Jasper had been pacing the kitchen for about 6 minutes although it felt like 6 hours when he turned to stare at me. The expression ' If looks could kill' suddenly came to mind and I winced.
This was nothing that I didnt see coming but now I was about to experience the 'wrath of the Swan Brothers' I was actually bricking it.
I now know how Eric Johnson felt after he tried to stick his tongue down my throat after 5th period when we were seniors in high school. He instantly knew my brothers were going to choke him and hid from them for weeks. I found it highly amusing.
He was scared of coming to school and was constantly begging for my forgiveness, little did he know my brothers usually struck when their victim least expected it. Just when he thought it was safe poor Eric was stuffed into his locker with his underwear so far up his behind I felt sorry for his testicals!
He didnt look me in the eye after that. Poor poor Eric.
I had a newfound respect for him now I was facing the same fate.
Jasper was very rarely angry. He was usually the calm one, the mediator. He usually calmed Emmett down after he lost his temper so this was completely new to me.
I looked over at Emmett who was just staring at me like I had grown a second head. I gave him a slight smile which probably came off as more of a grimace than anything else.
Jasper sighed and said 'We need to call dad'
I panicked 'NO, no please not yet, I need to talk to you guys first then I can think about dad.. Please Jaz not yet'
'He DESERVES to know your here Bella' Jasper said 'Thats if your planning on actually staying this time?"
OK , I deserved that.
'I'm staying as long as you will have me' I muttered looking at the floor.
'Bella, we need an explanation. You cannot just walk in here after almost 2 years and expect everything to go back to how it was, you need to tell us where the fuck you have been' Emmett sounded scary when he was serious.
'I know, and I promise I will, I just need to get my head together first ok?'
'NOT good enough Isabella' Jasper interupted ' Start talking NOW or you can march your butt back out the door'
Ouch!
'Jas man, you cant say that. Dont say that to her' Said Emmett.
I could feel the tears pricking my eyes but I refused to let them see me cry, I had done that enough. I was stronger than that. No crying Bella, No crying!
'Em, don't sit on the fence. We have a right to know where the fuck she has been and why she didn't contact us. Don't you wanna know?'
'Of course I do, but I don't want her bolting again man'
Am I not here?? Why are they talking about me like Im not even in the room
'Whatever, you come and find me Bella when your ready to talk, until then Im going to Alice's'
Jasper barged past me and stormed out the front door slamming it with such a force I thought the glass in it would shatter.
Yep, that went just as well as I expected it to.
Lovely!
I looked up at Emmett who was just staring at me with such a loving expression that I just burst into tears. Bollox to my no crying rule, I couldn't do it, I had no fight left in me.
Emmett rushed over to me as I sank to the floor against the fridge and held me.
'Shh, tink shhh, dont let him get to you. He's just shocked'
He called me 'Tink'. That made me cry even more.I was howling at this point and probably snotting all over his shirt but I didn't even care.
Tink was his nickname for me when I was little. When the film Hook came out I was convinced I was destined to be a fairy. I would flit around the house with fairy wings on and a wand thus gaining the name 'tinkerbella' which Emmett shortened to tink. Edward when he was feeling particularly annoying would call me 'Stinkerbella'. He was such a delightful specimen.
'I'm so sorry Em, I'm so sorry. I couldn't handle it, I needed to get away' I sobbed into his shirt.
'Its ok, we can talk later sweetie just relax'
We sat there for a while, my backside was numb from sitting on the tiled kitchen floor and I had pins and needles in my left leg.
I thought about how things were and how happy we were until I ruined it. I missed it so fucking much. I loved my family so much and I treated them so badly just to be with some boy that didn't even care about me. He used me to get what he wanted and Jessica paid the ultimate price.
A cough interupted my thoughts. Edward was standing against the door frame with one arm against it above his head.
'Everything ok in here man?" He asked.
'Yeah, cool' Emmett said. 'I got my sister back' I could almost hear the smile in his voice as he said it.
At hearing this I bawled again. I must have looked ridiculous wailing like a 5 year old but I was so past caring.
'Where'd Jaz go?' Edward enquired
What the fuck? Did he not see me and my brother were in the middle of a 'moment'? God what an annoying ass hat.
I pointed towards the door and shouted 'YOU.. OUT' at him.
He just looked at me as though I had told him the sky was multicoloured. He held his hands up over his head like he was about to be arrested and backed out of the kitchen.
'Whooaa way to go Bella, when did you get some balls?'
I just laughed at my brother. There was no way I would have dared to speak to Edward like that before. Mainly cos his skankazoid Tanya would have her claws out in a matter of seconds. I wondered when she was going to make an appearance. I would have to remember to get the disinfectant out, She was as filthy as they come. YUK!
I was past caring how I spoke to people these days, it was about time I spoke my mind and stopped letting people walk all over me. If I wasnt such a pushover then chances are I wouldn't have gotten myself into this mess in the first place.
If I had a superpower I would so love the power of seeing the future!!
We sat there for a while longer and the doorbell rang, Emmett hopped up and said he would be right back. I got off the floor and realised just how dead my legs and ass cheeks were and toppled back towards the floor.
Just before the impact I felt a pair of hands around my waist pulling me back to my feet. I didn't even need to look up to see who it was, I knew that smell anywhere.
'You ok there?' He asked.
'Yes, Edward I am fine, I am perfectly capable of standing on my own 2 feet. What are you doing? Going for a sainthood or something?'
'Clearly you are not capable cos in the times I have seen you since you have walked through that door you have fallen twice. Still vertically challenged I see?"
He smirked at me and I really wanted to smack the grin off his face.
'Ass' was my witty retort as I stomped away.
Emmett was standing at the door with a leggy blonde who was dripped all over him. Hmm, where did he find these floozies?
She just looked at me and quirked her eyebrow at me and looked me up and down.
'Don't you look at me like that missy, I know Kickboxing and Im not afraid to use it' I barked.
'Whooaaa tiger, no need to resort to violence' Emmett chuckled.
'Who do you think your talking to?' the bimbo asked with her hands on her hips..
'Look at me like that again woman and you watch what happens' I pointed at her.
Stuck up slag, who did she think she was looking me up and down.
I stalked off towards the family room, I heard the skank demanding to know why Emmett didn't defend her and he simply replied 'cos thats my sister'
Evidently she knew to shut up after that and they left.
Noone was in the room when I came in, they must have all left while I was crying a hole into Emmetts tshirt.
I turned around to see Edward standind in the doorway again.
'Christ, what do you want? Cant you just leave me alone for like 2 minutes? I dont need a damn babysitter, Im not gonna run off again so you can run along now. Im sure one of your floozies can keep you company'
Ok I was probably slightly harsh but seriously can you blame me? He was hovering around like a fly around a bad smell.
His smirk faded and his eyes darkened.
'I was just going to ask if you wanted pizza, we are ordering in'
Ok, now I felt bad.
'Yeah, sure, thank you' I replied feeling like a royal bitch.
I plopped my arse onto the sofa and put my head in my hands, Wow if I thought this was bad wait til my dad comes home. If Jasper had told him I was back then chances are he would come home sooner.
I knew things wouldn't be back to the way they were straight away, It would take a while.
I had disgraced my family and then turned my back on them so they had every right to be pissed at me. Hell, I would be pissed if it was the other way round.
About an hour later I headed back to the kitchen to find the pizza box on the side and noone else around. I munched on it and decided I was determined to make things up to my family no matter what.
I went out the car and grabbed my suit case from the trunk. I was so tired the night before I had forgotten. I wasn't sure whether it was wise to unpack or not, I didn't know how long my trip would even be.
I popped the trunk and pulled at my suitcase but it was jammed, so I pulled some more. The damn thing was wedged tight so I opened my legs slightly, bent my knees grabbed the handle and pulled while leaning back. Next thing I know Im flying backwards onto the gravel with the handle of my case in my hand. I landed with my legs in the air looking like a turtle stuck on my back.
Fucking great!!!
My ass was now killing me and my suitcase was broken! Cheap nasty crap! Angela warned me against buying shit from Camden market. Go to a decent shop she said, don't be buying rubbish from a market its not worth it she said.
Yes, thank you very much Angela.
I sat up and rubbed at my elbow while staring at the broken handle in my hand. I looked up to see Edward heading round the side of the house shoulders shaking while shaking his he laughing at me?? That prick!
That boy was REALLY beggining to piss me off!
'Fuck you' I shouted as I stood to my feet.
I brushed myself down in time to hear Edward shout back 'YOU WISH'
I stood there with my mouth open and my fists clenched so much I thought I would draw blood. That antagonistic shit head.
I slammed the boot and stomped back up to the house and up the stairs to my room.
I hated Edward Cullen with all my might. He was gorgeous, sexy, he had a panty dropping smile and the most adorable eyes ever and that hair, what I would do to be grabbing onto that hair..... What? No, I hated him!
He was arrogant, annoying completely self centered and a pig.... A gorgeous pig? Can pigs be gorgeous? This one is.
Oh for the love of god!!!
I had only been back 24 hours and already I was letting that .. .that BOY get under my skin. He always knew how to press my buttons.
I would just have to not let him get to me, I didn't come back for him. Hell, I didn't even know he would be here. I was surprised he wasn't off somewhere spending his inheritance money. Maybe he could buy his cheap girlfriend a pesonality transplant? And possibly remove the stick from up his butt in the process.I laughed at my own little joke but it came out as more of a snort.
I decided to ignore him and sort out my problems. I needed to sort my relationship with my brothers and father out IF it could be sorted.
I decided that tomorrow I would start the first phase of my healing process.
I was going to see Jessica!
