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A/N here's part 2 of chapter 3, it's in Bella's pov, hope you like it!
"Shhh. Edward, please. Don't hurt yourself because of what I did." Bella looked back down, avoiding my eyes again. "It's not your fault, you only did what you thought was best for both of us."
BPOV
I'd never seen Edward in so much pain. He was clearly trying to hide it, but it still showed, twisting his face into such a tortured expression, I couldn't bear to look at it.
Maybe if leaving hadn't hurt him as much as it hurt me, more actually, I would have let him suffer, to finally understand how it felt. But that was not the case, and for him to be hurt now was unnecessary.
"Edward, please, stop. Don't do this."
"But it is my fault. All of this. I knew my decision was wrong, but I still left. I could see that you believed me that day; you truly believed that I didn't want you. That I could survive without you. If I could change anything, I never would have left. Please understand that. I will never hurt you that way ever again," Edward was talking so fast I could barely understand. His eyes were still agonized.
"But it's not your fault! Why can't you see that! I don't blame you for any of this. You couldn't have known what would have happened, what I would have done, who I would have turned to." I stopped, unsure of how to go on.
"What else did you do, in term of risking your life, to hear… me? Other then jumping off cliffs?" He just wasn't going to let that go, I could see that.
"Not much. Jacob taught me how to ride a motorcycle, and he was the one who was supposed to take me cliff diving. But he was always busy with his… friends, so I went on my own."
"Jacob Black?" I nodded. "And he wouldn't happen to be related to Ephraim Black, would he?" I nodded again, and Edwards's teeth came together with and audible snap. A low growl filled the air.
"Bella, are you insane? A WEREWOLF! If he lost control near you… Don't you know how easily he could kill you?" He roared. I flinched, covering my ears with my hands.
"So can you." I whispered. The growling stopped.
"I… already… know… that, Bella. And I don't want it to be that way." His face was tortured again, but is eyed still glinted with anger.
"Neither does Jacob. He kept me alive for all those months, Edward; you have to give him credit for that. If not for him, I wouldn't be alive now. He saved my live more then once, you should be thankful." Edward shuddered.
"I guess your right, I should. But I can't. Bella, he's my enemy. It's just not right, vampires and werewolves don't mix. All werewolves are there for is to exterminate us, to protect the mortals. They're the only other creatures that can kill us."
I gasped. The dream that I had had, the night after Jacob had told me about the vampires, it suddenly made sense. And yet, to me, it was ridiculous. Why couldn't they just get along? The wolves knew that the Cullens were good, and as far as I knew, they hadn't broken the treaty. Jacob did when he told me about the werewolves, but the Cullens didn't, not yet.
"Edward, Jacob is my friend," or he was, I corrected mentally, "And if he hadn't, I don't know what you would have found, if for some reason you came back."
"Bella, I was going to come back, I could barely live through a single day without you, I was so close to coming, and begging for you to forgive me."
"Really? You were going to come, no matter what?" I could feel tears building in my eyes, threatening to spill over.
"Yes. I was, I can't live without you. You are my whole life, Bella. Do you forgive me?"
"Yes, Edward, I do, but on one condition."
"Anything." He whispered.
"Don't hurt Jacob. Ever."
Edward growled. "Be reasonable. I will try, very hard, not to do that, but he is my enemy, Bella, and those kinds of things can't be helped."
"I do have another condition." I muttered. "Change me." Edward's eyes widened, and the growling intensified.
"NO! I'd rather be friends with the dog." He snarled. "You're staying human, no matter what you say."
I suddenly stood up, heading for the door. Edward got there first.
"Where are you going?"
"La Push. I'm going to go see Jacob. Get out of my way!" I tried to push past him, but he grabbed by arms in an iron grip.
"No, you're not going. I won't let you." He still didn't release me.
"Edward, let me go! I need to go see Jacob, he's worried about me." I still tried to get him to let go.
"No. Bella, he's dangerous."
"So are you!" I was surprised by how mad I was, but I really needed to go see Jacob.
Edward finally let go. "Fine. But if you get hurt, at all, I'll…" He didn't bother to finish his sentence.
"He won't hurt me." I snapped, running down the steps as fast as I could without tripping.
Wow. I really wasn't expecting that to happen, but I wanted to get Jacob back into the story. Next chapter is Edward's pov, and then it goes back to Bella, or maybe Jacob, not sure. Probably Bella, because I don't like Jacob. Hope you liked this chapter, I'll try to get more up soon.
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