Thank you for the comments =D... I really have no idea where I am going with this, so I can't answer any questions really... I just sit here and let my fingers do the talking, and these chapters are what comes out. It's loosely (very) based on my life... some aspects of it. At the moment I'm trying to get the strength of their friendship across... I suppose in my eyes, friendships are the most complex relationships... and when one of them falls for the other, well it just adds to the complexity.
A few more chapters until we get to that though I imagine... keep reading though please =D inspires me to write more.
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Chapter four
"He's coming over" Emily says quietly, raising her eyebrows to Darren, the boy apparently approaching me right now. I feel my stomach tighten a little and I suddenly become nervous. "Calm" Emily says quickly, I turn and smile at him.
I noticed him almost immediately in my Politics class. Tall, ahletic, blond hair, blue eyes, chiselled jaw line. I mean, come on, who wouldn't notice him?
"Hey Emily..." She smiles politely toward him, "Naomi" His smile grows as he looks at me.
"Hi Darren" I say, instantly blushing, and then feeling like a complete tit for letting my emotions paint my body, making my nervousness apparent to anybody willing to look. I hear Emily chuckle slightly.
Darren stands tall, his hand rubs the back of his neck, his head leans to the side slightly, showing his perfect teeth. "I was just wondering if maybe... I could... I mean, only if you want to... take you out sometime" His babbling makes me feel a hell of a lot better immediately,
"Sure" His posture changes, relaxes almost.
"Great, great" he smiles, "Can I get your number?" I grab my phone out of my pocket. I must be one of the only people in the entire world who cannot remember their own number. Although why would you, it's not as if you ring yourself constantly, and I'm hardly going to sit there and try to memorize it, that's just a little pathetic. I pass him my phone, and he takes my number down in his phone, also adding his into mine. "I'll give you a call" He smiles, "Catch you later" he waves nervously to the both of us as he walks back to his group of friends. I turn back around to Emily and try my very hardest to suppress the squeal that I fear is about to come out.
"I must say... that boy has a nice arse" Emily says, and I slap her for being so crude, she laughs, holding her hands up, "What?"
"You're gay" I state,
"Doesn't mean I can't appreciate a nice piece of arse when I see one" She says, winking at me after that, I want to hit her again, but I decide against it. "So you like him?" She asks, leaning forward onto the table, resting on her elbows and holding her head up with her hands, providing me all her attention,
"I guess so, I mean, what's not to like, he's smart, funny, cute and fucking gorgeous" I say, and she giggles,
"Good... Just so long as he's not an arse, I don't take too kindly to my Naomi being fucked around"
"I know, I know, you are now Saint Emily for saving me from Cook last month. Need I have to say thank you anymore. If I do I'll wear out the fucking word"
"No, it's ok. I understand that I am extremely high on the moral cards when it comes to me and you"
"I would have killed you if you let me do anything with him" I point at her,
"I didn't did I? So drop it" She says, smiling.
"Ok, ok" My phone vibrates in my pocket and I answer it eagerly, How about tonight x "Oh my god" I say, smiling,
"He hasn't text you has he?" Emily asks, not needing an answer by the look on my face, "Desperate much" I kick her under the table,
"Not everybody has to live by your rules"
"What rules?"
"If you get somebody's number you don't text them for at least 24 hours, or you appear desperate"
"Yes, and quite rightly so, he appears desperate" She says, emphasis hanging on the last word.
"Shhh" Sounds good. What do you have in mind? X
"What did you text back?"
"Nothing to do with you" I say, scrunching my nose up at her childishly, "We're not doing anything tonight are we?" I ask, suddenly feeling a hint of guilt,
"Well, we were supposed to be having a movie night" She must see me say 'shit' to myself, knowing I've double-booked, "But I suppose we can do that tomorrow night" She says, rolling her eyes, "Just don't make a habit of it"
"Wouldn't dream of it"
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"So, how did it go?" Emily asks me as I ring her after just getting in,
"Oh, my god, Ems... it was the best" I squeal, "He was such a gentleman, opening doors for me, insisting he paid for everything, although I was stubborn and didn't let him. We went to the cinema, saw Adventureland... great film by the way... anyway, I know that cinema's aren't really a great place to go on a first date cause you don't talk, but we went for a walk after, getting a late night ice-cream from tesco, oh god, it was magical"
"Jesus take a breath" She says, not in a mean way,
"Sorry, just excited" My phone beeps, "Hang on" I check it, and I get a text from him, "He's text me" I had a great night, want to do it again tomorrow? Xx "He wants to go out tomorrow" I almost squeal again,
"Movie night, remember?"
"Shit"
"It's ok... go out with him if you want" her tone implies that she's immensely pissed off,
"No, no... it's ok... We'll do movie night"
"I don't mind, really"
"Yes you do" I say softly,
"Ok, maybe a little, but honestly, we've got plenty of time that we spend together, I can tell you really like him, so maybe you should spend tomorrow with him"
"No. Stop being stubborn, I'm spending it with you, ok?"
"Ok, fine" I can tell she's smiling. "I better go, Katie's getting ready to decapitate me with her pillow, I'll see you at college"
"Ok, night" We both hang up, and after I text Darren back, I go to bed on a high.
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Two nights later...
"Naomi... Naomi, Emily's here" My mum shouts, but I'm a little too busy to notice her.
"Oh, my" Emily walks in, her voice echoing through the room, that's when I finally drag my lips away from his perfect set.
"Sorry, I thought you were gonna be here after 7" I say, wiping my now swollen lips.
"It's half past 7" Emily says, not impressed at all. I glance at my watch,
"Shit, sorry. Lost track of the time" Darren's phone rings, breaking the awkward silence which had just filled the room.
"Alright mate... Shit, what, now? Fuck... I'll be right there..." He puts his phone down, hurriedly standing up, "I'm sorry babes, but I gotta go, Mikey is in a spot of bother... I'll ring you" He bends down, kissing me quickly,
"Ok, give us a ring later" I say, watching as he walks out, saying a quick bye to Emily. "Aren't you going to sit down" It's been a good two minutes since he left, and Emily's been stood there, arms crossed and attitude written all over her face. "What's wrong?" I ask, and I see the anger rush across her face,
"What's wrong? You're shitting me right?" I blink heavily, "It's been two days... two fucking days and I'm already getting ditched for pretty boy"
"You're not getting ditched" I say quickly,
"Naomi, we had plans tonight, the two of us... and I get here and find you and him sucking face... not to mention the movie night we had planned last night which I got a text saying you couldn't do it... Darren had popped round"
"He came by unexpectedly"
"And you expect me to sit here all night as you two sit and make out?"
"It wouldn't be like that" I try to keep my cool, "You're being really unreasonable"
"Maybe a little yeah, but better I do it now and make you see. Did you even get any of my texts at all today...?"
"Yeah"
"Too busy to reply?" Hurt laces her voice as it delves an octave higher,
"Emily..."
"No... Don't Emily me... I'm actually starting to understand why you don't have many friends, if this is the way you treat them"
"What the fuck Emily? You sound like a jealous girlfriend... I'm not treating you any different to when I did a week ago" I stand up now, losing my temper,
"I beg to differ"
"What? I'm doing exactly what you told me to do, put myself out there, try and find somebody and I have and look at how you're fucking responding"
"What? What's wrong with what I'm saying... It's been two fucking days Naomi... two!" She shouts, "I could understand if I started getting ditched after the first month, maybe two months, but two fucking days"
"What the fuck is wrong with two days... I really like him Emily, I thought you'd be happy"
"I am happy for you Naomi, I am... I just didn't think that your happiness would cost our friendship"
"We're still friends" I say quietly,
"I don't know anymore... if you're willing to put a guy you've barely known before your best friend... I just don't know where your loyalties lie"
"For fuck sake Emily... It's been two days and maybe because I haven't called you, maybe because I haven't text you back, and maybe because I've been so fucking happy... don't I deserve a little breathing space? You sound like you're in love with me" The anger vanishes, the atmosphere completely changes and all that can be heard is Emily's laughter filling the air... bitter laughter
"Don't be so fucking stupid, just because I'm gay doesn't mean I'll fall for anything Naomi... don't flatter yourself"
"You know what... fuck you" I say, storming through the house, storming out the back door, making sure to slam the door to add emphasis.
I don't know where the hell I'm walking, but I need to get out of that house. I need to get away from her.
Who the fuck does she think she is? Talking to me like that.
I know that I've been a little distant the last two days, but Christ its only two days. This pathetic argument is over 48 hours... "Fuck!" I say, I didn't bring any fags... and I could really use one right now.
I carry on walking down this narrow passageway, curious as to where it goes, my mind asking a thousand questions, my heart racing with adrenaline, my fist clenching, and then releasing. I'm seething
I see an opening ahead of me. I begin to hear the splashing of what I can only presume is a river or a stream. I get closer, the whole area opening up, the sun shining down. Suddenly I have an overwhelming feeling of peace, tranquillity, I feel the anger inside me dissipate, I feel my fingers no longer tense, my heart rate slows as I watch the simplicity of nature, nature at its best and most beautiful...
All this time I've lived behind this house, and never once found this place. A large white boulder sits beside the stream, I claim that rock, my thinking place. If I had a black marker pen, 'Naomi' would most certainly be written on it.
I don't know how long I'm sat there, how long I'm sat on the boulder, my head resting on my knees, all thoughts running through my mind.
I figure things out though, I realise exactly why Emily is being the way she is, and I instantly feel guilty at what I said to her... I remember her telling me about her friend in school... the friend she came out to, the friend who ignored her, was a bitch to her and thought that simply because Emily is gay... she was in love with her...
It's now I realise I am no better than her. I realise I only said what I did out of anger, but it would have hurt her nonetheless. I spring to my feet, making my way back to my house, hoping Emily is still there.
If there is a God, she is certainly looking down on me right now...As I approach the fence to my backyard, I see Emily sat on the bench in the garden, "Hey" I say softly, opening the gate, "I'm so sorry"
"No, I'm sorry" I sit down beside her,
"I didn't mean what I said, and I'm sorry if I made you feel that way... but you have to understand something... I'm not her" She frowns at me, "Your friend in school"
"Hannah" Emily says quietly,
"I'm not Hannah..."
"I know... she just really fucked me up... she broke my heart... worse than any girlfriend could"
"I know she did..." I wrap my arm around her shoulder, pulling her closer to me, "There's no worse pain than when your best friend betrays you..." I sigh, "I'm sorry that I've been pulling towards Darren... he just makes me feel happy, you know. I know I sound juvenile, and it's only been two days, but he just makes me feel better about myself, makes me feel wanted, and I'm sorry I neglected you, I really didn't know I was doing it... don't worry, it won't happen again" she laughs lightly,
"What are we like, eh?" She says, wiping away the small tears she let out,
"Best friends" She lifts her head up, seeing me smiling wide, she joins me, "We're twats together" We both fall into fits of giggles.
"Let's not fight again, ok?"
"Fight fight, or bicker?"
"Fight fight" She says, smiling, "I love our little banters"
"Ok, deal"
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