Spike walks to his crypt annoyed that Angel came back and now playing happy families. "She hates him. Why is she even with him? She should have put a stake though his heart." When he gets to his crypt Clem had looked after it well apart from the bit of mess on the floor. He goes over to the fridge and grabs some blood drinking it down. He was so anger he went out to kill something.
Back at the summers' house Buffy and Angel were still sitting on the sofa. Buffy was slightly pulled in on herself while Angel held his son and made him laugh by pulling funny faces.
"It's late maybe, you know, you should go." Buffy says making Angel look up at her.
"Buffy, I only just got it."
"I know but maybe this isn't a good idea. I think you should leave." She goes to take Alec off him but he holds a hand up to Buffy making her stop. "Buffy. You want my help. You have already opened up." He tells her.
"Opened up? I just made my – my…Spike leave."
"You were going to say boyfriend." Angel hurt in his heart and soul, knowing Buffy had sleep with his child.
"Yeah but he isn't."
"You're sleeping with him." He says. Maybe this would help Buffy see what she is doing to herself and the people around her.
"Doesn't make me his girlfriend." She doesn't look at him.
"Then what are you? Sex buddies?"
"Angel I would prefer not to have this conversation in front of Alec, No I would prefer not to have this conversation at all."
"Okay then what about the cuts over you?" He saw the smaller cuts over her body. "Alec isn't hurt as well, is he?"
"Do you really think I'd let anything happen to him?" She was getting angry again.
"No, no. I was making sure because I can smell he is scared of Spike to. When we walked in here his heartbeat was fast and uneven when Spike left it slowed to normal. Not like yours though. Yours fast now and slow when Spike is here."
"I had to learnt to not be 'scared', as you put it, around him. He said if he heard my heart too much he would get to tempted. Once he bit me." Angel moves her head to the side checking her neck. No bite marks. Not even the scar from his bite.
"I can't see anything." She looks at him. Does he think the scar is gone? She thinks seeing the look in his eyes.
She moves her hand to her neck and rubs at it. "See, I still have it." Her scar was covered with makeup.
"What about where he bit you?"
She takes a second debating if she should show him or not, "They aren't bad. Nothing serious."
"Buffy. One bit can be serious. Some vampires can get addicted. I'm amazed I didn't. If I see the wound I can tell how much he wanted it and if he wants more."
"How?"
"By the size of the holes. How deep. Show me please." She lifts her top up. On her stomach where were two small holes. "He didn't bite to feed. I guess he did that when you two were, you know." She nods. Should I? She lifts her top up further to show him another bite mark just under her bra. "I thought you only said once."
"Yeah, on time but more than one bite." She doesn't make eye contact. What must he think of her.
"How many times Buffy?" His tone wasn't harsh more concerned.
"About seven I think."
"Seven!" Now his tone was harsh and load but yet Alec's heart was calm and he didn't cry like he does when Spike is mad at Buffy. Buffy now looks at him. "Show me. I need to see them." He gets up moving Alec to the coat making him face the other way then returns to Buffy. He had seen the one on her stomach and under her bra. Next Buffy showed him the one on her lower leg. He looks at them three then she shows him another. Further up her leg. Four. He then watches her stand and undoes the top button on her jeans pulling them down a little on the left side to show bite number 5. On her hip. Angel didn't like this. He didn't like Spike touching her. She does her jeans back up and sits down; asking "So, how are they?"
"That was only 5 of them. Where are the other two?"
"They aren't that important." Buffy says trying to convince Angel but not succeeding.
"If they aren't important why are you hiding them from me?" She sighs.
"Angel please don't make me show you."
"I'm not going to make you. The bites I have seen are just playful bites. Nothing dangerous. But the two you aren't showing me might be." His eyes stay on her showing no expression. She looks away but lifts her top up off over her head. Then moves her bra away. Angel sees the two holes. Bigger than all the others. Where the other had healed and were scaring this one wasn't healing fast. This means he bites her in the same place every time or the wound was so bad it's taking longer to heal.
"You said he only bite you in one, I guess, section. So this bite was worse?" she nods. "And the other one is that as bad?" she nods again. "Can I see?" she doesn't move. "Buffy. I have seen, touched and kissed every part of your body. I need to see."
She looks at him still not sure. "I won't hurt you. You know that." She nods and again undoes her jean but this time she takes them off. She looks over to Alec to see he was asleep now. Then she continues. She takes off her underwear and he sees the bite. Just as bad at the one on her breast. "Did you have to go to hospital?"
"No. Like I said they aren't that bad." He looks at her telling her with his eyes that he knows she won't admit that he hurt her. She gets up putting her clothes back on and walk to the kitchen. Angel looks at his son and then follows Buffy. If she couldn't see Spike hurting her then he would try a new tactic to show her what he is doing to her is wrong.
In the kitchen she is by the sink drink a glass of water. Angel sits down at the counter just watching her. A few minutes passed and she didn't move; he didn't say anything.
Angel knew Buffy wouldn't say anything. They could be there all night if he was going to let her speak first. But instead he said, "What if we had a girl and not a boy?"
"What?" Buffy says not understanding what he meant.
"What would Spike do to her?"
She turns around to look at him furiously, "He wouldn't do anything like that."
"His doing it to you."
"No he isn't" she is near to shouting. "I let him do this stuff to me. Have you ever thought I might enjoy it?"
"Do you?" he asks in a calm voice but looking close at Buffy, reading her body language and expressions.
"Yes." She looks away from his eyes. He could tell she was lying it was obvious.
"Do you tell him to bite you? Do you make him bite you?"
She doesn't reply. "Angel, please."
"Buffy you have to know what this is. This thing with you and Spike isn't a relationship." He stays walking to her placing his hands on her shoulders think she would push away but didn't. "What we had was a relationship. I love you and I would never hurt you."
"Unless you're dying and I hit you till you bite me to save you."
"Let's not count that one."
"Why? I liked it." They are looking into each other's eyes and Angel saw the hazel in them again; the spark he loved so much and the glowing that made her Buffy.
"So you don't like it when Spike bits you?" she looks away and shakes her head. He lifts her head up. "That's good. We're getting somewhere." She smiles. They stay there and the move closer. Their lips touch so softly. So gentle. Angel runs his tongue along her lip, her mouth opens and he slide his tongue into her warm mouth. His cold tongue plays with hers making her moan in pleasure, something she hasn't done in ages. His hands move to her neck pulling her closer. Buffy's hand move around Angel's back feeling his strong muscles under his top.
Outside the door Spike saw the two ex lovers kissing. His anger grew while their kiss grew more passionate. He loved Buffy and she meant to be with him not to go kissing the guy that got her pregnant and left her. Spike was about to open the door when he heard Alec start crying. Buffy pushes away from Angel and goes to him while Angel stands in the kitchen get the breath he didn't need. She is getting better maybe she will see what Spike was doing to her now. Buffy comes back to the kitchen with Alec and goes to the backdoor. His cry become louder the closer she gets to the door. She passed Alec to Angel and goes outside. Angel tries calm Alec down but nothing works.
Outside Buffy looks around and then she is thrown to the floor by Spike. He had hidden in a shadow. He turns her over and pins her to the floor.
"Think you could get away with cheating on me?"
Angel Saw Buffy on the floor under Spike, he needed to help her but he couldn't, not with Alec. Angel ran to the living room putting the crying baby down again. Then moves back to the garden to see Buffy still struggling under Spike. She couldn't fight him off. Why? Angel leaps into action and pulls his off her. It was not even two hours ago that he had seen Buffy telling him to go away. Why was he back? Spike looks at Angel and hit him but Angel blocked, the next hit he didn't block, falling to the ground from the impact.
Buffy was standing by now and had taken over the fight but hitting him in the face it didn't do much though. Spike hit her in the face making her fall back. Spike saw they were both on the floor and ran indoors and to Alec. Buffy saw him move and got up ignoring the blood running out her nose. She chases him to the living room, Spike stands there holding the red faced Alec. He had been crying non-stop and his throat must be hurt. "Give him to me." Buffy commands.
"Why? I'm like his father. I've been here since he was born not like Angel who was in L.A ignoring you. I'm here for you Buffy. You know I am. I love you."
Angel had follow Buffy shortly after she had got up.
"Buffy don't listen to him. You know that's not true. If he loved you he wouldn't do the things he has to you."
"But his right. You weren't here. He was." She says calmly looking at Angel. "You don't love me. You don't love Alec."
"Buffy where is this coming from? I told you earlier I didn't know and that I love you both." She doesn't answer just walks to Spike taking Alec and letting Spike put his arm around her. She holds Alec in one arm and wipes the blood off her face with the other. Angel looks at the smug smile on Spike face. He had told Buffy this and she believed him.
"Buffy no. Don't believe him. Remember what I told you earlier." She looks at him. While trying to calm Alec who is still crying quietly. "I love you and Alec and I need to show you. That kiss in there, did you feel what I felt. I felt like the love I was holding for you was showing itself again. I hate hiding how much I love you. Please Buffy. Do you love me?"
"I – I don't know."
"No, Buffy you don't love him." Spike tightens his grip on Buffy's arm. "You love me. I'll look after you. Come on lets go upstairs." While Spike says this Buffy's eyes don't move away from Angels. Spike goes to walk upstairs. "Come on Buffy." He says harsher but she doesn't move to him and but instead she moves to Angel.
"Do you? Love us? After what I have done?"
"You haven't done anything wrong and yes. I love you more than anything." She passes Alec to him then turns to Spike. She walks to him slowly and punches him in the face. She puts so much force into it he falls to the floor. She looks down at him, "Go away Spike. I'll come see you in a few days and I'll tell you what's going on." He looks at her. Had he really made her that broken? He didn't mean to. He just loved her. He climbed to his feet and walk out the front door. Buffy turns back to Angel and see Alec has stopped crying. "He knew Spike was outside when he started to cry. How is that possible for a 10 month old baby?"
"Well he does have a slayer and vampire as parents."
"You weren't a vamp when we made him. He needs to get some sleep, it's way too late." She takes him from Angel and walks up stairs followed by Angel. They go to Alec's room and Buffy places him on the changing mat. "You ok?" Angel asks while Buffy chances their baby into his PJs.
"Yeah, I'm fine." She places him in his crib after kissing him. They walk out the door. In the hall Angel holds her head and looks at her bloody nose.
"This must hurt."
"What?" She had forgotten the pain running through her face. "Oh. That. Not really." Angel leads her to the bathroom and picks her up putting her on the side next to the sink. He grabs a damp cloth and cleans the blood off Buffy's face.
"Why do I keep doing that? Will I do that again?"
"What?"
"Believing Spike. Getting lost again."
"Buffy. The last what 10 months, I guess, have been hard for you. You still are a little lost. I didn't think you would be able to come around this fast but you always amaze me."
"So where do we go from here?"
"Well you need to rest." She nods. Jumping off the side after Angel finishes cleaning her up.
"Where you staying?"
"I don't know. I guess my car."
"Can you stay here?"
"Um, it's up to you."
Buffy smiles a little, "Okay, I would like you to stay here with me and Alec. You can get up in the night to see to him, it will give me a chance to have a full night's sleep." She says jokingly
"Okay."
"I was kidding."
"Don't matter I will. You look tired."
"Yeah I am. Come on." She goes to her room followed by Angel.
"I'll sleep on the sofa."
"Angel like you said you have done everything to my body and as my body is mine I don't mind you sleeping in this bed with me. In other words I like would like you to hold me please." His smile grows bigger. Holding Buffy watching her sleep was one of the best things ever. They climb into bed Buffy lays in Angels arms feeling like she used to, loved. Loved by the man she loves. Ok not man, but he was hers always.
