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Lily's Diary
September 20th (Late night)
Dear Diary
I am so upset that I can't really write you see James broke up with me yesterday and I am really upset because he didn't say why he was breaking up with me he just said that he couldn't do it anymore and I keep wondering why he would just break up with me because I thought that we were so happy, I just hope that he will come back to me someday like maybe in a few years because I know that we are suppose to be together. I think I will pretend to hate him but well my friends will know that it's all an act but HIS friends will think that I really hate him, I won't date any other guy because my heart belongs to James Potter so well even though he doesn't know that yet he still holds my heart and always will.
I just hope that he will come back to me, oh great my tears are falling down my cheeks and I don't want to look like I have been crying and have red puffy eyes tomorrow because I don't want him to know that he hurt me this bad. I need to be strong and get through this and do good on my OWLs because those will tell me what classes I can take next year because I need to think about what I want to do when I get out of school. I guess I will have to think about what job I want to do when I am out of school.
Well I am going to go and try not to cry and work on my potions essay before I go to bed.
Love
Lily
September 22nd (Late afternoon)
Dear Diary
Well I am still really upset but today I didn't see James and I heard his friends talking about how James doesn't even have a new girlfriend since he broke up with me and they don't even know why he broke up with me. Well I have a ton of homework and tomorrow is a prefect meeting and I don't want to be a prefect because I am still upset I mean I still like James. I will have to see him at Quidditch practice and it's about to kill me because I don't know why he broke up with me and its killing me inside. I swear that if people could die of a broken heart I would most likely be dead by now, not like I am going to kill myself over this because that would be stupid its just weird that out of the blue he says that he can't do this anymore and then runs away from me.
I will find out why he broke up with me if it's the last thing I do.
Well I better go and do all my homework and then some because that will take my mind off this whole thing.
Bye
Lily
September 23rd (LATE night)
Dear Diary
Well I am feeling better and well things couldn't be worse with James because he is in all my classes and I have Quidditch practice as well so I see him there. But it could be worse because well I stopped hanging out on the grounds because I need to study for my OWLs so I have been hiding in the library until it closes or curfew whatever comes first and I walk up the girls staircase without anybody seeing me and well like I care anymore because who should see the girl who got dumped by James Potter!
I really need to get over him because I can't let this get to me and get in the way of my grades and I will not let it because my grades are way more important than boys and one boy in general James Potter.
He will never see the hurt he caused me by breaking up with me and I still don't know why because he just said that he couldn't do it anymore and not sure what that means. But I guess I will find out soon because well I want him back yet I don't because he hurt me yet I still love him.
Well better go
Night
Lily
October 1st (Afternoon)
Dear Diary
Well I have gotten better at least enough to make it through a day that when I see James I don't start crying like before and now his friends are all being jerks because well they taunt me because they see me piled behind all my books and last night if Remus hadn't seen them (Remus is the only nice one and I think that James is just trying to hide the fact that he likes me by being mean) then they would have set fire to my charms paper and Remus jumped right in and made them give my paper back and well after I got my paper back I ran to the girls staircase and shut the door to it and before it closed it I heard Remus yelling at his friends saying that taking homework is not really a good thing and then I heard him say to James that taking Lily's Homework wont get her back and after that I walked up to my dorm that I share with Marah, Isabella (new student), and Rita lucky for me they were not in the dorm when I came back because I then just laid down on the bed and started crying into my pillows. I am not sure how long I was crying but I heard a knocking on the tower window and it was James and I guess he was looking at me but when he saw the look I gave him and watched me pull my curtains on my bed closed I guess he left.
He made me so upset that I don't know what to do because I really like him and I don't know why I do after all he has done to me I mean he has hurt me so much but what I have left of my heart still loves him.
It's really hard to explain why I feel this way because I don't even know why because well it's not like I can owl my mom and get her advice because I don't know what she would say. That and I kind of want to find this thing out on my own.
Well I better go
Lily
October 7th (Night)
Dear Diary
Well I am feeling a lot better and I have all my work done for the week and I am just so happy because I am doing so well in Charms and I am doing ok in Transfiguration I guess I will have to ask for help so I can do great in it for my OWLs because I really need to pass with an O because these are important tests besides the NEWTs.
Well I hear Marah coming up the stairs so I better go
Night
Lily
Well how was that? Sorry f0r the wait because of everything going on in my life right now I haven't had time to write and I had writers block on this story so I had to think about what I was going to do.
I will try to write the next chapter and make it up to you guys!
R&R please!
