Author note : A jon and dany AU story : this is part 1
'' - hey Jon it's me again please call me back we need to talk ''
She couldn't sleep , she was exhausted she hasn't closed an eye in forty-eight hours and yet her brain was on fire she kept replying the events in her head over and over .
It was pouring rain outside and that only made her want to bury her head in her pillows and never leave her bed, pretend that the world didn't exist , just go to sleep and forget about everything else but she had to do it she had to tell him , her heart was pounding in her chest , her blood was running hot , she could hardly breath , the walls of her room sere suffocating her . Gods How did it get this fucked up ?
'' - Jon … she stars voice shaking with emotions . You once told me to never be ashamed of what you are, to embrace it and wear it like and armor. Well here it goes: My father was a vicious cunt and I fucking have daddy issues ok?
Daenerys stops for a moment gathering her breath as the memories trail in front of her eyes , fights and screams , crappy childhood , her father's insults ,the abuse the hard moments and the image of a small little girl how only wanted to be loved and yet she never was .
'' - and it's not a sob story , and I don't want your pity or anything , it is what it is and it made me how I am and I …. I like how I am I like the choices I made and if I haven't grown up with him maybe I wouldn't be here but Jon she says as the first tears stream down her face . It broke things in me, things I don't know how to fix and for so long I thought I could love no one not ever!
For how could I love when I was never loved? I wasn't sure how I could ever share myself with anyone even If I wanted too but then you came along and things changed but fuck I'm scarred ok and I want to love you I do I just don't know how ?! So just please call me let us talk at least for one last time ! ''
She hangs up the phone not being able to control her tears as she buries her head in her pillow again and sobs so hard she fears she may drown in her own tears, it's still raining outside and she has the urge to go out and let the rain wash away her pain and yet she waits for a message, a call any sign of him but it never comes , eventually she falls asleep .
