Loyalty
Chapter 4: Not yes, Not no
By: DeathIsOnlyTheBeginin
DISCLAIMER: I DONT OWN, YOU DONT SUE!
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Author's Note: Oh My Gosh People! I am soooooooo sorry...omg...i really am...I had been grounded from my pc...and when i got back, i had total writer block. Anyways, i think i worked it out, but the writing might be a little blunt in the chapter, so sorry, I intend on fixing this chapter later on and the writers block before the next chapter. Anyways, i hope you enjoy it anyways! Byes!
Robin cleared his throat loudly as he cast Starfire a weary glance. She paused in her eating quickly, her face resembling that of a chipmunk's as she shoved another burger past her lips. With a large and not to mention, loud gulp, she swallowed the mass of beef quickly, her cheeks shrinking back to normal size. With an arched eyebrow, she frowned.
"Is there something causing a pain in your throat, friend Robin? You just made the sound of a singing Tasblorg."
"Uh, no Star, I'm fine...Just, " He paused and shook his head at the questioning gaze she was giving him, a small smile gracing his lips, "Just take it easy, the food's not going anywhere."
She smiled brightly, her eyes closed with joy as she pressed her hands together in front of her chest.
"I'm sorry, but these hamburgers are just so delicious."
Robin chuckled, his eyes lit with slight amusement as he glanced down at his own plate. For some odd reason, his appetite had vanished. He looked back up at his date.
"Do you want mine?"
Starfire's smile brightened even more as she nodded quickly, her reaching over the table quickly before capturing the quarter-pounded and pushing it into her bottomless pit of a mouth. She moaned loudly at the joyous taste as her eyes rolled up to the ceiling. With a stretched smile, she began to chew. Robin frowned slightly and turned his masked eyes to the window.
Rain slithered down the glass slowly, the slight mist now a heavy downpour. He watched as people scurried to their vehicles, everything from umbrella's to soaked newspapers shielding them from the weather. A scowl crossed his features; he hated rain.
It seemed that every time the damned clouds decided to empty themselves, bad omens liked to wrap around his ankles and refuse to let go.
It had been raining when Raven had hurt him, it had been raining when Sparrow had killed him, and it had been raining when Raven died.
He cursed mentally, his eyes quickly shifting from the gray outside world to the alien girl before him. Her large, green eyes studied him blandly, her hair draping around the sides of her head like a curtain. Robin banished his reminiscing quickly, his head cocking to the side in curiosity.
"You ok, Star?"
Her eyes snapped up to meet his quickly, her lips parted. She brushed her fingers through her hair, all means of grease wiped clean from them.
"...Do...do you still think of her?"
Robin felt his throat clench, the walls becoming dry as his lips parted in shock,
"N-no...why do you ask?"
Starfire looked away, her eyes tearing,
"You speak words that aren't true."
Robin attacked the lump that was forming in his throat with a large swallow, but it refused to yield, his guilt far too large to let any such means happen. He was a jerk.
He had used Starfire as an object of release, a way to escape his feelings, his pain; And all she had ever done was want him...maybe even love him.
"Starfire...I can't forget her. You know that."
Sparkling greens locked onto his once again, her pink lips, curled downward.
"Do you love me?"
Robin blinked. Everything began to fade, the glaring lights, the voices of the people around them, the table. His eyes grew wider as he felt himself completely slip away, the black swallowing him whole and leaving nothing but his date for him to see.
Love.
Emerald shifted to violet, dark lashes lacing their vast emptiness as shoulder length indigo hair touched lightly at their sides. A blue leotard, mostly hidden by a cloak of said color adorned the body that was once Starfire's. Robin gasped and allowed himself to look upon the face of his long ago lover.
"Raven..." The whispered name flowed out of his mouth as an irregular question, almost as though it was foreign, as if he had never spoken it before. Raven's strait mouth twitched up into a short smile, her amethyst eyes bright with something the Boy Wonder couldn't place.
"What?"
Starfire's voice sent reality crashing back, the black cracking before falling away, the sounds of the smashing pieces filling his ears, bombarding him with an echo of her question. What, what, what what...
Robin used one hand to rub his eyes, the overhead lights blazing into them as soon as he regained the memory of where he was. He gazed back in the place where Raven had been sitting, only to meet the face of a very confused Starfire.
"I believe you said something, friend Robin."
His eyes shone with no recollection.
"No...I didn't..."
Raven...
"Yes, I believe you did."
"I didn't!"
Robin's head throbbed as he slammed his fists down on the table, causing it to jump, their soda's spilling before rolling off the far side edge.
He new lover's sudden outburst startled Starfire, her cheeks turning red as she caught the curious glances of their dinning neighbors, the contents of her pop soaking into her lap.
"Alright." She replied softly, hiding her rosy face. Robin sighed, realization of what he had done hitting him hard,
"I'm sorry."
"It is ok." The red head replied with a sad shake of her head, her eyes looking everywhere but at him. Robin sat quietly, knowing he should say something, wanting to say something; But the words just wouldn't come.
"I...I thought you did, once." Starfire blurted suddenly, her bright emeralds seeping into Robin's blank stare. He furrowed his eyebrow in utter befuddlement,
"What?"
Her lip quivered violently, her eyes clamping shut as two shinning clear tears rolled down her cheeks. The transparency of those salty drops bothered Robin slightly, the reason unknown. An instant later, Starfire shot up from her seat and ran from him and down the isle, her quick exit sending the front double doors smashing into the outside walls.
The room was deathly silent as all eyes landed on Robin, not a mouth chewing. The Boy Wonder glanced around nervously, his figure sinking down in his seat and he lifted one hand into the air,
"Check please."
"OH I GOTTCHA NOW!"
"NO WAY!"
Cyborg laughed as his name, in all capitals, blinked across the screen. With a large shout of victory, his controller fell, forgotten, to the floor, and he danced around.
"Best 30 out of 50?" Beast Boy begged softly, his ears drooping slightly as his eyes grew large. Cyborg stopped his solo-celebrated ceremony and looked down at the changeling, not moved.
"No. I beat you, live with it."
Beast Boy only whined before shrinking down into a puppy, his large eyes growing even more in size. Cyborg frowned,
"No."
A sudden rush of wind ruffled the pair's hair, the scent of rain following. The front swung on open hinges, their handles banging into the walls every once and a while. A jet of red flew past and up the stairs, loud cries shaking the room before the sound of mechanical doors closing silenced all.
BB sent Cyborg a questioning glance, his body shifting back into that of a furry boy. The robot teen simply shrugged in reply.
"Hey team."
The duo looked over at their leader, who slouched, almost as though beaten, against the hallway wall.
"Man," Beast Boy started, one hand scratching the back of his neck, "What happened?"
"What's with Star?" Cyborg added, his arms crossed, one eyebrow raised.
Robin shook his head as he collapsed into the nearest chair,
"I really messed up, huh?"
Cy and BB nodded in reply, they both of them taking their own seats on the couch.
"Damn..." Robin muttered, his eyes closed as his head lolled back on the chair, his chin pointing up at the ceiling.
"So...what happened?" Cyborg pressed, his elbows settled on his knees as he leaned forward.
The masked boy they called their leader, shook his head, the action appearing odd from his current position,
"She asked me."
"Asked you what?" Questioned the changeling, his bright eyes curious, innocent.
"...if I loved her."
Cyborg nodded, more to himself than to Robin, before standing, his body stiff.
"And what did you tell her?"
Robin could hear the edge in Cyborg's voice, and felt even worse. With a sigh, he looked away.
"I didn't answer. Not yes...Not no."
Cyborg nodded,
"I see. Well, you had better go fix it. Pick one. Tell her the truth." The robotic teen left with those last words, his metal attire clunking against the floor as he headed towards the kitchen. Beast Boy simply smiled uneasily before getting up and racing after him, leaving Robin alone.
The Boy Wonder sighed before lifting himself from his chair, his feet heading in the direction of the stairs. Everything below his knees seemed as though filled with led, his steps paced and slow as his mind raced.
Cyborg had been almost like a true, real brother for Raven and he had taken her death hard. Robin sighed loudly, one hand running through his dark hair as he tackled the stairs. He could remember a few nights afterward, during the early hours of the next day, when he couldn't sleep, he would pace the halls and hear the sound of Cyborg crying. It was during those occasions that Robin truly believed that he couldn't make it, that all hope was lost, shattered with the breaking of Cyborg's hard spirit.
Without realization of where he was, Robin felt his feet collide with something hard, yet hollow. He glanced up, and found himself face to face with Starfire's door. With a sigh, he knocked, allowing all of his thoughts to fade away.
"Who is there?" Starfire's voice seemed worn as it reached his ears, evidence that she was still crying. He sighed,
"It's me."
A long, loud silence followed before the rustling of blankets and other unknown things met his ears.
"Come in."
With not even the slightest amount of hesitance, Robin pressed the panel and the doors swung open. He was instantly greeted by many shades of vibrant pink. With a soft scowl, he shielded his eyes for a moment before entering.
"Robin?"
Starfire's eyes roamed over him uneasily, confusing written behind the puffy rimmed emeralds. Robin sighed and dropped his arm, his eyes locking onto her own.
"Can we talk."
Star looked away, "Of course."
Robin shook his head, his eyes glancing around at her eyesore of a room. With a nod, he made his decision and grabbed her by the wrist.
"Not here."
In an instant, he tugged her to her feet and towards the door. She didn't resist at all, just simply followed him out the door and down the hall, not stopping until they reached his room.
Robin pressed his own panel and the doors opened, quickly, he led her in. Starfire's dress swished around her hips as the metal slabs closed again, sending a draft over them.
The Boy Wonder lead them over to his bed. He sat on the black comforter and motioned for Starfire to sit beside him, his eyes set. She slowly took her spot beside him. Robin cleared his throat,
"Starfire...I...I can't answer you right now. Because I don't know...I don't know if I love you."
She nodded shortly, light sniffles and choppy breaths exiting her as she shook. Robin's eyes softened and he wrapped an arm around he shoulders, whispering words of apology.
"No," Starfire replied quietly, her eyes locking onto his, "It's not your fault..."
Robin shook his head, "Yes it is."
She looked away, her long locks of red hair falling around her face, "I love you..."
He looked over at her, not shocked at her admittance, but not at ease. He knew the reply she was silently hoping for...but he also knew that he couldn't give it to her...and she knew it too.
Slowly, Star positioned herself so that she was facing him, her arms sneaking around his neck before tugging him closer.
"Starfire..."
"I will make you love me. I do not care about anything else."
And with that, she pressed her pink lips to his pale ones. Robin felt himself melt, his eyes rolling back into his head as she ran her tongue across his low lip. Lust began to boil in his groin and before he could make a wise decision, both he and Starfire were leaning backward, and his fingers were working at the zipper of her dress.
Well...thats it...sorry...hope it was atleast ok. Review please!
