Chapter 4
At D's house, she was in her room inviting her friends from her old high school to her party.
"Tae win, do you think you can come to my party at China Palace?" D asked him over the phone.
"Yeah, I can D! It's your 18th birthday party right?" He asked her.
"Yup, it's going to be cool! I didn't think my dad would actually book the whole restaurant for the part considering we're poor.'' She said to him as she was doing her homework.
"You know how parents are D." Tae Win said to her awhile slowly rotating in his chair.
"I guess, oh I wanted to ask you something…" D said starting to get nervous.
"Ok, ask away.''
"How's… Kensou", D said hesitating to ask.
"He's uh… good…" Tae Win replied.
"Really, are you sure? Why did it take you so long to answer?"
"Well… there's something he told me…'' His tone of voice lowered when he spoke.
"What? Is there something wrong?"
"Well… he said he's never coming back because there's… nothing he wants to see here.'' D felt a stone fall on her heart.
"Did he say anything specific?" D asked him.
"Well… let's not go into detail…" Tae Win nervously laughed.
"Oh… Ok, um… I got to go now… I'll talk to you later ok?"
"Yeah, hey I'm sorry for making you feel bad if you do D.'' Tae Win said as he can hear the disappointment in her voice.
"Oh there's nothing to be sorry for Tae Win. You can't help what people feel. Bye.'' D hung up the phone, walked to her door, and looked at it. She leaned against it and let her tears roll down her face. She slid down to the floor and hugged her knees as she cried.
The next day, D went to school with a smile on her face. She walked into her Italian class and sat next to Jesse.
"Good morning Jesse! Isn't it a lovely day today?" She said as she took her books out. Jesse turned to D and gave her a weird look.
"No…'' Jesse replied to her turning back to her backpack.
"Why?" D asked her.
"It looks like it's about to rain D. It's all gloomy and dark outside. I don't see what's so beautiful about it. There's something wrong with you today.'' Jesse said turning the pages in her Italian book.
"There's nothing wrong with me. Why do you say that?" She asked with a perky voice.
"It's not you to be happy in the morning. You're either sleepy or quiet because you're sleepy.'' Jesse said listing the reason why.
"I can be happy in the morning too!" D threw her arms up in the air in joy.
"I know but it's just not you D.''
"I went to sleep early last night.''
"Ok fine, I'll let you go now but I know there's something wrong with you. You're just hiding your true feelings inside. You shouldn't hide your feelings. You'll never be able to confront you're feelings if you hide it.'' As Jesse was talking, D looked down at her book. She knew Jesse was right.
"D, D, hey.'' Jesse said as she turned to her. When she faced D, she saw what she assumed to be D's tears fall onto her book creating wet spots on the pages.
"Are you ok D?" Jesse quickly asked as she put her hand on her shoulder.
"Oh, I'm fine. Just started to get really tired.'' She turned to Jesses and wiped her tears away.
"D…''
At D's home, she was watching some T.V before she went to sleep. When she changed the channel, she recognized someone on a show.
"Is that…. Au'lun?" She said trying to figure out who it was.
"This is ET bringing you a hot interview with one of America's new rising moguls the prince of the Nissan Empire, Au'lun Nissan." The host turned to Au'lun and smiled.
"Hi.'' He said to her.
"So Au'lun, how does it feel to be a rising young mogul?" She asked him.
"It feels weird because I never thought things would go this far.'' He answered her question.
"What do you mean by this far?"
"Well I thought I was only going to be known as the Nissan boy but after a few appearances in magazines and such, everyone knows me by my real name and calls me the prince of the Nissan Empire.''
"So you're saying you didn't think you would be famous?"
"Yeah'', he replied to her.
"Ok, rumor control! Ok, there's been a huge rumor about you and you're past love Keiko Saodeko, is it true you were an item and maybe still are?" She asked him. Au'lun paused for a second, pushed his glasses up, and looked up.
"We never dated, we're just friends.'' He replied to her.
"Oh, is there someone now?" She kept on asking him questions about his personal life.
"D! Dong Wook is on the phone!" Her mom yelled as she leaned into the hallway.
"Ok'', D ran out of her room to get the phone.
"That's a secret." Au'lun said to her.
"Oh so there is one…''
"Maybe'', Au'lun wouldn't let her go deeper into his personal life.
"Ok, this is all the time we have left. You've been watching ET, goodnight!''
"Dong Wook! You can't come? But we're best friends!" D said to Dong Wook over the phone as she walked back into her room. She didn't realize the T.V show was over.
"I know, I know, I'm so sorry D. It's just all of this fan meetings and T.V appearances. I'm so sorry… Oh yeah! Did you get my new album?" Dong Wook asked her over the phone.
"Yes I did! It's such a great! I can't stop listening to it!" She said grabbing his album from her CD collection and looking at the cover.
"I'm glad you like my album! What is your favorite song on the CD?" He asked her.
"I love all the songs but the one song that really took my heart away is 'Holding Flowers'. I feel all warm inside when I hear you're song Dong Woo.'' She explained to him over the phone as she put his CD into her stereo.
"Mission accomplished!" Dong Wook said to her. She laughed at his joke and grabbed her T.V remote. D sighed as she turned her T.V off.
"I miss you Dong Wook…'' She said to him as she laid across her bed holding the phone near her ear.
"I miss you too D… Is there something wrong D?" He said sensing a dilemma in her voice.
"Why do you ask?"
"Because I can sense it, even through the phone.''
"You know me too well Dong Wook…'' She said rolling over to look up at her ceiling.
"Well, we've known each other for a long time so yeah. Anyways, what's the matter?"
"I don't know… I don't think I should be worked up on something that's so stupid.''
"What is it?" He asked her again.
"One of my friends… told me that the guy I still like isn't coming back…'' She felt as if there was a stone in her throat trying to stop those words from coming out. She stood up and walked over to her desk, pulled her seat out, and sat down.
"Is there more?" He asked her again.
"Yeah… he also told me that the guy I like isn't coming back because he doesn't have anything he wants to see here… and I can't help but think that the thing is me…'' Tears rolled down her face.
"D, forget him. He's not worth your time…''
"I can't forget him Dong Wook, I love him too much to forget him.'' Tears uncontrollably came down her face like a river.
"Are you crying?" Dong Wook asked her as he listened to her sobbing on the other line.
"I'm sorry Dong Wook but I can't forget someone I love…''
"D, thinking about him causes you too much grief… please forget him… leave him in the past where he belongs…''
"I'll try Dong Wook… Thank you…'' She said awhile wiping her tears away.
"Your welcome, anyways I have to go now D. Have a great party!"
"Ok, thank you Dong Wook again… for everything.'' She
"D, I'm always here for you. Goodnight.'' D hung up her phone and laid her head down on her desk.
"I'm so stupid…''
The next day at school, D felt so bad but she hid her feelings behind a smile. No one realized she was in pain inside. As she was waiting for the bell to ring in her last class, Au'lun popped up in her mind.
"Au'lun… where did you go?" When the ball rang, she walked to the parking lot and waited at the grassy area for her sister-in-law. She waited and waited until everyone around her was gone. A few minutes later, a car pulled up in front of her. She looked up and saw Au'lun come out of the driver's seat of the car and walk up to D.
"Do you need a ride D? I'll take you home if you want me too.'' He said to her offering her a ride.
"As much as I want to be in a Nissan Skyline, I can't. My sister-in-law is picking me up today. Thanks for the offer though!" D said smiling at him.
"I'll wait with you then." Au'lun walked closer to her and sat down next to her. Silence hung in the air for a while.
"I hate feeling in love…'' D said cutting the silence that hung in the air.
"Huh?" He turned to her with a confused look on her face.
"Whenever I fall in love… I always get hurt in the end… I thought things would work out if I just waited for Kensou to come back. But… he never will because… of me. Well it's nothing to be mad over.'' She looked up at the sky and smiled.
"Kensou… is that him?" Au'lun asked as he looked up at the sky.
"Yes, the guy I was in love with for the past three years.''
"Wow,'' Au'lun said.
"Yeah, just a few days ago, my friend told me to never hide my feelings and emotions inside because it'll hurt me. Whatever I do to hide my feelings away from people… it never works. I guess I'm too transparent to hide my feelings." A tear rolled down D's face. "I guess it shows through my face that my heart's broken.'' Au'lun turned to D only to see her crying.
"I can't stop myself from crying." D said trying to wipe her tears away. "I can't stop loving Kensou.'' D covered her face with her hands and cried. Au'lun turned her to him, gently pulled her hands away from her face, and wiped her tears away. He leaned in and kissed her. He gently pulled away but was still close to her face.
"Don't cry D… A person as beautiful as you shouldn't be crying… Be with me… and I'll never make you cry…'' Au'lun said as he looked into her eyes. He wanted to cry himself as he watched her cry. He couldn't bear to see her cry. D felt as if she can believe what he said and she'll be ok with him but she couldn't forget Kensou. She couldn't help but cry.
"Dannie!" Her sister-in-law yelled from her car. D looked at her sister-in-law's car, quickly grabbed her stuff, and ran to the car.
"D! I'm sorry!" Au'lun yelled. D stopped for a second before getting into the car and went in. Au'lun watched D and her sister-in-law drive away.
"Damn! I did it again!" Au'lun said punching the ground.
In the car, D didn't say anything to her sister. She tried her best to hide her crying from her sister-in-law.
"Dannie, are you ok? You didn't say hi to me when you came in?" She said awhile paying attention to the road. "Who was the boy sitting next to you? He's really cute."
"I'm so stupid… I ran away like a fool.'' D said as she was looking out of the side window.
"Ran away from what?" Her sister asked.
"Just now Au'lun asked me to be with him and he'll never make me cry…" D said to her.
"Sounds like a good man to me. Why didn't you say anything or run away as you put it."
"I don't know… maybe it's because I'm afraid to fall in love again…''
"Again?"
"I'm in love with this guy who doesn't live in the country anymore…''
"What, why are you still in love with this guy? You should be looking for someone else!" Her sister-in-law said to her.
"But I believe that he'll come back one day…''
"Is there any proof that he's coming back anytime soon?" She asked D awhile driving.
"No, my friend told me that he's not coming back…''
"That's your queue to find someone else! And it looks like that someone else has found you! Dannie, don't get hung up on someone who you know won't ever come back. If you stay like this, you'll miss out on that special someone.''
"So do you think I should be with Au'lun?" D said turning to her.
"Well, that's something for you to decide. But if you do choose to be with him, I have a good feeling that you'll be happy with him.'' D looked away and thought about the decision. She had to pick between waiting for Kensou or be with Au'lun and start a new life with him.
"If you don't like this friend of yours or don't feel anything then just break it off.'' Her sister said to her. "Follow your heart.''
End of Chapter 4
