it so amazing, this guy is almost innocent. copying and pasting his SAME insult to other people. its so pathetic i actually feel embaressed for him. my little sister could come up with something better then this. at least he could have made it interesting to read, instead of recycling the same thing over and over and over again. so sad...
note to the second message:
yes i figured he hadnt much else to to do, thanks for being the first actual review to this story , hope you enjoy the rest
now onto the story
past present future, with the lines so entwined how can one tell the difference? when someone is there and then gone, what does that mean for the ones left behind? how can one single child change the fate of so many?
chapter four
he immediatly got up and ripped off the scanners on him. he almost over to the door, intent on getting out. it opened and he stepped back hands finding familiar spots, as he readied for.. a girl? raven walked in and stopped him, she walked over and shut off the flat-line warning before turning to him." calm down."
"where am i?!" he nearly yelled out.
" calm down! your in titans tower, we brought you here to heal you, since you got hurt saving my child." he stopped after a moment.
" logan is yours?" he asked slowly. she nodded and he kinda calmed down and sat on the table." so your raven huh?" he asked. she nodded slowly. she didnt like this. he was... she knew him... somehow.
" have we met?" she asked him slowly. he quarked an eyebrow.
" uuhhh i dont think so." he said quickly. but something in raven stirred. she reached out slowly. he was worried, scared... of what?
" are you ok?" he closed his eyes.
" im fine."
" you dont feel fine." he stopped. oh no... an empath..." i wouldnt normally ask... but i owe you my sons life." his face kinda fell and he sighed.
" ive...i dont know... can you keep a secret?" he asked. she sat down in front of him and nodded.
" just one, but yes." she said with a smile.
"i... i dont know who i am." he said quietly. she quarked an eyebrow.
" your alex right." he shook his head.
" no im not alex. alex is a bum who died in front of a warehouse before i woke up." she stopped, but now she was on guard.
" so.. you took his identity? did you kill him?" he shook his head violently
"no.. i dont... think." he gritted his teeth and closed his eyes."i dont know... i need to go, please ... let me go, i cant breath... somethings wrong." she nodded and touched his shoulder. no more then seconds later they were on the docks. he stopped and took a few breaths, calming down noticably even though his chest hurt like all hell. she felt it, but didnt do anything. he sat down as it got worse." i... im sorry for doing that."
she shook her head." im sorry but.. will you be ok?" he nodded.
" get back to your party, dont want the heros thinking i kidnapped you." he said with a small chuckle, she smiled confused, but still it was.. funny.. almost.. she left and he leaned back. the pain for a moment almost made him double over. but as soon as it came it was gone.
cyborg saw an alert come up in his red eye, and dissapear just as quickly, though he didnt let it show he couldnt believe what he had seen. he shook his head and sighed.
" i need another tune up." raven showed up again and sat down to watch the kids wrestle around a bit, they had all gotten tired of it and decided not to tell them to stop, it was built into the kids to fight, and wrestling wasnt so bad. though they got torn a new one if it ever got out of hand.
usually it was gabreal who won. he was naterally the biggest of the three, but every so often logan being as skinny as he was paid off, and ilia did get her mothers stregth. logan stopped for a moment, and looked around. it was like a knot was forming in his stomach. something was off, he glanced at his mother questioningly, but when she gave him the same look he moved his eyes across the room. who was it, what was wrong? his thoughts were inturropted when ilia tackled him.
"oommff!"
he rolled around for a minute, forgetting it was just a game before pinning her roughly, his eyes still shifting around, who the hell was it?! gabe tackled him from the side with a loud HAH! and as he rolled around he kicked upwards with his knee's and flipped him over. but as soon as he stood it was gone. DAMN IT! he sighed and sat down.
" dude whats wrong?" gabe asked. logan shook his head. "nothing just... got a bit wierd there for a second."
gabe nodded and they settled down. his eyes still roamed the crowd, till they landed on cyborg... that was who it was.. he got up and brushed himself off. before heading over, his facade raising as he formed an idea. he hoped it was victor who he felt the knot from.
" hey uncle victor can i talk to you? my school laptop is on the fritz and i wanted to fix it." vic jumped at the chance to prove his supioroity with computers.
though when they were apart from the group he dropped his mask.
" what is it?" he asked. vic stopped.
" say wha?" jogan gave him a look that meant no B.S. and even from a kid, vic was slightly worried, it was ravens son after all.
" i want to know what made you twist up like that." vic stopped for a moment as he rubbed his chin." well at least your a bit more to the point then your mother... sit down." he complied and victor sat down.
" when.. when beast boy dissapeared... we looked everywhere, aqualad mustve combed the ocean 50 times, we even went to other planets and dimentions looking for him.. i never let my scanner stop looking for his heart beat. i figured if he came back i would know first.."
logan nodded and rubbed his chin.
" ok so what happened? how does that figure in?" victor shook his head.
" my scanner must be busted because for a moment i registered him within city limits." logan's eyes widened as he realized what that meant." but then he's alive!" his only thought was if he could find him then his mom could be happy again, like all of the stories from so long ago. victor shook his head." dont.."
"but if you got him on your scanner then he is close, we should start looking!" Cyborg silenced him.
" Dont! you dont know, you werent even concieved... how many people.." he closed his eyes and thought for a moment." all of us suffered. some more then others. people we thought didnt really care completely broke down... aqua lad ran himself ragged looking for beast boy. raven was meditating every day looking for his mind... robin went all slade-hunt like when we were searching for him. there were... a lot of false hopes."
"what do you mean?" logan asked slowly. victor again sat on the idea." starfire was as bad as robin... she hadnt experinced death on tameran before... then one day there was a news flash, someone had spotted a green changling like beast boy in another country... every single titan flooded that country looking for him.. it was a man in green paint looking for attention... another report came in from canada and again we flooded that country scoring for him, and it was a trap. a lot of titans almost died."
logan shook his head." this isnt fake, i know it! just as sure as i knew you felt off." victor let his shoulders fall.
" every day ive been hoping for something, but its not enough i need actuall proof." logan nodded.
" then ill get it! ill find it and.." he was cut short as he felt his insides explode in pain. what ever he was going to say was drowned out in a shreik of pain.
victor immediatly scooped him up, even as he talked in his free hand and told the others to get the med bay ready again. raven was the first there, her hands wringing themselfs as she tried to stay calm, even though things were shaking and the lights dimmed every so often. they set him on the table, somewhere between the entrance and the bed he passed out.
cyborg had him hooked up and he began to float slowly." cyborg whats going on?" cyborg read his sensors.
" what ever it is, its not showing up as a physical thing, his heart rate is racing, brain activity is shooting threw the roof. im suprised he stayed awake as long as he did." he would shake his head as he sighed." i think he should stay here. im sure the new titans wont mind." raven nodded. she sat down and concentrated, before she felt the wieghtlessness.
" im going to see if its something inside." robin nodded as he walked in, and cyborg filled him in.
she had the ability to go into his mind, it was a parental thing she supposed. inside his mind was somewhat like her nevermore, at least in design. she began to walk down the path, and the scenery shifted, just like her mind, she would meet his emotions. but for some reason his all stayed in the same area.
she looked around when she finally reached The Platform, as he called it. where they all stayed. some were asleep, some were wrestling around, but happy saw her and jumped up." Mommy!" he yelled as he ran over to her." hey mommy why are you here?" she knelt down slightly and hugged him.
"i want to know whats going on, why did you pass out?" happy giggled and pointed behind him, over the side.
" aww its nothing big, He just got out." raven stopped and gave him a questioning look.
" him? fury?" he shook his head.
" nah fury isnt so bad once you get past the whole ' i hate everything, im gonna kill you' Mood. to its Him we worry about here." he said as he chanced a peek over the edge. she looked over and saw two cold white eyes looking back to her. it was in a cage, but inside of said cage, it was completely black.
" what is him?" she asked
happy shrugged." dunno, not even knowladge knows, we just know he is bad." she got even more worried then before.
" is he trigon?" happyness let out a sharp bark of laughter witch woke the others up. and they came as well. knowledge immediatly took up the whole convorsation. rage growled before courage tackled him.
" come here you!" he said in a rambo-ish voice. knowladge shook his head with a giggle.
" nah grandpa doesnt come near us, not enough of his blood to gain access to us and control us like he did you." timid looked down.
" sorry for saying that." knowladge shook his head slowly and sighed.
" dude!" she snapped around, for a moment not believing, it couldnt have been, but that was his words, his tone... but it was only happyness pointing down toward whatever-it-was.
" i think it winked at me!" he went off into a fit of giggles as he rolled on the ground. knowladge looked in between the two.
" what was that?" he asked slowly.
" n.nothing." she said for a moment. timid looked down.
" sorry for reading your diary." raven froze again and all of the kids, even rage froze and looked over to her. an audible gulp resonated threw the area." what did you do?" happy bit his lip and hid behind knowladge, who hid behind rage, who hid behind timid, who hid behind courage, who couldnt find anyone worth hiding behind.
" uumm... it was just a few pages, and i dont remember anything, and we are sorry, we wanted to tell you, but we were scared that you would be angry and think we were like HIM!" courage spit the last word out, vemon covering it. he hated what his father was after all. raven took a moment to recover.
" do you remember what page it was? because if it... was one of the darker ones i dont want you being hurt." they all shrugged at once. and slowly came out from hiding. she sighed and sat down for a moment." when did that thing appear?" knowladge thought for a moment.
" oh he was always here, but he wasnt like that before, he was nice, and liked to play a lot. i remember when he used to curl up around us, he loves to get pet, but the past few days, he has been angry. more angry then rage if you can believe it." rage glared at him." oh i hate you.."
"we all know rage. courage please." courage nodded.
" my pleasure, c'mere!" he yelled, and rage gave a defeated sigh before getting hit yet again. then they heard a rattle and all the boys stopped.
" oh no." timid whispered. knowladge pushed his mom toward the exit.
" get out now go! he's gonna get loose again!" raven grabbed his arms.
" no! maybe i can help banish it!" she said to her childs emotion. knowladge thought for a moment before pushing her threw an arch.
" sorry!" he yelled after her.
they turned as their darker side shot over the lip. its feral scream echoing threw the realm. raven opened her eyes, and she was back at the tower, in her room none the less. but fever streak hadnt taken it. it was her room, from years ago. then she felt another close by. she couldnt control her movements, but felt herself begin to meditate, for some reason she felt hurt.
-mother?- she sighed as she realized where she was.
-you read the diary?- she asked, she felt his shame and sighed inwardly
-dont worry... well this was my room.- she said, trying to make the best of it. he smiled, she felt him smile at least and felt better.
-well its a lot worse then my room.- she shook her head, before trying to place the day, oh how she wished she had a calender. then a knock on her door.
" rae?" she felt her heart leap at his voice, and her son felt her, both past and present, emotions start to fight for freedom.
-did you love him?- he asked quietly. after a moment she giggled
- i think i always did. but... fear kept me from letting it out..- logan nodded slowly
logan watched as she opened her door, and peeked out to see garfield. her garfield. logan looked him up and down before smirking
- a bit greener then the pictures show..- he looked downcast, and was watching a paticularly interesting speck of dirt on his shoe as he talked.
" rae im sorry. i shouldnt... i was... im acting like a jerk and.."
-no way! hahahah!- raven pushed agenst his conceussness as she realised her son was picking apart her old flame.
-what?!- he shook his head... mentally.. er metaphoricly speaking.
- the vid files never mentioned him acting like this! he is always made out to be a perfect guy, i never thought he stumbled over his words.- raven shook her head.. preverbally speaking... again.. as they turned their attention to him.
" look... i just... god i try so hard... i just want you to be happy, and i try... why do you think i use all of those dumb jokes, i honestly dont think they are funny at all.. i just... figure if you see me being that stupid you might laugh, or smile." logan watched him, and immediatly fell in love with him... in a manly... sorta father figure sort of way... he never had that kinda reassurence.. but this man... boy who was right here... he could tell how good he was, an idiot some times, but he liked him, and he could tell his mother still felt so strongly.
he watched him more intently.
" i just... if ive hurt you im sorry, i cant seem to get anything right." raven felt something wierd, and slowly realized her son was well, basicly whispering at his mom to do something, anything. she turned away from her eyes. she knew what came next, she relived it a million times. she opened the door.
" gar.. im.. not supposed to feel, you know that.. so why did you say it?" beast boy, looked up to her weakly.
" cause fighting off something like that for so many years is tiring." she growled.
" and how do you think it is for me?! i cant feel without that happening?!" she yelled as she pointed to a statue witch had begun to crack and melt.
logan felt so bad, if he was there he could help.. he willed something to happen, something good, like in a book or a movie, when your screaming for it to change. perhaps his words didnt go unawsered...
" i cant love! i cant without shit exploding, it puts my friends at ri..." she was silenced immediatly, and the lights in the entire hall blew out, and the room began to fill with the sound of shattering. beast boy had kissed her. it was urgent, needy, hyper, and yet, it was an offer.
an offer for her to feel something, it was him challenging her to outgrow her bonds. it didnt push borders more then it had to, it didnt force her into it, simply asked, like a dancer asking for a waltz. in short, it was everything beast boy was, the kid, the man, and the beast all rolled into one moment that lasted for so long, and seemed so short at the same time. logan mentally cheered at it.
"raven... i know you cant control your emotions. but.. try letting me help, put some of the wieght on me... ive made my shoulders strong to help you, ive steeled them to make sure i could bear some of your weight." raven didnt say anything, his lips were still there, tantalizing her, and hers begging to charge forward.
" i cant gar..." he seemed downcast before growling." then you know what?!" he took her hand." come on lets go!" he said excited and irratated at the same time. her mind screamed at her as she wanted that moment back. he threw open his own door and ushered her in, before closing it behind him. and something she never thought she would see took her eyes, there was absolutely nothing in it, not even a window, she turned and he kissed her again, his lips begging for her to join his
she couldnt believe it. stepping back she watched him, her mind fighting what she was, wanting something, and still she couldnt have it.
" what did you do? why are you doing this?!" random dents found themselfs in the walls as she felt tears come." i did this because then you cant destroy anything. there is nothing to destroy, there is just me and you and this moment, right here right now." he said. she slowly stepped forward, even as the walls looked like cynderblock was punching them. the dents grew larger as she came closer, her eyes seemed to almost sparkle with the tears that found a way out.." damn you." she whispered before kissing him slowly.
-YES! there is a god!- he called out happily. the memory faded and he turned to his mom
- that... was my first real kiss... only beast boy... only garfield... he knew how to get into my shell and pull me out... and as much as it hurt.. as much as it scared me... i wouldnt have it any other way.. that day changed a lot of things. when they asked he said he had a hey day and flipped. .. god i miss him..- this only increased his resolve to find this man, he had to be alive. and maybe if logan found him then... just maybe.. maybe he would have a family like the other kids.. maybe he would have a real father.
logan giggled mentally and shook his head. just as he felt himself return to his body, his mother pulled him back.
-wait, what was that, in your mind?- he pushed his mind agenst hers, almost frightened.
-i dont know. it.. .was scary at first, like i wasnt me... but its ok, i can handle it, if i have my family.- he said, his mind thinking of this... garfield, and his mom. raven didnt pick up on the hint, but smiled softly, if only to herself. she let her son return to his body. even though her own words echoed in her own mind. she prayed it wasnt what she thought it, but she would crush it if she needed to.
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Gero: well some things were revieled i suppose.
Beast boy: im alive?! im alive!
logan: shut up! dont ruin the story for the people out there
Gero: well i never put you as actually alive...
Beast boy: what???!!!
Gero: ...
Raven: you see this is what happens when you allow him to read the chapters as you write them.
Gero: i should really stop doing that.
Logan: mom can we head out for ice cream now?
Raven: promise not to sneak some to beast boy?
Logan: ooohhh... ok..
Beast Boy: why do you hate me god?!
Kaumans: someone call me?
Gero: dude what are you doing here? arent you supposed to be in A.T. or something like that... military thing?
Kaumans: yeah well... im god... so i can go whereever i want...
Gero: yeah yeah...
Kaumans: you checked up on satan recently?
Gero: oh bock? yeah he is fine.. he actually paid me off to make B.B. suffer
Beast boy: what?!
Gero: oh shit... Next on Time, now and forever, another deep dive into ravens mind and figures out a few more things, and the legacy is born!
beast boy: i hate you all...
Logan: heh you sound like rage.
Beast boy: someone shoot me!
