Chapter 4

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Aria's POV

I stepped out of the shower for the third time today, however this time it was different. For the first time in years, I was truly being myself. I have been hiding since Ezra dated Jackie due the idea of being embarrassed over how everything happened, no one apart from Ali knew we kissed but still managed to let it loom over me occasionally when it suited her.

I began getting ready almost as soon as I could, I couldn't wait to be with Ezra.. He was my mines and I most surely was his, now and always.

After drying my hair and gently curling my hair, I picked out my favourite dress and began my makeup. I heard the front door slam loudly, the way it does when Mike closes it, followed by his gruff foot steps on the stairs, he legs were always tired after football.

He stood in my door like he always did "Why are you getting so dressed up? Hot date with Noel?" "I broke up with Noel" I said avoiding eye contact while applying mascara "Really? He seemed fine at practice" "It's cause we were never in love, it was a relationship of convenience.. We both only wanted one thing -" "Love you and all Aria but trust me when I say, I am not interested in who you are doing and for what reason you are doing them. But if you aren't seeing Noel, where are you going?" "Going to see Ezra.. I need to talk to him" "Aria, about that" "What?" I finally put down my make up to face my little brother "Go on Mike" "Ezra's gone. He left this afternoon and he gave me this note for you" "Did he say where he was going?" "He was very vague in details… He just told me that it was an emergency and he had to leave" "Aw right" I took the letter off Mike, trying to avoid his gaze and stopping my body from completely shutting down, that could wait. For now, I had to see what his letter said, Mike eyed me up carefully "You okay sis?" "I'm good" I said while letting out the breathe, I didn't know Is was holding "It just seems like you got ten times stiffer than you were 2 minutes ago, are you okay?" "I'm fine Mike, gimme the letter and get out" "Aria" "Out" I repeated in a firm voice and he quietly turned retreating towards the door "If it helps, I can listen, I might be your brother but you matter to me Aria" I sighed loudly and looked at him "Thanks Mike.. It'll be okay.. Eventually" "Okay" With that he was gone and my door was closed.

I harshly ripped open the paper cover his words to me, if he had the balls to tell me face to face he was going, he would have been in for the hardest slap possible.

Aria, I've got to get away, away from all of my mistakes. I want to run away and ditch this life cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night. I have no idea where my head is at but if my heart says I'm sorry, can we just leave it at that? I so hate these consequences, running from you what was my best defense was cause I know I let you down and I don't want to deal with that.

I'm good to go, I love you and my heart is sorry for everything.

I did not mean to hurt you, I could never hurt you intentionally.

- Ezra

He didn't mean to hurt me? LEAVING HURT ME WORST OF ALL! Ahhhh! I felt myself collapse to my bed and for the first time in years, I cried over Ezra Fitz.

I walked over to my iPod dock and gently hit shuffle. Of course my music decides to play against me and on comes Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie. (I love this song a wee bit too much, so sorry for another song reference)

I sat in my room for hours straight, not moving, just thinking.. How could I possibly hate him for being honest to me.

I finally got up and grabbed my phone out of my bag. I dialed a number known to well to my fingers.

The phone rang and rang. No answer.

Hey this is Ezra, I can't come to the phone at the minute but you can. Leave a message after the *beep*

Ezra, it's Aria. I know you are gone but it's okay, you need to sort something out but please come back to me once they are sorted out. It's twelve and I need your attention. I've got forever to wait for you Ezra Fitz. You stole my eyes and I've never looked back. I've had the chance to tell you so many times but I am so terribly in love with you Ezra and I have been since God knows but we'll stop the clock together when the time is right but for now, go sort whatever you need to sort out. I'll be here when you get back and in case I wasn't clear, I am your. Now and always. I love you Ezra. I will always love you to the extent of it being painful.

*Beep* End of message, to re-record the message, dial #. Otherwise please hang up now.

In the silence and darkness of my room, I finally fell asleep.

Ezra's POV

I've been driving for nearly 9 hours now, I've heard my phone buzz a couple of times but ignoring it seemed like the right thing to do. I had to completely clear my head from life and everything in it.

I drove past a McDonald's making my stomach growl loudly at me, I hadn't even noticed that I was that hungry.. Probably because my mind was so wrapped up in all my mistakes. I had to get away, away from everything so when I came back.. I could be good enough for Aria. She was the one thing I needed to life for and I would not disappoint her again.

After getting my food, I was back on the road again. I drove through the dark streets and closed shops. I was truly alone at this point in time, so I could finally let in the thought I had been avoiding for years. I made a mistake, one that ruined me and Aria's relationship. How in hell could I come back from that and make everything okay again?

I knew I would be a my destination soon, so I began to drop in speed. Where I was going was an act of desperation, simple desperation that I had come to due to the fact that I screwed everything.

I pulled into the closest parking spot and grabbed my bag. I walked up to floor 4, room 12. I knocked gently and the door eventually opened.

"Well hello Z!"

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