My most hated enemy, standing before me…

You who lifted no finger to help, only to banish the weak to cruelty…

I want you to pay for everything you've done…

But persistence is a trait best suited for the lucky…

Your existence justifies my work, your very image a reason to destroy the putrid evil of the world…

And yet, why did she come to your aid?

She is my comrade, not yours…Sending me away like everything else…

I come to understand her heart when separated…

You don't want death, but something else…

I'll give it to you, just don't die now; do not give into your sorrow…

There is a tomorrow waiting…

At least smile when you die…

I'll take you back from him and show you what you truly desire, just please don't leave…

But you come back more innocent than ever…

Like a newborn child, scared of the uncertain fate that lay before you…

Come, I'll take you in…I promise that you will never be scared while by my side…

I stand now, with no threat and all conditions met…

I believe he is gone…

I believe…


…"Whoever wins this war will control the world!"…


Luck always favors the strong…

I'm only as strong as my mind tells me…

Even I'll be helpless and backed into a corner…

The difference is, I have no one to rely on…

No one around me is suitable to be my shoulder…

I'm utterly alone, and with my livelihood being threatened…

Anger fills me…its putrid…

I see only what I've done…

I broke my promise…

I clench your hand, blood running down your finger and onto mine…

The Black King piece bleeds…

You're in pain…I'm in pain as well…

It is a hurt you can fix, mine is not so simple…

But because of this little accident, I begin to remember my bonds…

One last trick up the sleeve…an ace in the hole…

My cage rumbles softly…

Can it be?


…"How dare you show your face to me!"…


I've come with nothing, no back-up plan and with my defenses lowered…

You look at me with such contempt…I'll take it…

We reminisce a while…

But the questions come hard soon after…

I throw away my pride…I feel it…

You torture me…I'll take it…

Why should I tell you the real truth though? Would it matter anymore?

Our wounds bleed, releasing the deep hatred and sorrow…

I plead, you shove me down and commence…I'll take it…

I have no more shame left…but I have hope…

My cage rattles fiercely as your hand opens…

I wouldn't have believed that even after so much, you'd still be there to take my hand…

I feel the door opening, locks being broken…

I reach towards your hand; I want to believe in us, in our power to overcome…

My enemy…my rival…my friend…

But a sharp bullet pierces the scene…it might as well have made contact with my heart…

Soon, I am surrounded…taken by the arms…

What is this? I look at you…My enemy is standing beside you…

Was it all a lie? You were setting me up again, weren't you?

After everything we just went through, you still…

Something snaps, the cage sinks, its last line cut…

Crash!

Silence…Utterly mute…Are you there?

No response…

Something comes up though…something…

Sinister…

I can take torture…I can take punishment…

But betrayal…after so long of not being able to trust anything…of losing nearly everything…

That I simply cannot take…

Damn…damn…damn!

It feels like I'm losing everything slowly…

Why? Why? Why me?

Cruel fate, why must I become your plaything?

Fine, if I can't have friendship, then I'll abandon it all…

Just let me have my way already!


…"You must live on!"…


Such words of utmost compassion…words I will come to regret…

All that I have lived for, gone in a single blow of pink light…

My reason, erased from existence…

No, no, no, no! I don't want to believe it!

Search!…No one listens…

Damnit I said search!

Still no one listens…

I want to search, to make sure she is safe…

But my comrades bring me back to base…

Are you all not loyal to me? I gave you an order, so do it!

She is out there, I know it. She's waiting for me, I can feel it!

Don't you all understand that without her, my resolve is abysmal? She is the only thing I have left…

Why won't you listen to my order?

Empty…Completely drained and hollow…

Please…just let me see her again…

I can't take it…

I feel myself cracking…I snap at my false brother, I tell him why he is so insignificant to me…

In my loneliness, my witch appears, holding band-aids…

It is a wound alright…but too deep and far to reach…

My ace appears, she seems so glad…

I follow her to the hangar…I'm only thankful that she is alive…

Once again, surrounded, guns loaded, the stench of betrayal starting to come to my nose…

I'm trapped once again…

No consideration, no longer trusted, betrayed by comrades in arms…

Even my ace takes their side after being given a lie…

Fate once again screws me over…

Why fight it anymore? Just kill me…The longer I live, the worse my life gets…

I'm starting to get tired of living…

But I'm rescued…by my fake sibling…

Why must you do this? Aren't you mad because of my revelation?

I told you that I hate you, that I would've killed you sooner…

And yet you sacrifice yourself for my existence…Are you trying to torture me? Punish me for my selfishness?

You tell me that I'm a liar, that everything I said to you was a lie…

And you're right, I am just a liar…

Nothing but a liar…


…"Never stop the progress of time!"…


I'll make my existence meaningful…I've forgotten what my true goal was…

But now, as I pass judgment on my most hated enemy and my once beloved family, I realize something…

I will control my own destiny! I will change the world!

The height of my anger peaks, and swiftly drops as I see them disappear from my sight…

It is quiet…us three who understand the world and "God" and the existence of humans…

We are the only ones left who can create that change…

And so we swear to uphold our end of the bargain…I seek only that they follow my order, nothing more…

I no longer have any use for such earthly bonds…

I feel light…so weightless that it feels like I'm floating away into the sky…

There is nothing left inside…all that I have within is now upon my sleeve…

I stand before everything…bending it all to my whim…

All are within my command, and none defy my expectations…


…"Obey my every word!"…


Even after facing against my former comrades…even after betraying everyone…

Even after seeing her alive again…

I cannot stop nor take back anything that I've done…

I, whose purpose is to change the world, will not look back…

I've already faced God and all that I hold dear…

There is nothing that I am not limited to…

Come and fight, justify your purpose for existing…

And I too will give you an answer…

My dearest sibling, I am glad that you can see…

Tell me what do you see when you look at me?

Do you see the real me? Am I a demon like you say? I don't blame you…

I looked at myself in the mirror once before…What I saw was the truth…

I subjugate you eventually to complete my vengeance…

I leave reluctantly, I hear you trying to catch up…

You fall, I stop and glance at your fallen figure…You call me horrible things, but I don't blame you…

You know why? That day that I did look again at the mirror…

All I saw…

Was a demon…

A monster…


…"I destroy worlds, and create them anew"…


I'm empty, hollow inside and physically drained…

I stood atop the world, alone…

And I will fall the farthest, alone…

The world I will destroy is shackled to my limbs…a sin to carry in the afterlife…

I'm lonely up here though, I just wish that someone could be here…

Someone to remember who I was…who I am…and who I will be…

There is no final prayer…no last meal…

Only the knowledge of death…It feels like the death god is breathing down my neck as I sit here…

It is not true, for death is right there, overlooking the parade…

Death is always depicted in black robes, but this one is in purple, and not a scythe but a sword…

No skull, but just an empty face…

He rushes towards me…I count my sins and regrets…

I'm sorry for not being able to give you all a proper goodbye…

I'm sorry to have taken the lives of so many innocent people…

I'm sorry to have put you through this dear friend…

I'm sorry to have to die without granting your true wish my dear witch…

I'm sorry to have to shoulder everything comrades…

And I'm sorry to have to lie to you once more my dear…

May you all have wonderful lives…Live how I could not…

Live…for the sake of peace…for the never-ending tomorrow…

Live…

The End

Okay, I think I may have to stop here. I've been thinking, ever since I started this fic, I've been seeing that hardly any response has shown up for all of my fics including this one. Maybe it is summer time and no one is reading, or maybe it is because I've exhausted any sort of feeling of remorse left from you the readers. So now, I think that I may have to declare that I will no longer be posting anything new for Code Geass. That is to say that I won't post any new material that result in the creation of a new story. I will try to finish my other incomplete fics hopefully by the end of summer (I hope, since I have two that really need to be done before I retire from writing for CG). Thanks for your time and depending on the circumstances, I may just have to once again begin to remove the stockpile of stories I've created for the site. If there are any questions, feel free to R&R and comment on any of the material I currently have posted. See you again.