I tapped on the lunch table as I waited for my boyfriend to arrive. What a jerk! He always puts HIS needs before MINE! I can't believe I'm still together with him! Ugh! What a pain! But loving him is just like loving a soft, fluffy teddy bear! Ah! Just imagine! Me walking down the aisle into the arms of the one-the only!- the certainly fine!- Len Kagamine! If only it wasn't a dream, but reality! He's been my boyfriend for a year almost! Which I think is pretty darn good, if I do say so myself! Before him, the longest relationship I ever had was a month. What jerk he was, but what lips were good!
"Neru~!" Sang a melodic voice. I looked next to me and Ritsu, my best friend, was right next to me.
"Huh? What?" I ask.
Ritsu giggles. "What is your thought on Diane's question?" Momo asks with her soothing voice.
I shake my heads. "I don't think girls should get their breasts removed and get a cock! It's disgusting! And the other way around! The hell would you want gigantic balls in the front of you? Or two melons? Or a bleeding vagina?" I say.
Ritsu looks at the others and the others at her.
"Too graphic?" I ask. They all nod, but Ritsu, she just went as pale as a ghost. I shake my head. "Well! Enough about that! Did you guys hear the rumors?" I ask as my hands slide on the table.
The girls all got out of their seats and huddled around me, as they always do, along with lifting up their right eyebrow in synchronicity.
"Well...rumor is...Miku asked Rin out..." I whisper to them.
They all gasp.
"Homosexuality?"
"Gross!"
"What did she say?"
"What a couple of sluts!"
They all chatter amount themselves.
"And there's more!" I begin. The all look at again with a stunned look. "Rin rejected her..." I told them.
They began to converse about this, too.
Yes, I was there at that scene! I saw it all! And if you saw it too, you know what else I saw! And I didn't like it one bit! He's mine! He will always be mine and only mine!
I took a sip of my drink as the girls calmed down and looked at me again.
"Is there more?" Diane asked. I nooses contently, preparing myself for what big beans I was about to spill, but gossip is just my thing! And my hatred for Rin is also my thing! It's hard to get rid of my thing! (A/n: yes, I know I just wrote that! Sue me)
"Rin... Has... A... Crush... On-"
"Hey, Neru~!" Says a a familiar voice. Len. I turn around and smile at him happily.
"Hey, Lenny!" I chime and get up and jump in his arms. It feel nice and I feel like I could stay here for an eternity on end! That's how much I love this man!
"Whoa! No kiss?" He asks happily. I smile with that normal blush and peck his lips. He gives me his grin and then let's go of me. We sit down together with our fingers intwined.
I love this feeling. Love. This will always make me happy and joyous! It's not just love, but it's also knowing that someone loves you! (A/n: yes, I want to barf too, deal with it for now)
"Oh! Len, where were you?" I asked, praying he wasn't cheating. This is Len! He wouldn't... Right?
He looked down and let go of my head and shook his head. "Slept in and, um...family problems have developed..." He says. "B-but nothing serious!" He smiles. Obviously happy, he always gives me that smile, from the day we met and forever more.
I nod. "Well, I can do whatever you need!" I tell him.
"Ehem..." Momo scoffs.
"Not to rain on you parade, but Neru was just telling us something!" Diane said unhappily.
I looked at Len and went back through my information and how I was gonna play this all out. Okay! So! If I say it now then Len will hate me since it's his sister! If I say something later, the girls will be mad at me and Momo will dethrone me! I compromise.
"Um..." I get up out of my seat. "Ladies, let's go to the bathroom!" I command and snap my fingers. They all stand up and then we all head towards the bathroom.
I am nervous about telling them about this, but-again- ruining Rin's life is my goal, and I'm fulfilling it every minute I date Len!
We make it to the bathroom and all my friend sit around while some freshener make-up and fix hair.
"What is is?" Teto asked. "Spill the beans, who does Rin like?"
I take in a full breathe. "You didn't hear this from me, promise?" I say.
The all nod. "Cross my heart and hope to fly, shove a cupcake in my eyes," they all say in unison. We giggle.
I give slight brush strokes to my long pony-tail. "Well...he has a girlfriend...and they are too close to date," I begin.
I hesitate.
"WHO?" They all say in unison once more.
I slam my brush on the side of the sink. "Len!" I say and then instantly regret ever being in trash duty that day I heard them.
The stall door slams open and I feel a rush of cold air and, suddenly, I feel cold hands clasp around the collar of my shirt. The teal twin tails around me swivel and bob back and forth.
"WHERE THE HELL DID YOU LEARN THAT FROM?" Says the girl's eyes as she glowers at me. It's Miku, she's the only other one that knows that piece of information, well, not now of course!
I shiver, knowing to get out of this conversation. "Why the hell should I tell you that?" I answer quickly.
I feel Miku shift over to a wall. "IF YOU- AND YOUR FRIENDS- TELL ANYONE ELSE, I WILL MAKE SURE YOU HAVE A VERY VERY VERY VEEEEERY BAD TIME AT THIS SCHOOL FOR THE REST OF YOR PITIFUL HIGH SCHOOL LIFES!" She spouts.
I scoffed, knowing this was an easy get out. "How? Len is Rin's best friend and your her best friend! Maybe more~!" I say with a sly smile.
Miku shifts her head down.
I won! I always win!
Wait...
Miku grins demonically. "Which means I know that Len doesn't want to be in a relationship with someone as fucked up as you!" She tells me.
I feel angry. "You know nothing about me..." I say as I gulp down my saliva.
She knows...
She knows...
Please...
Don't tell anyone...
I begin to cry. "Don't tell anyone that..." I plead.
She smiles. "Only at extreme measure I will..." She replies and let's me go. She walks to the sink and washes her hands. "Don't tell Rin's or mine and I won't tell your. That goes for all of you!" Miku calls then dries her hands in the machine.
I smile weakly knowing that Miku could be so kind as to keep the blackmail at a tie between us.
It's after school and all my friends decide to leave early, which leaves me with the only one I care for: Len. I wait for him to be finished with practice. It takes a while, but I like watching him and his team mates run around sweaty, mostly Len, but he's my boyfriend, so of course I do.
When his practice is finally over, I jump on him as we go back to the school and he gets his bag, which he forgot. Before we leave the room, I hold his hand and push him against a desk. "You looked cute at practice..." I tell him as I hand my hands around his neck and tickle his neck with my nose.
Len holds me waist and let's me do my thing. "Mm~! Thanks..." He says softly into my ear. We hold each other and at flirty things to each other for a while, but I could tell he didn't mean them as much as I did.
I feel comfortable like this, yet awkward. I decide to try to make it less awkward.
I tug on Len's blazer with my hands and close my eyes and he does the same. I lean in and feel his soft breathe hit my mouth. It feels..good... Our lips are about to connect. I lean a bit closer, but nothing's there. Len pushes me back a little and covers his mouth with his hands.
What...
Len shakes his head as I stand there in shock.
What?
I look at Len closely and it looks like he is crying.
Tell me this is a dream...
"I'm so sorry, Neru..." He tells me and grabs his bag.
Yeah, I'll wake up at any point in time right now...
"I just can't keep lying to myself..." He says as he chokes.
Three...
"I'm so so sorry, but..."
Two...
"This isn't working like it used to..."
One...
"I think we should..."
Zero...
"..break up..."
I sprint out of the classroom, without forgetting my stuff, and heading to the shoe lockers as I slip on my outside shoes then full out sprint towards my house. I get there and ruffly opened the door and slammed it behind me.
"Neru!" I heard my grandmother say behind me from the kitchen as I take off my shoes and sprint up the stairs to my room.
I don't know what to do now...
I throw my bag agains my wall after I took my phone off and lightly tossed it in my desk.
I look at all the memories in my room.
Picture...
Gifts...
Smiles...
And even worse...
Rin...
Len's twin...
I take all the picture out of their frame and put them in a pile along with the memento's Len gave me.
I cry. "I DON'T DESERVE THIS!" I screech. The tears pour out of my eyes. My door opens and my grandma is standing there, but then she's hugging.
"Oh, darling..." She says and cuddles me close to here.
"I DON'T DESERVE TO BE LIKE THIS!" I say as I Cuvier down coughs.
"Oh, I know, honey..." She tells me and kisses my head.
I cry and cry and cry and cry and cry. That's all I can do. What do you want me to do? Be happy that we broke up? I know you all wanted Len and I to break up. You want Rin to date Len, yeah? That's the whole reason you're here! And I'm just the antagonist? Yeah, of course! I always am! I'm always the bad guy, the one that gets beat-up for have loving Len. Is there something funny about this? Am I a joke? Just words written on a page to you that signify that I'm bad? Sure, everyone does... But I have feelings too you know...
I melt into my grandma's arms and sniffle as she takes my hair band out and runs her fingers through my long hair. "Now tell me what's wrong, honey," she asks calmly.
"He...he...broke up with me..." I say as I nuzzle into her lap.
My grandma's eyes went soft and hugged me. "Oh, honey!" She says.
My grandma eventually left me alone as soon as she knew I wasn't going to burn the house down out of rage. I changed into my pajamas and fell down into my bed. I stared out into the night sky that had once been my friend in comfort, but now is my enemy in memories. Sour memories...
I want I burn them...
Piko
Miku
Len
Especially Rin...
But knowing that that's what all you psychopaths want restrains me. I'm not stupid, people. Just because your hatred tries to get me doesn't mean ill fall to your hands and jump off a cliff just to satisfy the crowd. I am my own person, after all...
Love is bittersweet. First falling in love, then falling out of love. It's tough, but remember-it happens to almost everyone, not just you.
