Arriving home was agonisingly slow as I debated texting or calling Alex to understand what had happened. She left me. We had sex and she left. Normally I was the one who left and left her heartbroken but at least now I knew how she felt. Maybe that's why she did it, to make me hurt and confused like I did to her. If so then she's petty. That's why we worked so well together as we were both petty and stubborn yet right now my heart hurt as well as my pride so in my mind she was acting like a child. Once I entered the apartment and threw my things on the floor I realised how angry I had gotten about being abandoned. I needed to rant to someone. Who would I even discuss Alex with? No one knew she existed, she was the invisible woman to all but Polly. Polly. Shit, I have to tell Polly.

"Piper"

"Shit Larry, when did you get here"

He was standing in front of, freshly washed and dressed ready for a day of chasing a job he is yet to get. At least he got dressed now instead of staying in his pyjamas all day.

"I've been calling your name for a while, you were so deep in thought. Want to share with the class?"

"Sorry, I just remembered that I told Polly I'd be at her place early this morning"

"You should probably show and get changed then, pregnancy has not calmed her"

He ended his joke with a laugh and leaned to kiss my lips. Not wanting for Alex's lips to be replaced I dodged his kiss to be placed on my kiss and muttered about morning breath before running to the bathroom. Taking one last look at the text from Alex, I quickly typed a reply and stepped into the shower to get ready for the day

'Meet me tonight? Same place at 7 – P'


Polly's always smelled good now that we were taking the business seriously, with the blend of scents I felt calmed which was lucky considering the information I was about to share.

"She finally blesses us with her presence"

"I saw Alex"

"Wait what? When"

"Last night"

I didn't mean to blurt it out but all that was on my mind was her so it was my first response to anything Polly could have said. I think she could have told me that someone had died and my response would have stayed the same. Alex had once again consumed my thoughts.

"What happened? Please don't tell me you talked to her"

"That's why I saw her. I met up with her to talk to her"

"Piper what the fuck?"

Suddenly I realised how messed up this situation was. I had sought out my ex-girlfriend, met up with her, kissed her, took her to a hotel, slept with her and then got pissed when she ditched me like a one-night stand. I really knew how to create problems for myself.

"It's complicated. We met up and chatted, it was good, like really good and then we left but it was too late to go home so we stayed in a hotel room but she abandoned me this morning"

"Wait, you two spent the night in a hotel room together?"

I knew she was thinking, even my edited version of events portrayed what had happened and how much it was affecting me. As much as I tried to come with a response my mind was blank which left me stuttering with my mouth opening and closing like a fish. I couldn't deny what Polly was thinking but I also couldn't admit it. By not giving her an answer, I had told her everything she needed to know.

"What about Larry? Oh my God, you cheated on Larry for supercunt. What were you thinking"

"I wasn't thinking, was I? I just missed her and seeing her and being with her, it felt natural"

"Of course, it felt natural to cheat on your loving boyfriend Piper"

"Can you be easier with the sarcasm? I know I messed up"

"Well at least she ditched you so you won't be seeing each other again"

"Actually – "

I explained to Polly that I had text Alex wanting to meet up again tonight but I had gotten no response from her. In Polly's mind that meant that I shouldn't go and to leave this int eh past where it belonged. Alex clearly wanted to move on, I needed to move on as well. So why was I still going tonight in the hopes that she may turn up.


I told Larry that I had gone to see Cal and his new living arrangements, it took me nearly an hour to convince Larry that he didn't need to come. Somewhere in the debate I was vaguely aware of implying that Cal didn't like him so I knew that at some point I would have to backtrack over that lie. I don't know why I lied but I just wanted to get out and get here early just in case she showed up and tried to leave before I arrived but no luck. The bar was slightly more packed than last night as it was karaoke Wednesday and apparently that pulled in a larger crowd. Grabbing a stool at the bar that had a visual of the door, I ordered a red wine and stared at the entrance.

Four people that were tall with long black hair had came into the bar yet none were the one I wanted. It had been over an hour so I decided to finish my third glass of wine and call it a night, that was until I turned and walked right into the person I had been waiting for.

"Wow, so being stood up for nearly two hours is when you decide to give up"

I stared silently up at her not wanting to say anything to scare her off.

"What are you doing here Piper? I didn't text you back"

"Well you still showed up…"

"What do you want Piper"

"Why did you leave?"

She realised that other people could hear us due to being so close to the bar which encouraged her to grab my arm and lead me to a vacant spot that wasn't far from where we were sitting less than twenty-four hours ago.

"I had to"

"Why?"

"I just couldn't be near you, what was last night Piper? Like why did we think it was a good idea to meet and chat like old friends?"

"Because we were friends"

"for fucks sake Piper, we were never friends. I loved you"

"I'm sorry"

"Well guess what kid? Sometimes sorry just isn't enough"

"Do you mean that apology or the one last night"

"You're smart figure it out. You did always love to tell me what I was thinking"

With that final remark and a cynical laugh, she turned to leave me once again. I couldn't let her leave me again so I reached up to grab her shoulder and forcefully turned her around so that I could look at her face once more. I needed to make this right. The guilt from Paris heavily outweighed the guilt I felt for cheating and it didn't make sense. Every part of my brain was telling me to make it up to her, to make her forgive me so I could forgive myself.

"Then what can I do?"

"Fuck if I know Piper."

"Take me to her grave so I can apologise to Diane"

I blurted that out before I could even process that I had thought it, why would apologising to a tombstone make her forgive me? Somewhere in my brain I thought that if Alex wouldn't accept my apology then her mother would, its not like she can't accept it either. I could tell my idea had not only surprised me but Alex as well, the shock on her face was obvious to anyone that might glance this way. The silence that over took us lasted a while but I didn't know how to respond to my own idea, neither did she.

"Ok then, Saturday. I'll text you"

With that she turned and left leaving her face void of emotion, this time I let her go.


Saturday came quickly, telling Larry a quick goodbye I left to meet Alex on the corner behind my building. He thought I was going to spend the weekend at my parents which he was only happy not to be invited to. I was unsure how long it was going to take to get Alex's forgiveness so I wanted my weekend clear.

She was stood next to a blue car that I assumed to be hers. She was dressed in all black with her glasses perched on her head looking bored and it that moment I remembered how effortlessly beautiful she was.

"I have your jacket"

Her lips slowly turned upwards to form a crooked smile as she opened the passenger door for me.

"I thought you might have gotten cold on your way home"

"Nice to know you care"

It was meant as a light-hearted comment but the way it hung in the air turned it into something much more. Especially when you paired it with her response.

"I always will kid… The trip is going to take just over an hour and a half. Hope you're ok with that"

Its not like I could say no as she had already started to pull away. We would be spending at least three hours together, isolated in her car. The idea of that terrified me but I was strangely excited to this journey.


This week has been pretty dead for me socially so I'm really enjoying being able to update this daily.