Kiki's POV

OK, that was seriously weird. On the train ride from Hogwarts, it was like I didn't have any secrets. Whenever someone asked me a question I would answer truthfully no matter how awkward. Now I feel like I have the biggest hangover ever. Since last night passed in a haze, I decide to call Lily to make sure I didn't do anything inappropriate around Sirius.

"Hello?" Lily spoke into the phone in a voice that insinuated she had been crying.

"Lily? Are you alright? You sound like you need a hug." I said.

"I'm fine, really. I just have a few problems that need taking care of." I wasn't convinced.

"Lily, is James there, or are you all alone?" I said, I was very concerned about these problems.

"Well, no. He went to talk to a man about a job," Lily admitted, "But I'm just fine, Ki."

"No, you are definitely NOT ok. I'll be over in ten minutes. Just don't kill yourself!"

She chuckled, "Well, alright then, if you say so," she said.

As I walked through the early morning sun, I thought about Sirius. I have a faint memory of us talking on a couch. I remember asking him something about Remus Lupin, a guy we went to school with. He would disappear every now and then, nobody knew why. Since Sirius was one of his best friends, I asked him if he knew why. He told me he did, but it was a really big secret that he wasn't allowed to tell anyone. I backed off after that.

I knocked on Lily's door and in moments it opened to show Lily in her old PJs. Red eyes, a sad frown, and un-brushed hair showed that whatever she was sad about, it was taking over her mind. Lily very rarely doesn't brush her hair when she gets up. As I entered, she looked like she was about to cry again. I gave her a hug and led her into the living room. Once she was sitting comfortably, I went and made some tea for her and some coco for me.

"Lily, I've never seen you this upset! You look like you are about ready to faint!" I fretted.

"I'm fine, really. I just need a little time to think." Lily said, but her eyes showed that she was devastated.

Lily's eyes either shine as bright as the sun when she is in a good mood, turn dark and stormy when she is agitated, or look lifeless when she is sad. For some reason, James can't really decipher this. The only reason I can is because after my parents died, I learned to look people in the eyes for two reasons: one- so no one would ever think I was weak. (My eyes apparently turn from a lame green color to a glare of pure defiance when I am seriously PO'd) and two- because my mother always said I can see a person's heart through their eyes.

"Lily, you know I'm not buying it. Tell me what happened. Did you and James get into an argument?"

"Oh no, nothing like that! James couldn't be sweeter to me! It's just that….." Lily trailed off as if she was nervous to tell the truth.

"Spit it out! C'mon Lil. I'm your best friend, you can tell me." I persuaded.

"Well, have I ever told you about Severus?" she asked.

"Sev-whata?" I asked, completely bemused.

"He was my first wizard friend. He was like a brother to me until he ditched school in our 5th year." Lily said.

"Oh, cool. So what about him?" I asked, still a little confused.

"He kinda joined the death eaters." Lily said sadly.

"Oooohhhh. So, umm, what happened?" I asked.

"Before James and I were dating, James thought he was the coolest thing since iced pumpkin juice. He teased everybody who crossed his path, especially Severus. I don't know why they hate each other so much, they just do. Well anyway, Severus called me yesterday and we talked for, like, two minutes before I started yelling at him for joining the death eaters and still having the gall to tell me James is still a jerk. He hung up after trying to guilt trip me. I guess it just broke something inside me, to hear my once best friend like that." She said. Her voice was starting to become hysterical, so I quickly replied so she wouldn't work herself into a fit.

"Lily, calm down. We all have had friends who turned out bad. But we all live on. You just need to accept that this is not your fault. From what you've told me, it sounds like you were in the right and he was just denying the truth. Don't worry about it. Everything is gonna be fine. If you need to cry, I'm the only one here, so just cry until you can't anymore because then you will be able to move on." I said calmly. She was acting like she was the victim of a horrible break-up. Guess why I know that. It's the same exact thing I was doing the night after graduation.

Suddenly, she burst into tears and leaned in and cried on my shoulders. I knew this was all she wanted, because after my parents died, all I wanted was a shoulder to cry on. She cried for about twenty minutes, all the while sobbing insults at this Severus guy and asking why he was so angry and cold toward her and James. I just sat with her and tried to soothe her. When she finally ran out of tears, my shirt was soaked and her eyes were red and puffy. I calmly pulled out my wand and dried us both off, refilled our cups, and produced a box of tissues. She took one and started mopping up her eyes.

"How do you feel?" I asked.

"Better. Why is that so effective?" she asked in a thick voice.

"I don't really know. It's almost as if tears drain you of all your sadness. I cried constantly after my parents died." I replied.

"Oh, well thanks Kiki. I probably would have broken down in front of James if you hadn't called."

"Well we can't have that! Now, are you all cried out? You sure? Good." I smiled.

"Ki, what did you call me for? Is there something you need?" she asked suddenly.

I was startled about the abrupt change of subject, "Yeah, actually. I seem to be unable to recall what happened on the train ride, so I really wanted to ask you if I did anything embarrassing." I said.

"Oh, no, nothing happened. Well unless you count the fact that you and Sirius really hit it off. You talked for hours!" she exclaimed.

"Really? I remember talking to him, but the details are foggy. Does he really like me?" I asked excitedly.

"Yes. You talked about everything! Quidditch, America, Politics…"

We talked for about two hours. When I left, I was feeling much better about the train ride than I was this morning. I started marveling on the fact that Sirius and I might actually be perfect for each other. I started daydreaming, but a second later, I was jolted back to reality when Sirius rounded the corner.