I own no part of Twilight. That's the great SM. And I'm so sorry for the delay in this story. I had so much go on in my life...and now that things are beginning to normalize again, I hope to write more and more often. I'm sorry if this chapter seems off. I tried my best. I'm out of practice. Please, please, please tell me what you think. It's important to know that I'm not disappointing you! I tried a little APOV in this chapter. I warn you...She's very angry and probably very OOC. But I tried. Ty everyone. :)
JPOV
I held her for a long time. I could live a million years just standing here like this. Holding her in my strong arms. And I would live a wonderful life. She smelled so beautiful, nothing else in the world smelled like this. Like Bella. Finally her tears started to fade and her heart beat slowed. She must have been dead on her feet. I picked her up gently and layed her back down on her bed pulling the quilt up around her and sat down on the edge of the bed.
"Jasper..." She sounded unsure. But felt nervous?
"Yes, love?"
"Will you stay? Just for tonight...if its not to much?" Ahhh. That's why.
"Do you think it's a good idea Bella? Do you want me to stay with you?" I wanted it more than anything in the world. But if she even had a small whim of doubt, I didn't want to push her.
She thought for a moment before she answered and confidence swelled into her.
"Yes." She had a twinkle in her eye that I couldn't quite place. But it made me smile. And she giggled in responce. If I died right now...I would die a happy man knowing I made that beautiful sound fall from her lips.
"Then I'll stay." I again smiled, I couldn't believe she wanted me to stay. That I was actually here with her.
APOV
I was heart broken. Dead. And yet not dead enough. I wanted to die. Not because I had just lost my husband. But because I had lost my husband and my best friend. My sister. Bella. I knew they were meant to be. I knew that from day one. And in all honesty, it was better to know that they would be happier then me and Jazz ever would be. I just didn't know I would never see them again. I had a vision the second after Jasper left...one that made me realize I had nothing left to live for.
As soon as the vision ended there was a knock at my door. Esme came to check on me. She gave me a weak smile and I knew that if she could cry, tears would be falling down her cheeks.
"How are you dear?" she asked.
"Not well mom." I answered in a whisper. It was all I could manage...
"Where's Jasper?" She lowered her voice to a whisper as well.
"He left mother." I said in a sob. I didn't want to tell her. Yet I knew I had to. I would have to tell everyone eventually.
"What?" She was shocked. They would all be shocked.
"He left. He's gone to be with the one he loves." I looked at her then. Plead with my eyes for her to realize. For her to put the pieces together. For HER to say it. Because I don't know that I physically could.
"My God." She gasped.
I don't remember much after that. Just falling onto the bed with sobs wracking my body. I cried for Bella. For the pain Edward and all of us had put her through. For Jasper. For losing him. But more importantly for pushing him away when he needed me most. I cried for my family. Losing the most important pieces that held us all together. And I cried for me. For losing all the ones that I had lost. Knowing we would never be the same again. Maybe someday we would be happy again, but never like we were.
Later that night I pulled myself together and went to tell the family what I knew. Esme was right beside me holding my hand. I don't think I would have made it without her pulling me down the hall to meet everyone. I didn't want to face them. I didn't want to face Edward...
I knew Jazz and Bella were meant for each other. And so did he. At this moment I hated him. If he would have kept his mouth shut. If he would have WALKED AWAY....We would still be happy! I would have dealt with Jazz. I would have learned. But he ruined us. Ruined our FAMILY!
I knew he would be able to read my thoughts...I started singing amazing grace. It was all I could do to try and hide things while I somehow tried to gather my thoughts. He usually would tune me out when I pulled stunts like this.
"Alice had a few words to say." Esme spoke quietly.
All eyes were on me in that moment, and a fresh sob broke from my chest. Everyone watched, eyes wide. I wasn't one to cry. I pulled it together. For my broken little family. My rage would keep my going.
"I have news." My words were icy. And yet sad at the same time.
All eyes still remained on me.
"Jasper has left us." There were a few gasps and their wide eyes grew wider.
"He has gone somewhere where he has always belonged." I looked straight into Edwards eyes.
"He has gone to be with the one that he loves. Where his destiny lies with. The one that will make him happy, make him see what I once saw. That he is good. That he is a true gentleman. She will love him in ways that no one else could."
I could see the rage building in him and I didn't care. I wanted him to feel rage. I wanted a fight.
And with every ounce of my body, my voice was more deadly than its ever been. It frankly scared me to know I had made the sound that came out of me next.
"And she will love him too." I stared deep into Edwards eyes. Into his soul. And I riped his heart out with my words. Sure he loved Bella. But he loved the Idea of Bella more. He didn't know her the way she needed to be known. He would never understand her the way she needed to be understood. And Jasper will. He will.
"HOW DARE YOU?" He shouted. And everyone jumped. They were confused. They didn't understand. And yet the watched this play out.
"I didn't dare a thing..." I said.
"HE means NOTHING to her. NOTHING!"
"Are you so sure brother? Are you so sure that maybe...just maybe...You don't know her as well as you think you do?" Touche.
"Bella?" Carlisle spoke...a whisper. All heads whipped in his direction then mine and finally Edwards.
"You knew this would happen. You KNEW!" Edward shouted again.
"I knew no more than you did brother." I spat the word at him. He saw all that I saw. He knew everything I knew.
"How could you keep this from us? How could you?" Rosalie. I could care less right now Rose. Sorry...
Edward rose to his feet and stood in front of me. This is what I wanted. I growled and he returned the favor. Good. It wouldn't be one sided. In a flash Carlisle was between us. And my hope fizzled. He always stopped my fun.
"ENOUGH." He used his authorative tone. There was no going against him now. Edward glared at me from over Carlisles shoulder. I smirked at him. Taunting. Trying. It didn't matter. Carlisle wouldn't allow it.
"I'll find her first..." Edward threated.
"Too late Edward. Too late." I laughed. I walked back down the hall to my room and waited for the storm to blow over.
JPOV
"Where will you stay though?" She asked me. A blush rose to her cheeks. Was she thinking what I thought?
"I didn't so much plan this whole thing out Bella. I just ran here from Denali. I don't even have anything with me." I sighed. I would have to return to the house here in forks sometime.
"I'll probably just go back to the house here."
"You mean you wont...stay...here tonight?" Again with the blush. She was so beautiful. So innocent. I didn't know if I could handle it. I slowly laid down next to her and put my arm under her had.
"Is this alright with you?" I was so nervous. I expected her to flinch or to say it wasnt alright. I didn't know what to expect.
"It's diffinatly alright." The blush didn't leave her gorgeous face and I chuckled for the first time in a long time.
"Charlie?" I questioned.
"Don't worry. He stopped checking on me a long time ago..."She faded out of her sentance and I felt a twinge on hurt. I wondered what she meant by that.
"You need sleep. You can hardly keep your eyes open Bella." I smiled at her. Which she returned. The smallest things about this small girl made me feel like I was in heaven. Everytime she blushed my heart soared. Everytime she smiled...I didn't even know how to explain what that did.
Her eyes immediatly began to close and I whispered the story of how I came to her in her ear as she drifted to sleep. I laid there all the rest of the morning watching her. Breathing her. Tasting her. She was all I ever needed. All I could ever hope for. And hope was all I had. And it was everything to me. She was everything to me.
