A/N: Hey guys, I am SOOO SORRY you guys had to wait for me. I just got back to school from my spring break so we had a lot of work to do. But, I am posting early because I am going to write Chapter 5 later tonight. So, look out for that. Also, this story is far from over. We still got a confused Kono and a jacked up Steve here. Plus, Kono said she wanted to wait...soo that means things are about to happen that's a little crazy. So, here you go Wishing For You.
Disclaimer: Why can`t it be mine...why.
It`s been 20 minutes since Steve had left the her house; from that moment in her living room. And, she was still standing there like an idiot right in the middle of the silent room. She just couldn`t get in her mind that Steve actually kissed her; left without another word, and left her with he loves her and stop trying to hide herself.
But, little did he know that, that moment was the worst time to kiss her, because she was still messed up from the Catherine and Steve kiss. Not only did he say that he and Catherine were over all together, but he kissed her with such passion and fire. It seemed like it wasn`t even real.
Like it was a dream.
But, no matter how much she told herself that, it was real.
But the thing about it is, she told Steve that he would have to wait a while for her to heal. For her to get those images out her head. For her to get Catherine`s face out her memories. For her to stop regretting quitting her job, and losing the only thing other than Chin in her life. For her to get those memories of Danny`s rants about this pineapple-infested hell hole out her mind. For the pain to go away, the hurt to away, the sorrow to go away.
She just wanted peace.
She just wanted Steve.
She wanted the only person in her life that actually understood her. Understood her every emotion, every feeling, every motion. And, that was Steve.
But, she was the one that told him to leave, told him he had to wait for her to heal. It wasn`t his fault. It was hers. Her emotions lead to that outburst, lead to him leaving, lead to him not being there in her presence.
It was her fault.
But, he also said that he loved her. And, he kissed her. And, said that he would wait as long as she wanted to wait for him. That was the good part about it. But, she didn`t know if it was just for pity, or if he really was serious. She didn`t know if he was playing with her emotions, or if he really meant it.
She didn`t know if he actually loved her.
She wanted to believe with everything in her that he did, but something was telling her something was wrong. Some pieces of that puzzle weren`t fitting. Maybe it was her mind messing with her, yeah that`s probably it. She just needs to take a run or surf a bit. Just to clear her head. Maybe she`ll be able to think better after.
She finally moved from her spot in the living room to change her clothes, and take a fresh shower...again. It takes her about 10 minutes to get done with the shower, put her bikini on, and her running clothes over that. She makes her way down the steps slowly, grabbing her surfboard; putting on her running shoes. She was out the door.
She figured she surf first, because no one runs with a surfboard in their hand. She makes her way to Waikiki beach, by walking there.
She gets there, and finds the beach full of people. No surprise to her, their always there in the afternoon like this. She just was never here when they were here because she was at 5-0 working. Now, she has all the time in the world. Hopefully not...she`ll be thinking about things that worry or scare her. Ok, enough with the sad stories. She`s out and trying to keep away those sad thoughts.
She walks to a spot that is empty; takes off her clothes to fold them neatly on the sand. She watches as the waves crash on the shore, and the wind of water blow in her face.
She grabs her surfboard, and runs into the water while being ingulfed by waves. But comes to the surface; gets on her board.
She paddles, and paddles waiting for a wave to come. While she waits, she stares up at the burning sun, then down at the cool water. She thinks of how things use to be, before this big freaking mess. Her and Steve surfing together. Only to get interrupted, by a case or Catherine. The only thing about that, was she knew which one was which.
If it was a case, then he would speak in his Commander, voice loud and clear.
If it was Catherine, he would whisper like a kid, quiet and secretly.
It just hurt her to know that, Catherine had to step in and ruined the moments Steve and Kono had. But, there was nothing she could do or say about it.
Because he wasn`t hers.
She didn`t have a say in what he can`t or could do.
When, she finished thinking a massive wave came up and she rode it like no tomorrow, forgeting all the past conversations, images, and words from her mind. It all seems to be working, so she rides a few more waves; makes her way out the water.
She dried herself off, and put on her running clothes again.
Since, she still has her surfboard to take, she figured she could just cover her board with her towel; come back for it after she ran.
She starts running, and she once again thinks about Steve. But, this time she thinks about the good things, and not the sad things. The way it could turn out if she went to Steve. With Catherine gone forever, and him to herself. All hers. And, she all his.
Them together.
Her run is short, because she only wanted to go to the end of the block, back to the beach to get her surfboard, and then back home to rest a bit. Maybe even call Chin and Danny, and talk for a bit. No, she doesn`t think she`s ready for that.
Only to see the looks on their faces.
Disappointment, Sadness, Anger?
She doesn`t know, and right now she doesn`t want to find out.
She made her way back to the beach to find her board were she left it. She picks it up and continues to walk home. She takes it a little slow, just to enjoy the Hawaiian breeze; sun.
She makes her way home, and unlocks her front door to show the only people she didn`t want to talk too.
Chin and Danny.
Why, she was feeling happy.
Now, she`s about to the two people she didn`t want to talk too.
A/N: Hey guys, hoped you liked it. I just want to give a lot of thanks to Detective XO. She has been there for me through this whole story. She has given me advice on how to write Angst. So. really you should thank her too. Thank you soo much Detective! Hope you like it! Also, thank you for the reviews guys, I really apperciate that! Review for me, they give me inspration and love! ;-)
