Chapter Four: Wake Up From Your Lucid Dream


(A/N: Chapter five has been written and it's awesome! Please review and let me know what you want to happen because I can make changes to the next chapter and it might affect chapter 6. Thanks again for all of the hits to this story. –NL)


Leah's POV

"Okay now place your hands on her stomach." The Lamaze coach instructed. Winnie was her name. She smiled at us with her too white teeth and her brown-red hair and I knew that that was the type of girl I'd never be. Happy.

I looked over at Jacob who, unlike every other dad in the room, didn't have both hands around the stomach. One hand was on my stomach and the other was wrapped around Reneesme. I couldn't get why she wouldn't even let us take a Lamaze class together.

What were we going to do … sneak around in the bathroom?

I rolled my eyes and tried to concentrate. Having him here was better than bringing Seth or Rachel along, or worse … going alone. My mother still hadn't forgiven me for how I 'behaved' at the engagement party.

So, we can all say that I get my stubborn, hard ass attitude from Sue Clearwater.

"Will you pay attention?" I nagged once I saw him whisper something to Reneesme and kiss her, in front of everyone. I was so embarrassed. I was the only one here without someone else who loved them in the room.

And it looked so bad. I could feel my morale starting to drop and tears were to come soon, I knew it.

My crazy hormones were turning me into a regular girl and it sucked.

I focused instead on breathing, ignoring them making googly eyes at one another until I couldn't take it anymore and made some lame excuse about having to use the bathroom. Jacob, to my surprise, dropped his hand from her shoulder and helped me to stand.

He then walked me to the bathroom, placing his hand on the small of my back. I had something very important in my hands, my getaway, but it didn't seem so important anymore. I didn't want to escape, at least not from Jacob.

I could feel her eyes bore into my back, watching us as Jacob dropped his hand to hold the door open for me.

I wasn't expecting Jacob to do this or even to speak to me.

"Are you okay?"

"Don't I look okay?" I shot back. Okay, being defensive wasn't going to get me anywhere, but what other choice did I have? I couldn't explain half of what I was feeling to Jacob because I had to right to feel anything. I was being so stupid about this entire thing and I really needed to just grow up. The grown up thing to do would be do turn my emotions off completely. I couldn't … love Jacob. Not like this. "I can't really talk to you right now."

"She doesn't have x-ray hearing if that's what you're worried about. Nessie's more human than you think."

"Oh believe me, I can tell…" My voice trailed off as Jacob studied my face. I couldn't tell him right now. I was way too emotional. Things were way too crazy. "If you promise to go with me, I'll tell you most of what you want to know."

"Not all?"

"I don't even understand it all."


Leah's POV

If there was a perfect, stealing the half breed's car and running off with Jacob would've been it. It wasn't just sticking it to her that was fun, it was the fact that Jacob thought it was funny too and went along with it.

"You've got a lot of explaining to do Lucy." I did my best imitation of Ricky Ricardo, fully enjoying the ice cream cone in my hands a little too much. Cookies and cream tasted like Heaven. I had a little piece of Heaven in my mouth and was swinging back and forth on a swing set like a little kid.

"Are you going to eat that thing or swallow it whole?" Jacob asked, ignoring me while I responded by slowing down the swing and smearing some of the ice cream on his face. "Mature."

"You know you love it." I teased back, helping him clean off the parts that he'd missed once he had licked some of the cream off of his face. "Come here." I handed him my ice cream cone and was using both hands now, my thumbs at the corners of his mouth.

It had been so long since we'd touched, too long, or maybe it just felt that way. My eyes latched onto his, daring him to try and run this time. He pulled me down to his lap.

"You're trouble."

"Nothing but." I agreed giving him a quick peck on the lips. When he didn't pull away, I smiled because you see … I still have him, at least a part of him that she doesn't.


Jacob's POV

I enjoyed kissing Leah more than I should have. I should've pushed her away, or at the very least turned away, but I couldn't deny her or myself. Our lips met as electricity flowed through my body. Leah was on my lap in no time. If we hadn't been at a public park, I didn't know how far it would go. We just kissed but I didn't let her go for a long time. My regular life looked so dull compared to this moment.

I felt something cold and wet soak into my pants and looked down for a moment. The ice cream.

"Smooth." Leah commented, standing up and playing with my hair. "Let's get back before wifey flips the hell out." I did notice that she hadn't called, but I didn't remember picking up my phone before leaving so it was probably at that Lamaze class still.

"Wait." I reached for her hand standing up. "I'm not done with you yet." I smiled, unable to act like we were strictly friends. We weren't. We were too connected for this circumstance, for the fact that I was about to marry someone who was so utterly different from Leah.

I took her to get something to eat, and when she thought it was over I brought her back to her house.

"Put your feet up." I demanded, helping her to sit on the couch and giving her face one last caress before going to set-up a bath for her. I didn't know what was coming over me, but I had left Leah in the dark through half of this process.

I had to make it up to her and brought her to the bathroom.

"You decorated?" She teased, noticing the candles and rose petals. "If you wanted sex, all you had to do was ask. Pregnant women want it all the time you know."

"I knew you would read too much into it."

"What am I supposed to think?" Leah started to give me that look again, the one where she could see right through me. I shifted my eyes down before I fell into that trap again before responding.

"You've been doing this thing by yourself for too long. I'm there for you." Leah gave me a quick hug with a genuine smile. That was rare. Whenever she smiled there was always something else lurking, like a mischievous plot, a deep seeded anger covered by her desire for revenge, but this was just joy.

"Now turn around so I can get in."

"And miss out on seeing you naked? Never." I joked. Truthfully, I was too scared that she might slip and fall and get hurt. Or hurt the baby. I slid her flowy maternity shirt off as Leah started on the pants, using me for balance. "May I…" I asked, reaching for her as I rested my chin on her shoulder, placing either hands around our baby.

I could let my guard down a little now that it was just us.

"Can you believe we did this?" I asked in amazement.

"It's perfect." Leah kissed me suddenly before I unhooked the back of her bra, slid off the rest of her clothing and placed her into the bath. She giggled, blue and white bubbles surrounding her.

It was pretty perfect until Leah got dressed and let that mouth of hers start.

"It could always be like this you know." She offered.

"What are you saying?"

"Why are you marry Reneesme when it's so good between us? That's not what I mean … I'm not asking you to pick a relationship with me over marrying her. I'm saying that Jake … look at me. Sometimes love isn't enough."

"She's been imprinted on. How can you say that? Don't you feel like you're betraying Sam?"

"No. Ever since I found out that I'm going to be a mom, that's all that I can think about. It's the greatest love ever and I haven't even had the baby yet." Leah closed her eyes for a moment. "Listen to me when I say this, if you're even feeling an inkling of anything for me, or anyone else, then it's not fair to make her feel otherwise. I know what it feels like to think that someone else loves you as much as you love them, but they don't."

"This is going to stop." I promised. "The kissing, hand holding, the caressing … everything." But I didn't want it to.

"When?"

"By the time we get married."

"Do you think you can string me along all that time? A year of sneaking around in and out of your sheets? I have needs to Jake and they don't involve creeping around with you because we're both missing something from our lives. I wasn't going to do this but here." Leah reached into her jean pocket and pulled out a phone. My phone. I thought I'd left it at the Lamaze place. "She's been calling you all day like a maniac. Thirty messages."

I snatched the phone eagerly.

"You can blame me. Tell her I kidnapped you. I'm the bad guy so it'll be easy to believe. You play the victim. Again." Leah patted me on the arm, signaling that it was time for me to go. "Jake … I'm not sorry that any of this happened. I think it's sorry that you won't admit it."

"It?"

"That you love me … and not a she's-a-good-lay 'love' … there's something else stirring around in there and I feel it too, but I won't mess up things with wifey. I'll be as good as I can." Leah promised as I nodded, now absorbed in the numerous text messages from Nessie and how I was going to fix it.

True, Leah was going to be the mother of my baby but Nessie was going to be my wife, my future. No contest who I would pick every time. After all, Leah Clearwater was just the mother of my child. Nothing more.


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