Okay so ... It's been ages ... My bad.
Seriously though I am sorry, I don't even know how many of you guys are still waiting, so I really am sorry. Life has just been well life.

Again thank you to those of you who review and favourite and follow! And it was the recent review I got that made me want to write and upload this chapter so thank you to user Sashay Trash (love your name by the way)

I can't promise regular updates BUT what I can promise is me ending this, no matter how long it takes.
I lost my will to write, it became more of a chore, but I think slowly and gradually I may get back into it (fingers crossed).

Anyways, I really hope you like this chapter (even though it's short).

Disclaimer: These characters do not belong to me in anyway whatsoever.


Chapter 4

Paige had had enough; she was tired of being the second choice. Not that Emily had outright said anything, but Paige knew that her girlfriend still had feelings, slight as though they maybe, for the blue-eyed blonde. In Emily's defence she never spoke about the blonde in front of Paige, and she had even invited Paige back to Rosewood for her prom. Paige was planning to ask Emily to her prom that night, before they were interrupted. Now all she could think about was how she would never be enough for her girlfriend. Try as much as she may she knew deep within her heart that Emily wouldn't be able to give her all of her heart because parts of it still remained with Alison.

Sighing Paige unclenched her fingers from around the cup that she was holding. Staring at it with her fists clenched around the half full cup wasn't going to help her get her girlfriend back. She knew that something had to give, and soon. Placing the cup onto the table she looked up and noticed that the three girls were back, huddled together at a table. So she knew that Emily would be back soon, and that's when she'd talk to her, to finally air everything out because she was tired of feeling like as though she was in limbo. All she wanted was a straight answer, either yes or no, nothing in between, no grey areas.

Paige smoothed down her hair, giving her hands something to do as she waited. After a couple of minutes she noticed Emily moving mechanically towards the table her friends were at. Taking a deep breath in, Paige started to march over to her girlfriend. However, when Emily lifted her head up to scan the room Paige noticed how drained and tired she looked. Instead of carrying on in that direction, Paige turned around and walked to the door, realising that tonight wouldn't be the best night to have such a conversation with Emily. It would only stress them both out. Instead, she'd go back to Emily's and try to sleep, perhaps in the morning Emily would be in a better mood to talk.

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"Emily" said a familiar voice.

"Oh, Toby … What do you want?" Emily replied, looking up at the boy that was once one of her closest friends. Not to say that they still weren't close, but over time they had distanced, especially more so when he became a cop.

Toby let go of Emily's arm and ran his hand through his short, dark, hair before he sighed, contemplating how to start the conversation. Letting out a deep breath he huffed and then smiled down at her as he said, "Emily, I know we aren't as close as we were before, but we were friends, really good friends, and I just wanted to say that if you need to talk about anything, anything at all that the girls may not want to understand you can always talk to me. I'll always be honest with you"

Emily barely registered what her friend had to say, but she gives him a nod and a slight smile, just barely hinting at the dimple in her cheek, "Thank you Toby, I'll remember that"

Toby smiled, showing his pearly white teeth before stating, "Oh and tell Spence that I had to leave because they need me at the station, bye Em", and then he's gone, leaving Emily standing in the middle of the make-shift dance floor.

Emily looks around, trying to relocate her friends. She notices them by the punch bowl, again huddled together, whispering. Tired of everything that's happened in the last thirty minutes she strides over determinedly towards them, causing there whispering to cease. Emily looks over each of her three friends with her brow raised, before stating, "Don't for a minute think that I don't know that the three of you were watching me and Alison"

Unsurprisingly, Hanna is the one to open her mouth, but before she could say anything Emily holds her hand up, cutting her blonde, short haired friend off. "Hanna don't lie, I'm not in the mood to argue. I just came over to say that I'm tired, so I'm going home"

Spencer having already been on the other end of Emily's wrath once cleverly doesn't say a thing. But Hanna rarely thinks before she speaks, and so blurts out, "Why did you leave Paige here for Alison?"

Anger clouds Emily's vision, and instead of giving into it as she did with Alison, she instead turns towards Spencer as she relays what Toby told her about having to leave for the station. The brunette didn't want to start another frivolous argument, especially since she knew that her friends were only trying to look out for her. Saying what needed to be said Emily doesn't wait for her friend's response as she takes off in the direction of the door. Her only goals being to get home, change and get into bed.

It's only when she enters her room and sees the bed on the floor made up, housing a person fast asleep, does she remember that Paige is staying with her. Guilt wracks through Emily's body, adding onto the emotions that have already taken residence within her. Quietly as she possibly can Emily gets changed, putting on her vest top and shorts, before climbing into bed. As Emily lies there, her conversation with Alison plays through her mind in a loop.

She tries to figure out what went wrong, what she felt, how she still feels, what she should do next. Whether she should go see Alison, or whether she should just leave it because she doesn't know if fixing things will make anything better. She wonders if she should tell her friends what had been said between the two, or if they would even understand how she feels all mixed up inside. And then, her mind wonders to Paige, what Paige will say to her tomorrow, what reason she could give to Paige for leaving her in the middle of the dance. Nothing makes sense to Emily; instead the feeling of being overwhelmed takes over, causing her to breathe rapidly in an uneven manner. She counts to ten slowly, hoping that it'll help to bring her breathing back to normal. After Emily tosses and turns for hours she finally falls asleep.

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On another street, far away from the brunette's restless sleep lies a blonde girl, barely holding it together as she clutches her tear soaked pillow. It's only when she's under the protection of her duvet does she bare her soul, crying out every last tear drop that she has, letting the pain and agony from the past six years out. Her sniffles and sobs are muffled as she presses her face against the pillow, allowing it to soak up her emotions.

She wanted to make it right between her and her brunette, but instead it all went wrong, just like how it usually does. As she lay there, she wished she was normal like other girls, she wished she knew how to express how she felt, she wished her mother had taught her the right way to do things, she wished she knew how to fix her wrong doings, she wished she knew how to gain back the one person she truly ever loved. But most of all, she wished that her brunette was truly hers.

However, the heart broken blonde knew that she had ruined any chances of that ever happening anytime soon from the way she had acted tonight.

Soon when her tears had dried up and all that was left were her dry sobs, the blonde curled up into the foetal position as she uttered the words that she said every night since that horrible day, "I miss you mom, I wish you were here". And then her eyes closed, drained from crying, she fell into a restless sleep.


So ... What do we think?
How are we feeling about Paige? About Emily? About Ali?
Is anyone else's heart breaking for Alison?

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