and swift, and had my entire body in it within a few seconds. They tied the end of the bag with rope, and hauled me away. They dragged me at a fast pace. I thrashed around, screaming, but it was all pathetic, really. I was rudely dragged along the pavement of the school, in an uncomfortable sack, with a weird smell. Typical.

I thrashed around more, calling for help. Out of all the things they could have done, I didn't expect them to kidnap me.

Soon, I heard a loud thud, and was manhandled onto what I think, was a couch. They pulled off the sack, and I laid on the couch, staring at the 7 figures standing around me. "So, these are the rest of the hosts?" I ask Tamaki, gesturing to the others besides him, Haruhi, and the twins.

"Yes! Now, I will give you a full introduction of the hosts! This is-"

"I'm not taking any of this. I don't know why you keep on insisting I come here, it's not as if I'll be cured here. I'll take my leave now." I say, getting off the couch. I headed towards the door.

"OH NO YOU DON'T!"

I turned around, the Hitachins' were right behind me. My eyes widened, they ran towards me, and yanked both my arms. "Let go! When will you stop?!"

"Why won't you let us help you?!" one of them asked.

"With what?!" I yell, struggling against their grip.

"Boss saw you crying a week ago. In this room, with the lights off." they say.

My eyes started to water at the thought of why I was in here, and what I remembered. And that night my village and parents were killed.

I suddenly had the power to pull both my arms away from them, despite my small physique, and ran towards the door. Only to be blocked by the so-called King. "Please, why don't you let us help you?"

"YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING, YOU DON'T KNOW, YOU DON'T KNOW! YOU'LL NEVER KNOW, YOU'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND, YOU NEED TO GET AWAY FROM ME!" I scream at him. I felt a small tear come out the corner of my eyes. I can't keep living like this.

"You don't know... you don't know... y-you don't know..." My voice quivering, I shook my head furiously.

"Please, tell me, I'll help you."

"No! You can't!" I yell, I ran to the window, latched it open, and climbed out. My foot reached the ground, and I ran.

"Hey!" a voice yells after me.

"We should leave her alone. I think she doesn't want us in her business." Haruhi says.

I continue to run, and saw my chauffeur waiting outside the limo. I start to walk.

"Hello, Ms. Shizuri."

"Hello."

He opens the door for me, and I get in. He starts to drive me away, when I see a stoic expression from one of the hosts. He's standing in the host club room, looking out the window. His expression is emotionless, but I can feel kindness and confusion in it. He's Takashi Morinozuka. Our eyes meet for longer than they should have. It's strange. I feel as if I have a connection to him. I shake my head at the thought, as Ouran Academy faded from the distance.

I sighed.

I can't live like this.

Even if I try and die, I'll just be taken away from the dead. And among the living.

No, I'm not some supernatural creature. I'm not a zombie, obviously. But I'm forced to stay alive.

When we had arrived at the apartment building, I ran up to my room as fast as I can. I'm so tired from all this, I need to go and sleep. Into a dreamless sleep.

I used to always dream whenever I slept; but I've never really seen a dream. More likely, nightmares. My own sleeping mind was like a personal Hell. Because of it, I refused to sleep. Dark bags circled my eyes, I did poorly on academics, I couldn't run, and most importantly, I fell asleep in class waking up with a scream.

After months of that, I went to a doctor, who injected some kind of medicine- or drug- I'm not sure which- that disabled me from having any kind of dream, nightmares included. And now, instead of being my personal Hell, that doctor did miracles and now my sleeping mind was my safe haven.

I felt safer. Like I was taking from reality into nothingness. Into a dreamless sleep.

When I opened the door and entered my apartment, I saw something, rather someone I hadn't expected.

"Who are you?" I demanded.

"My code name is Freeze. I came for you."

"Came for me...? I don't believe I know you. Are you... an-"

"No worries, Ms. Shizuri. I came from your uncle. He sent for you."

I stared at Freeze with cold eyes, daring him to move closer to me. He may be lying. He could be. Are they here for me? The FBI or CIA? No matter, if they get me, they kill me. And I'll finally leave.

I quietly closed the door behind me slowly, narrowing my eyes at the figure in front of me.

"You intruded on my property"

"You're forgetting this is an apartment building. It belongs to the landlord." Freeze smirks.

I frown. "What do you want from me?"

He looked confused for a moment. "Didn't you agree with your uncle's deal?"

I roll my eyes. "More like forced in it."

I start to examine him. He's wearing a black suit and tie, black sunglasses covering his eyes, and his brown hair was into a straight-up style for men.

He's silent for a few moments. "Ms. Shizuri, or should I say, Ms. Tristesse." He pauses.

I look at him with silent fear. I know what he's going to say next will be the worst.

"You can't keep running forever. You're a monster. We work under Alfred Tristesse, our master, and we all know the monster you are. Get rid of that innocent facade." Coldyly, he spat the words out, as if I were the very trash of the world itself.

Innocent facade...?

"What innocent facade?" I demand, keeping my voice from breaking.

"You've killed hundreds. I don't know why he even lets you live, instead of turning you over to the authorities. You've killed your friends, elders who supported you, kind strangers who've helped you, and your first love. The pictures of the aftermath is evidence enough you're a monster."

My body is trembling. I... I'm not... I'm not... it's not me... it's not me... it's not me that's doing the killing... it's not me... that's... doing t-the killing... It's not...

"So this should be fairly easy to you, young mistress."

"Easy...? Easy...? What- what do you mean?"

Freeze laughs, looking up at the ceiling. "A few weeks ago, three young girls from New York were killed. Their limbs, head, arm, leg, all detached. I wonder... who could have done that?" He looks back at me, a sinister smile playing on his lips. Asami, Hoshiko, Suzu... I... I didn't... I didn't... it... it wasn't... it wasn't me, I swear! It wasn't...!

"It's not-"

"It was you."

"It wasn't!" I scream. I repeated "It wasn't, it wasn't, it wasn't" grabbing chunks of my silver hair, shaking my head. It wasn't.

Freeze chuckles. By then, I was out of my trance and stared at him.

"W-What is it?"

"Heh. Young mistress, our master, your uncle, has given you your task."

"My... task?"

He chuckles even more, seemingly echoing in the room.

"You need to kill."


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