I Don't Own Life With Derek

She didn't want to go to sleep. Not at all.

Because right now, real life was ten million times better than a good dream. She actually slapped herself a little to make sure this was real. She just stared at him with hope, confusion, and love in her eyes.

"You... You heard me talking to her?" She managed to force out of her. She was feeling really weird right now, beyond weird. She had pictured this moment thousands of times in her mind, and knew exactly what to say if this ever happened, but all of that flew out the door. She was speechless and shocked.

"Yea." He said quietly, he cleared his thoart and looked up at her.

"If you knew I liked you, than how come you were so mean to me?" She asked, obvious hurt in her voice.

"I'm Derek, I'm mean to everybody." Derek said, holding his arms out in an innocent way. But Casey knew Derek was anything but innocent. "Not to Sally." Casey said in a sad tone, holding her eyes shut tight.

"Well, I'm not mean to people who aren't mean to me." Derek said, beating around the bush, hoping that she got some kind of hint.

A small, guilty smile ran across her face as she opened her eyes. "I guess I haven't been exactly nice to you, either." She confessed.

Derek pulled the piece of paper out of his pocket and held it up to her. "Am I going or not? Its up to you." Derek said, dropping it next to her on the bed.

"No, its not. Its up to you." Casey said, pushing the letter off, and watching it fall to the ground. "This is your dream." Casey whispered, trying to keep the tears out of her eyes, you know, since Derek 'doesnt do tears'.

"But its your dream, too." Derek said, slowly picking up the folded up acceptance letter.

Casey shook her head as the small tears fell off of her cheek. "I refuse to hold you back, Derek." She whispered as he walked out of the room.

-- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- --

--1 month later--

"When I said 'I refuse to hold you back', I meant 'Please don't go!'" Casey yelled. She made sure that she wasn't in her room this time, so that Derek couldn't hear her. She was sitting out front on the porch, and she knew for a fact that Derek was asleep, upstairs.

"Well, don't you think that its a little unfair to be mad about this?" Emily asked from her spot on the porch-swing.

"No!" Casey called to her defence. "Not only would I KILL to be in his shoes right now, but how am I supposed to live without him?" Casey asked hopelessly.

"Casey, he'll visit on holidays, and summers and stuff." Emily said, trying hard to calm her down, but it just wasn't working.

"That's not good enough!" Casey whined, letting her head fall into her hands. "Oh my God! I have an idea!" Casey yelled as she brought her head back up with a smile. "I'll go with him, we will get an apartment and live together!" Casey's smile with huge and happy, Emily hated to take it away, but she had to.

"Then what are you going to do with your life? You were already accepted into TU, I think you should just stay, plus, hes leaving in two weeks." Emily said, and sure enough, the smile fell.

"Are you and Derek even a stable couple yet?" Emily asked, raising an eyebrow. Casey painted on her fake smile and didn't look Emily in the eyes. "Of course we are." She said in a completely fake voice.

Emily sighed and shook her head. "Have you guys even... Done it.. Yet?" She asked, lowering her voice.

"Almost..." Casey said, trying to make it sound more than it really was.

"What do you mean, almost?" Emily asked, looking really confused.

"Well, when ever we try to, the family ends up coming home, or walking in. We just haven't had the chance yet." Casey said, shrugging her shoulders.

Emily made a concerned look on her face and ran her fingers through her hair. "Case, hes leaving in 2 weeks. I don't think there's not much time for that." Emily said, picking her words carefully, knowing that if she said that wrong thing, Casey would burst out in tears.

"You know, I don't even think that sex it a good idea right now anyway. When people have sex, most of them get attached, and if you have sex right before he leaves, its just gonna suck even more."

-- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- --

"We have to have sex, now!" Casey yelled, throwing a pillow at Derek's head. Yes, it was embarrassing to tell you almost-boyfriend to have sex with you, but she had no time to be embarrassed.

"You're a bit more blunt than my exes." Derek said groggily, sitting up in his bed and rubbing his eyes. "We have to do it at least a week before you leave!" She yelled climbing on the bed next to him. "Ummm, as hot as this is.." Derek said sarcastically, "I don't think its a good idea." Derek said, scooting away from her.

"Why is it a bad idea?" Casey asked, sounding hurt.

"Because, then we will miss each other even more when I leave." Derek said, standing up, out of the bed. "First, that's why we have to do it at least a week before, and second, have you been listening to me and Emily again?" Casey asked sternly, sticking a finger in his face.

"You were talking to her about me again!?" He looked angry, but Casey didn't care.

"Look, are we going to do it, or not?" Casey asked, folding her arms.

"No." Derek said, before walking out and slamming the door, leaving her laying in his bed, and pain in her heart.

I know that the last chapter kinda sucked, my head is somewhere else. haha, i have school starting soon, so I'm kinda stressed over that, and getting my summer work done, but i tried really hard on this chap!

Also, I'm sorry if it seems like its being kind of rushed, but, i wanted to end it soon, so, I'm sorry :(