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I'm scared for you

"AhhhahHH!! M-Me-Pl-S!!!" I was doing Near wrong again.

"SHUT UP!!" All those mistake again, and again, and again, and again, and again….


Earlier that day…

"Here take this." I muttered, placing the small bottle on Near's desk, those dark eyes shifted to it, slowly holding it in those frail hands, examining. I was worried about the other day, about Near getting sick, then it hit me, Near could get pregnant. I know it's a slim chance and all, but still I wouldn't ever want to burden Near with something like that, no matter how much I loved the idea us having a baby together. I knew we weren't ready for something like that and you don't want to know how it was for a fifteen year old to get birth control pills.

"No thank you." Near was indifferent (again), placing the bottle back on the desk.

"I didn't ask for your opinion, just take the damn thing!" I snapped at Near, for reasons I could not comprehend.

"If Mello wants to do the things he does to me, he should own up to it." Near spat. WHAT THE HELL!! I was really mad that Near was so freakin' rude, it was like the kid's saying it's all my responsibility (which of course I would have gladly accepted, but there was no need to slam me!). And after all the trouble. It's like Near wants to make life difficult for me! I didn't mind that matter as much, but what I couldn't take is how Near would jeopardize her own body for this. Near, don't you see that I'm just looking out for you? Why can't you just accept my help! Why don't you care for yourself better, and why won't you let me care for you!!

All those thought running through my head, making my blood boil, and then SLAP!! OH GOD!!! CRAP! CRAP!! CRAP!!!

"NEAR!! WAKE UP!!" Oh NO!! WHAT THE HELL DID I DO AGAIN!!!


I didn't know what to do, it's been at least an hour and Near hasn't woken up. OH HELL!! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!!!

"MELLO!!" I heard someone in the hallways. SHIT! Why does these things keep happening!! It's okay, I said to myself, whoever it is, they'd never come in Near's room, no ever comes in (except me). Suddenly, the door opens! "Hey, Mel-"

"Matt!" I yelped.

"Mello? What are you-" I saw his eyes look at the white thing in my arms.


"Hey, Mels, it's okay, just calm down, I'm sure that Near's just fine." Matt patted my head.

I just shook my head, why am I such an idiot? But I'm glad that at least someone else knew about the whole situation, and even more grateful that it was Matt, although I haven't exactly said anything about us being together. For now, Matt just knows that Near's a girl and I made up a story about why he had seen Near fainted in my arms.

We went out of Wammy's, Matt said I needed the fresh air, we took Near too, 'cause I couldn't just leave her alone. We went to Lydia's place, she was a drug dealer, and a whole lot of other stuff (don't ask how I know her). And I had a little 'fresh air'. I don't usually do drugs but I just needed to forget for a moment, just a little while. We talked, just me, Matt and Lydia, getting high. Then I fell asleep.

When I got up, I instantly remembered Near, the drug wasn't all out yet, but I needed to check if Near was alright. I opened the room door, and the first thing I saw was Near on the ground and legs parted as I said before no one should ever when I was wasted.

And on top of that, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU WEARING!! I stared at Near, I know drugs cloud your mind and all, but again, there was no way I was imagining this. Near was wearing a school uniform, a really sexy one!! With white socks up to the thigh and pink underwear! And what's up with the hair, it was tied up at two sides, like only kids do that kind of stuff. Near got up, stepping back, letting me get a better look. It was the most hottest, sexiest and cutest thing I've ever seen. But how the hell… was it Lydia? OH SNAP!! I think I must've muttered something to her when I was high.

HOW? WHY? WHAT THE HELL!! Near, why did you have to be so freakin' gorgeous! And why did I have to be high!! I couldn't take it anymore, I walked up to Near, cupping that beautifully flushed face, leaning for a kiss, but hell, Near turned away. NEAR!!! Why can't you ever give me what I want!!

SLAP!! OH SHIT!! Near fell face down on the floor, picking up the little body in a crouching position. Near why do you keep tempting me? I wished I was wearing a shirt or something, because slipping off the pants didn't take enough time for me to realize that I was making a terrible mistake.

I was already pushing myself inside Near, hearing moans. I pushed Near down, when the kid tried to get up, there was a whimper. OH CRAP!! I was going into sadistic monster mode again, and this time on drugs!

"AhhhahHH!! M-Me-Pl-S!!!" I was doing Near wrong again.

"SHUT UP!!" All those mistake again, and again, and again, and again, and again….

I tried my best pausing the urges awhile. I needed to see that face, maybe I would stop if I did, I turned Near around, while we were still physically intact. I wasn't thinking straight so I didn't think that it would hurt Near if I did that.

"AAAHHHH!!" Near shouted, I'm sure if the others weren't on drugs, they would have rushed in at the sound. Near, I'm so sorry. I couldn't see think anymore, everything was so intoxicating-ly pleasurable about Near. I just wanted to hear that scream again. And I pushed again. (Damn it! What's wrong with me!)

"A-ah!" Oh Near, I'm so sorry, but just give me that scream again. I pushed roughly and hard, stabbing Near in all the wrong angles. Near, please scream for me.

"AAAHHHHH!!!" I was so intoxicated, I didn't stop.

"Mmmn…Sweet Near, I love you so much. Tell me you love me too." Near, please just do this for me. I promise it's the last. I waited, but nothing.

"SAY IT!! SAY YOU LOVE ME!!!" I snarled. I was so angry and drugged up.

Why won't you say it!!

At that point, I really didn't care anymore, I slapped Near and did whatever else to make those lips say the words. I was hurting Near, in ways I didn't want to, I know that little body was crumbling at all this pressure, there was no way it could take the things I was doing to it.

Near, please don't move, it'll only hurt more.

"Near, p-please-" I was starting to tear up, partially because the drugs were running off and I was getting sober, out of maniac mode. "Please- I love you." Near, I know it hurts, but just say it. I need it.

"Liar" My heart stopped "I hate you." Near…I saw those eyes so cold and empty looking up at me. It was real. Near hates me. Near, I'm sorry, I just…the tears started spilling, landing on Near's face.

What the? I felt something strange about Near, dark red staining those white legs. Near! You're bleeding! OH GOD!! WHAT DID I DO!!!! I quickly pulled out.

"NEAR!" I yelled, but those eyes were shut.


I paced the room up and down, over and over, nervously eating up as much chocolate as I could get my hands on. Matt was snoring, the drugs haven't run its course yet.

"Is Near alright?" I asked immediately when Lydia walked out.

"Yes, the kid's going to be fine. Just needs lots of rest for now." Lydia was sort of a doctor (how'd you think she gets the drug), so she knew her stuff well. I was able to take a deep breath. Thank God.

Lydia was looking at me, very strangely, "Next time, don't get a hooker that's already knocked up." She shook her head, "Seriously Mello". Hooker?


"Hey, Mello, who's the kid?" (Takes drugs).

"Huh, oh that, um…a hooker." (Sniffs).

"Really? Sure don't look like it." (Gets High.)

"So go do something about it." (Talks garbage).


So that's why…..wait…WHAT THE HELL!!! What's going on!! I don't get it!! I don't get any of this!!!

Near….


Alright...so here's chapter 4...hope it lives up to expectation...tell me what you think...REVIEWS!!

P.S. To Zizi...my story titles usually don't mean anything specific...I just use the first thing that pops to mind...so no need to cramp your head over it....