Hey-low! Everyone! Welcome one and all to chapter 4 of A Whisper of The Heart!

Sorry this took so long to get up, but truthfully I was busy with school and work. However, recently my work closed for the season since it is only a summer kind of place. Thus, I am taking this opportunity to write something for you! This chapter isn't as good as I hoped it would be. But truthfully I don't really edit these things, just spell check and grammar and such. Anyways, I'd like to thank everyone who reads this and reviews for their support! I really appreciate it 3

WARNINGS: This is a yaoi! Meaning boy on boy! If you don't like don't read it! Nothing has happened yet, but it may in the future! I'm warning ya now!

DISCLAIMER!: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh! Or any of its characters just the idea for the story. There is also a line from a song in here, and I do not own that either.

OK! Everyone enjoy!

Chapter 4: You Only Miss The Sun When It Starts To Snow

Bolting upright in bed the blond teen was in a cold sweat and breathing heavily. The nightmare he had just witnessed had seemed much too real. It was about one of the more bad nights where his father would come home drunk and beat him to an inch of his life; however, he soon calmed down realizing his surroundings. Glancing around the room he was in he noticed that he had not awoken in his room in the apartment he shared with his drunkard father. Eyes widening the blonde started to panic if he wasn't at home then where was he? And what time was it?

Whipping his head around to the nightstand he noticed the time on the alarm clock that shone in the darkness of the strange room.

1:30… at night

Shi, shit, shit, shit, shit! If I don't get home soon my dad is gonna kill me! Scratch that! He'll kill me anyways! I missed dinner, didn't do any of my chores, and didn't leave a note! I have to get home as soon as I can and try to explain to him what happened! Throwing the sheets off of himself the blond swung his legs over the edge of the bed grabbed his stuff, which was conveniently placed on a small table by the front of the bed he had woken up in. Pausing he remembered the previous night's activities. He was in the Kaiba mansion and last night he had fallen asleep on the couch while watching a movie with Mokuba. But if I fell asleep downstairs on the couch how did I end up in this room? We were up late last night and all the maids had either gone home, or to bed, so the only other person who would be up that late is… Blushing deeply the blonde realized just who had carried him to bed. Shaking himself he roused himself out of his thoughts and left the room.

The hallway was dark and looming. If Jou didn't know any better he would have thought that something would pop out at him and eat his soul. Truthfully, though that could be entirely possible. I mean it'd make sense if something did what Yug' and everyone has been through it'd be totally expected. Creeping down the hallway the dark mahogany floorboards made small creeks that made the ever looming darkness seem all the more threatening.

He had then mad it downstairs and to the front door. Carefully opening up the large double doors Jou stepped outside into the freezing night. Huh, looks like it's about to snow. What I wouldn't give for some warmth, hell even the warmth of the mansion. I better get home quickly and hope dad's not still awake. Closing the doors behind him the blond raced down the long driveway and into the street.

The teen had made it home in a matter of minutes, but calmed his breathing before approaching his apartment. When his breathing had calmed he steadied himself and scaled the wall, sort of, to where his bedroom window was still left open from earlier that morning.

Placing his had gently on the window sill Jou gripped the edge tightly and brought himself up and put his right then left leg over the sill so he was now sitting on it. Quietly sliding off of the window sill he left his window open just in case he needed a quick escape. Pausing on the ground he listened for any sign that his father was home, but none presented itself. Sighing quietly he walked over to his bed and lay down and stared up at the ceiling. It was a yellowish colour, the result of many years of not being taken care of.

Pulling his only blanket over his body for warmth, for the second time that night he found himself wishing for the warmth of the thick sheets and heat of the Kaiba mansion. Man it's real cold tonight. At moments like these I miss the sun and the warmth of summer. It'd be tolerable if I could close the window, but I can't take that chance. Not while, my dad is here. Sighing again the blond teen rolled over and faced the wall his bed was pushed up against and curled into a ball for warmth. Soon the boy was overrun by fatigue and fell into a dreamless sleep.

KAIBA MANSION

"Haaaaa" the brunet yawned as he stretched in front of his computer. It was nearly 1:40 at night and had been working since he had gotten home and put his brother and the blonde mutt to bed. "Speaking of them, I should probably go check on those two before I go to bed," the CEO stated as he got up from his desk and exited his study. He checked on Mokuba first. His brother was curled under his blankets shielding himself from the cold that blew in from the slightly open window on the other side of the boy's room. Crossing the brunet closed the window silently and exited the room. Making his way to the room where he had allowed Jounouchi to sleep he spun as he heard the closing of a door. Thinking it was just another open window somewhere in the mansion he ignored the itching in his brain that told him something was wrong. The CEO was now standing in front of the wooden door that separated him from the Blonde mutt. Opening the door quietly he looked towards the bed where he put the blond boy. His brow furrowed as he saw no person occupying the bed. Walking over the brunet pulled back the covers. Finding it empty he check the bathroom connected to the room and found that empty as well. Looking over towards the table where he had laid the boys belongings he soon realized that those were gone as well. Eyes widening he briskly walked out of the room and checked all the rooms for good measure. Finding no blond boy Seto had begun to get angry. Just where was his mutt. Sudden realization hit and his eyes widened as he realized that it wasn't the wind that had closed a door, it was Jou. Racing down the stairs he threw on his trench coat and boots, along with a scarf and some leather gloves and raced out the door. Going to his garage he got in the first car he saw and flew out of the Kaiba estate intent on finding the blond boy that had stupidly left his house in the middle of the night.

It was 3 in the morning…

WITH JOU

An hour or so later Jou really couldn't tell he was awakened by the sound of his door being slammed open. Jolting up from his position in bed he whipped his head around to the source of the noise that had awoken him. Looking towards the doorway his eyes widened in fear as he saw his father standing in the doorway looking madder than ever. However, there was a glint of something else in his eye as he made his way towards the blonde. It was almost carnal. It was plainly obvious to Jou that his father was completely wasted. His father's breathing was ragged; his eyes were unfocused yet focused at the same time, the man knew what he wanted. Jou was now up against the wall of his room, still seated on his bed.

He was soon jerked towards his father as the man grasped the collar of Jou's shirt and yanked him towards his face. Stopping inches from his face Jou's mind went blank.

"Ya know Katsuya. It's yur fault they left. It's yur fault yur mother and sister left. You ruined our marriage, Katsuya. And ya know why she didn't take you with her? It's cuz she thinks yur a useless piece of shit. Yur shit Katsuya and you'll never amount to anythin'. All that's left for ya now is me. The only thing ya can do now is try to please me, Ka-tsu-ya! " The man breather heavily in Jou's face and on the last words his father had pressed his lips against his sons cold soft ones.

THIS snapped Jou out of his dazed state. As his father tried to slip his tongue into Jou's mouth the blond bit his father's tongue HARD.

"AHHH! WHAT THE HELL YOU PIECE OF SHIT!" the man yelled out in pain. Glaring at the blond haired boy in front of him he brought his fist up and punched him across the cheek. This made Jou fall over on his bed from the sheer force. Suddenly he was lifted into the air and soared through it. Pain radiated throughout his back and head as he smashed into the wall with surprising force. Hissing in pain Jou opened one eye and saw his father walking towards him again. Shutting his eye again he braced himself for more pain. Feeling his father's foot collide with his already broken rib he screamed out. This caused his father to slam a foot into his face and stomp on it until he shut up. Whimpering the blond boy tried to shield himself from the ongoing attacks of his so called father. His father noticed this and grabbed the boy's hands and brought them up above the blondes head and straddled his waist. Jou faintly noticed his hands being tied together and dragged over to his bed where they were then tied to the bed frame so he wouldn't be able to move them. His father straddled his sons waist and leaned down to the boy's ear and whispered, "I wasn't gonna do this if you cooperated, only play with you a little, for entertainments sake and all, since you were the cause of this dull situation we are in now. But since you were much less than cooperative you little shit, I will do much worse to you," the man said licking the boys ear lobe.

However, Jou soon found himself being hit in the head with a heavy object. Unable to stay in consciousness the boy slowly closed his eyes as he saw his father taking off his belt…

Later, Jou didn't know how much later, he found himself on the cold ground in front of his apartment. His head ached, his arms ached, and his chest ached, hell almost every part of his body felt terrible. However, the most surprising part was that his hips were aching.

"Wha-what the hell? He murmured to himself. Trying to make sense of what had happened he found himself remembering what his father had done to him.

The man he called his father had beaten him and then raped him then threw him out telling the boy to never come back and that he should just die on the street like stupid disgraceful whore he was… he knew that the man had done this because throughout the process he had come back into consciousness for a few seconds then passed out again. He was glad he didn't have to experience the whole thing, but what he did remember was terrifying in itself.

He lay on the ground for another little while until he knew he would be able to move. Forcing himself up to his feet he began to limp towards the one place that he could be alone, the park. On his way he stopped and keeled over, coughing up blood and crying from the pain. He was sure more ribs were broken. Pressing on after each time he finally made it to the park. HIS park. This place had been a second home to him since his father began drinking and abusing him. After every time the man did something to him Jou would come here and sit under the big Sakura tree they had planted on of the corners of the park. This moment was no different, except for the fact that he could feel death looming ever so closely to him. Sitting under the tree and leaning against its cold yet strong trunk he closed his eyes as his life flashed before his life.

The birth of his baby sister, Serenity. The warm times his family spent at the beach together, playing in the sun and ocean waves. All happy things that had been his life before this hell. The he was plagued by the memories of his father and mother fighting, the divorce, the harsh words his mother said to him and his father when she left, taking his baby sister with her. His father becoming an alcoholic, all the beatings and longs nights. All making up to the present and the horrible memories he wished to forget. If dyeing meant forgetting, he would gladly welcome death with open arms and a smile. After all, his father was right, he was a useless human being with nothing to live for or look forward to. He would never amount to anything; no one would truly love him. His friends tolerated him, his father and mother hated him, his sister barely saw him.

"Huh! No one would care if someone like me vanished from this world. Though, I wish they would." The boy whispered out loud to now one in general. Opening his eyes he felt warm tears run down his cold red, black and blue coloured cheeks as he stared up at the dark night sky. His eyes widened as he saw snow gently falling from the darkness above. Suddenly he really missed the sun. It seems no one ever misses the sun till it starts to snow. It's kind of like how when things are only at its worst when you realize the happy days you took for granted.

"Heh, of course tonight would be the first snowfall of the winter," he chuckled to himself, but stopped abruptly as he coughed up more blood. His body was numb. Jou could no longer feel the pain of his injuries or the coldness of the night around him and the snow that cascaded down onto his body. Jou's eyes slowly slid closed thinking of the nice warm days he spent with his whole family in the sun. Smirking he whispered, "You only miss the sun when it starts to snow." And Jou fell into unconsciousness once again.

It was 3:10 a.m.

Aight guys! That's the next chapter! Hope you all liked it! Now there WILL be another one! So don't freak out! It's a little bit shorter than my other chapters, the next one will probably be too, but I promise that the one after the next one will be longer, and that all other chapters will be better! I PROMISE YOU! Also keep in mind that Jou's father forced those thoughts about himself and his friends into his mind so that now Jou believes thy are true. Just sayin.

Hopefully it was a good chapter, however I feel like I had more planned for this part, but truthfully I wasn't going to write the whole rape scene with Jou and his father. I truthfully don't think I could write something like that and post it to the public! ;D

Next Chapter: Fear, Loathing, and School trips!

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