Cat's Cradle
Chapter Three
outcast
"A young outcast will often feel that there is something wrong with himself, but as he gets older, grows more confident in who he is, he will adapt, he will begin to feel that there is something wrong with everyone else."
― Criss Jami
~Taylor POV ~
"Looks like we're stuck together Valentine." Ethan teased, following me as I began to walk to my second period class. He held the door for me, inviting me to walk through.
I rolled my eyes, and looked at him. "Ethan we're freshman in high-school now, don't you think its time you grew up?"
"I am grown up. I'm fourteen, you're thirteen." He replied smirking. "Seems pretty grown up to me."
He's so irritating. Ever since we were little he used to annoy me to no end. Pick on me, and call me names and pull my hair. Why won't he just leave me alone?
"Taylor the bell just rang like two seconds ago, we have six minutes between classes. Why won't you just stop for a sec-"
"Because I don't want to talk to you! You spent the past nine years making me want to be home-schooled and now you want to talk? Leave me alone."
He is so childish it's pathetic. Who the hell does he think he is?
~Caterina POV~
"I never thought she could yell at me like that Erin." I said as I put a shirt on the proper hook. I'm the manger and there are people whose job is to do this, but I have to clean a mess when I see one.
"I think you guys need to have a sit down. She's thirteen years old Rina. This is new territory. Hormones, mood swings, you were a teenager once too." Erin said as she followed me.
"Yeah but she's never done that before ever! I don't know what to do. I thought I was doing such a good job, but it's like she's hated me this whole time." I said, putting my hands on my head.
"Rina Taylor doesn't hate you." Erin said to me, shaking me slightly. "She's just curious."
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~Taylor POV~
I just wanna lay in bed forever. I don't want to deal with my mom, school, or stupid Ethan. It feels like everyone is out to get me. I'm not a bad person am I? I try and I try to show my goodness always, but I feel like no ones does the same for me.
Thats why I dance. I let all my feelings that I leave hidden inside of me out with every frappe' I do. That's when I'm truly myself. When I'm dancing.
"Hey Tay." Jade said as she knocked on my door. " What's up? How was school?"
"Ugh I got paired for a project with Ethan." I complained dropping myself headfirst onto my bed. " Of all people. Him."
"Why do you hate him so much anyways?" Jade asked, touching my hair.
"Real question is why does he hate me so much." I said, rolling my eyes. "I'm gonna see if she'll pair me up with someone else."
"Maybe he likes you Tay." Jade said, sitting down next to me. "I was pretty mean to Beck before we started going out, and even after. I dunno it's just who I was."
Ethan liking me? That has to be the most sickening thing I've ever heard anyone say. Ew. He's not even cute. Okay I'm lying he's cute, but his attitude makes him ugly. How do you even attempt to see the good in people who constantly bring you down?
"Taylor? I'm home!" my mom called out, as she shut the front door.
Shit.
"Thanks for picking Taylor up from dance Jade." my mom said, leaning against my door.
"Yeah sure no problem, anything for my goddaughter." Jade said, smiling.
"How was school Taylor?" My mom asked me, walking towards me. She was wearing white pants, black heels, and a royal blue blouse. She looked amazing, even when I know she's upset with me. She just always looks amazing. I wonder if there was a time my mom didn't look amazing.
"It was like every other day mom." I said, getting off my bed and walking out the room.
"Taylor Eliza Valentine I am speaking to you!" my mom yelled, her face red. "Do not ever walk away from me!"
"What mom? I really don't want to talk to you or I'll say something I'll regret." I spat back, acid on my tongue.
*Seattle, Washington DC*
~Robbie POV~
"It's okay Sammy. You don't have to fight anymore, if it's time for you to go I understand." I said squeezing my wife's hand as she lie in her hospital bed. "I don't want you to hurt anymore."
"Robbie I'm so sorry. We-we were supposed to travel the world, we were gonna live happily ever after. What happened love?" she cried, her appearance breaking my heart.
"Cancer happened." I replied, wiping my eyes.
"Mommy are you going to die?" our daughter Sabrina asked, wiping her eyes. "I don't want you to go."
"I'm never gonna leave you Sabrina, ever, mommy's always gonna be here right in your heart." Sam said as she pointed to Sabrina's heart.
" Robbie never stop dreaming baby" She said, looking into my eyes with so much sadness."I know your dreams, and what you want to do before you die. Do it baby, do it for me. "
"It's going to be so hard Samantha, I love you so much. My dream was you, it's still you. It will always be you." I cried, trying to fight the tears.
Five years ago when Sabrina was born, everything was perfect. We were all healthy, we were happy, we were okay. But just two months later a trace of acute myeloid leukemia was found in my wife. Our baby was only two months. And now we're here, and my baby's never going to see her mom again.
I remember when Sam and I first met, I had just graduated high school, and had been accepted into The Seattle School of Performing Arts. She was a dancer, I played instruments. She was amazing, I was eh. She was talented, I was a freak. But she fell in love with me anyways. I'll never forget that. She accepted me for who I am, and didn't judge me even though everyone else did. I'll always love her for that.
Without her I don't know where I belong. Without her I'm an outcast.
When Sabrina was born it was like falling in love with Sam all over again. Beautiful brown curls and Sam's blue eyes. She had the same pink cheeks, and that beauty mark above her lip. That always brings a warmth to my heart, there will always be a little piece of Sam inside of Sabrina. Sabrina is our love, she resembles our dreams and our plans.
My thoughts were interrupted by my wife's brutal coughing. Her eyes were bloodshot, dark circles underneath. She was still just as beautiful as she was when I first met her. She always will be.
"Robbie promise me you'll go find a new dream, don't stop because of me. I want you to be happy." She breathed, touching my face.
I nodded, kissing the top of her hand.
"Goodbye my Sabrina, take care of daddy for me okay? I love you, be good, you're a sweet girl and you're gonna do big things someday. Never give up love, I love you so much. " she cried, hugging Sabrina one last time.
"I love you mommy." Sabrina sobbed, shaking.
"Take care of our baby Robbie. Whatever happens stay strong for Sabrina. Please." Sam said, her tears speeding up. "I love you."
"I love you too. Forever and Always." I said, kissing her one last time.
"It hurts so much Robbie. It all hurts so much." She said looking up the ceiling.
"Shhh it's okay. Let go. Close your eyes. Dream." I choked out, my tears pouring down my face.
"Goodnight love." She said as her heart stopped beating. "I lov-"
I just want you all to know that this is JUST TOTALLY coincidental. I wrote down the plot of this story already, every major thing is already written down and planned out. This is just really coincidental. I am so heartbroken at the news about Talia, she's an amazing little girl. Just keep swimming in heaven Talia. We love you! I am in no way using what happened to her for my story.
As for the cancer, I'm not really too good with the subject, it depresses i refuse to get into, it just makes me too sad.
God forbid cancer to anyone.
xoxo
I WAS CRYING the whole so hard when i wrote this. I tried to make it as sad as I could. I hope it was good! Plenty of chapters to come!
btw i deleted taylors twitter, it was too much to handle. haha but I still have my account! Follow me on twitter at sweettface! Thanks love you!
oh and yes the sam that just passed away is Samantha Puckett. :(
REVIEW please! :) What do you think Robbie's gonna do next?
