Silently, Blaine shifted his weight. Multiple thoughts were circling in his head and he honestly had no clue what to say. What they both had to talk about was obvious, but neither spoke up because they were just too nervous. Managing to get out the words, was the first task that neither could manage to accomplish.

After a few minutes, Rachel finally was the one to say, "I don't understand what happened Blaine. All I know is that I arrive home to find out my best friend had taken off for boarding school. Honestly, it was shocking news. Why didn't you tell me? Was that your way of running away from me because you regretted the kiss or just because you were scared?"

"Wait, you think I regretted the kiss?" Blaine asked surprised. Out of all things, she thought that he regretted it. Didn't they both think that that was the kiss of the century? Apparently not to Rachel, but to him it would always be.

"Yeah I do, because you wouldn't have left for boarding school if that was the case. Maybe you would have answered one of my 50 calls," Rachel told him, and Blaine couldn't believe how stubborn she was being.

He immediately said, "You knew how strict my parents were and still are about education! Did you really think I went off to a boarding school to avoid seeing you everyday? Out of all things, you thought that?"

They were both silent and Rachel had no clue how to respond. She was so hurt, because she had thought the worse, but they had both thought wrong. Everything was upside down and they completely misunderstood each other.

Blaine finally continued with, "That was planned for me since the beginning of the summer and trust me, it wasn't like I wanted to leave home, leave my family, leave you. At the time I just didn't have the heart to tell you and I didn't want to make you think that you were losing me because I knew you would act differently. The thought of telling you was difficult for me to even imagine and once we discovered those feelings for each other, it went from difficult to purely impossible. When I was going to tell you after you know what, you had already ran off to New York so if one of us regretted it, it had to be you."

"Me? Regret it? Clearly, you don't understand my part of the story," Rachel argued but Blaine quarreled, "Really? Then what is your story that I clearly don't understand, I'm sure it's not much worse than mine."

"I don't want to talk about it," Rachel simply stated. It took her a long time to recover from what happened, and she didn't want to mention it. All it would do would bring back terrifying memories.

"At least I know I was right. You obviously regretted it," Blaine said but Rachel immediately said, "That's not it."

"Then what is it?" Blaine asked curiously but of course Rachel replied, "It's complicated."

"I don't understand what is so complicated about your side of the story. My side of the story is complicated, but if your not willing on telling me, then I'm not going to bother. It's not worth it," Blaine said.

"Fine! You really want to know? My mother was suffering from phenomena. Are you happy?" Rachel asked and Blaine was silent. She slowly continued, "It was a last minute trip, and we were there for the rest of the summer. It wasn't like I could talk to you 24/7, but when I finally had the chance to call you, you never answered anyway. It wasn't like I didn't miss you, in fact I wished you were there every second…" Rachel told him honestly but Blaine had cut her off. She had never been able to admit her feelings so easily to anybody. Blaine was her best friend though and it was just so easy for her to give into him and spill out everything even though this was the first time that they've had a full out conversation in three years.

"Shhh, Rachel, you've done enough explaining. You didn't have to tell me all of that, but is she ok?" Blaine couldn't help but ask realizing that it might have been too much of a personal question.

"She passed away a few months after our visit," Rachel managed to choke out and Blaine could see a tear streak down her face, but he quickly whipped it away from her face. He didn't want her to have to deal with another problem. Rachel had gotten over that a while ago, and luckily still had both of her dads and friends to comfort her.

For a short moment they were silent until Blaine managed to give her his condolences. "I'm sorry for your loss and I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you Rachel. I wish I was there for you."

"Well, I appreciate your blessings, but it's a little late, for that. The past is the past and we can't change that," Rachel said and she still had a question that he had not answered. This would truly prove if he had really been ignoring her or not.

"Now, why did you not answer any of my calls or texts?" Rachel asked and Blaine answered, "My parents had taken away my phone before I left."

Rachel then argued, "And there was no other way of communicating with me?"

"No there wasn't," Blaine said to her but not harshly and from there was silence. They didn't know how to react around one another and it was just plain old awkward. Had they really thought wrong for three years?

"Well, I guess we both misunderstood each other big time," Rachel said stating the obvious. There wasn't really anything else to say.

"I guess we did," Blaine replied also not knowing what to mention once again. Everything was just becoming more and more awkward and them being round each other didn't help.

Rachel then out of nowhere said, "I just don't understand. How could we think so low of each other? If we really trusted each other, than I wouldn't have thought that you were running away from me and the same for you."

"What happened that night Rachel, confused us both. Maybe as good friends we trusted each other, but after being drunk for a few hours and making out with each other we probably both were scared after. I guess you can say we weren't use to interacting with each other in that way."

"Well first we didn't make out and second yes we probably weren't use to interacting with each other in that way, but the thing is that neither of us were scared nor regretted it, you happen to have gone to boarding school and just never had the chance to tell me and my mom was suffering from phenomena so I happened to leave for New York. I guess it was a coincidence and we both just assumed the worse."

From there Blaine had stepped closer to Rachel. They were silent and as soon as they knew it, their faces were inches apart from each other. They were staring directly into each other's eyes and Blaine knew at that moment that he still had feelings for Rachel. Strong feelings in which were impossible to avoid. No wonder why he flipped when he saw Finn kissing Rachel. He knew that it was his chance to go for it and he didn't care what the consequences were. Blaine leaned in to place his lips on Rachel's but she quickly looked away and said, "I can't do this."

"Why?" He slowly whispered and finally she looked back into his eyes and said, "The past is the past Blaine. I know we misunderstood each other and whatnot, but that doesn't change what's going on now. Our lives have completely changed and I've moved on. It's time for you to move on also."

"And what if I can't?" He said upset. "What if I'm still that 15 year old boy who's in love with you Rachel?" Blaine was hurt and didn't know if Rachel loved him anymore, which stung even more.

"Then I don't know, but I just need you to understand whether you like it or not that I'm with Finn now and our chance was gone a long time ago when we went our separate ways. Can you promise me that you'll try?" Rachel asked him. Blaine actually thought that she was falling for him and dumped him in less than 3 minutes.

"I will, but I still don't understand. Where does this exactly leave us?" Blaine asked because Rachel wasn't being clear. Could they be friends or would they go back to avoiding each other?

"What do you think about starting over?" Rachel asked which sounded slightly corny. Blaine then asked, "How is that going to help this problem?"

"It's going to rebuild our friendship and give us a fresh start. Here, let me demonstrate. Hi, I'm Rachel Berry," Rachel said to him presenting her hand. Blaine then weirdly shook it and said, "Hey, I'm Blaine Anderson," and that was the start of their new and improved friendship.

The Monday back was slightly awkward for both of them, but luckily neither avoided each other. Rachel and Blaine continued to talk, and were continuously chatting in Bio which definitely upset the teacher. In fact they were becoming better friends then ever.

Constantly, Blaine was over at Rachel's house or Rachel was at Blaine's too. Well, they did live next-door to each other so that was bound to happen sooner or later. Them two were becoming better friends then they were before, and this started to make Kurt jealous.

Kurt wasn't the only one though, Finn was becoming quite suspicious of Blaine also even though no matter how many times Blaine reassured that he was just friends with Rachel, Finn couldn't believe him.

A few weeks had gone by and after lunch one day; Finn had followed Blaine hoping that this would be the chance to confront him. Finn couldn't help, but think that something was definitely going on between Rachel and him and there was no way on earth that Finn was going to let Blaine ruin his relationship that he's upheld since 9th grade. He wasn't quite sure if Blaine was exactly on a mission to destroy it though. Finn just didn't like the way he acted around Rachel, like in a lovey dopey way.

As Finn walked up to him, he immediately said, "I need to talk to you." Blaine had finished taking his sip of water from the fountain, and slowly looked up to see an angry looking Finn.

"About what?" Blaine asked, but already assumed what it was about, but he avoided bringing it up.

"You know exactly what. Don't play dumb on me Blaine," Finn said but then Blaine exclaimed, "There's nothing going on between Rachel and I. How many times are you going to ask?" This was really getting old, and it was making Blaine frustrated.

"As many times as I need to. It's strange, ok. You're always at her house, or she's singing a duet with you and for all I know you could have kissed her already and she's not telling me anything so she has to be lying."

"She's not lying. You want to know what, if your not going to believe me than it's not even worth arguing about. See you in glee club," Blaine said as he started to walk away. He couldn't believe how Blaine just blew him off like that and Finn stood there dumbstruck.

Finn let it go this time, but Blaine knew that he would eventually do something about it. Suddenly from a distance Blaine saw Kurt as still as a rock staring at the bulletin board with multiple club sign up sheets. Blaine knew exactly what he was doing, and he felt terrible about it. Almost everyone in the school knew that Kurt had quit the play because news spreads fast like that at McKinley, sadly.

Artie had had to push the play back a few weeks because they were still on a lookout for a Tony, which they still hadn't found. Not only that, but if someone wasn't found to play the role, then the play would be cancelled which would definitely be a tragedy for Rachel. She was destined to play Maria, wasn't she?

Blaine had two very good reasons for not auditioning for Tony. Reason 1 because Kurt has been a good friend to him ever since he showed up at McKinley and he couldn't just take his spot like that. Reason 2, it would give Finn more of a reason to hate him and as much as Blaine wanted to spend more time with Rachel, he knew that that wasn't the best idea.

"You're torturing yourself, you know that," Blaine said as he approached Kurt.

"Does it really matter? I'm not going to be accepted into NYADA nor will I be on Broadway. My dreams are crushed either way," Kurt told Blaine.

"No your dreams aren't over Kurt and maybe you aren't meant to play all roles on Broadway, but that doesn't mean your life is over. I still think that you could have played the role of Tony, but you've made your decision and you just have to move on."

"Thanks, I actually needed that," Kurt told him and Blaine answered back, "Your welcome." Then, Kurt quickly ran off to his next class and Blaine took a moment to stare at the sign up sheet.

He didn't realize till now that maybe it would be a good idea to have another event on his schedule to keep himself busy. He also didn't realize till now that he hadn't had a lead role in a play since 8th grade and now was his chance. If he received the role of Tony, he would be so happy, but it just wasn't right. Finn would kill him and not only would he be spending more time with Rachel, he would be dealing with a lot of crap from Finn. But didn't he want to spend time with Rachel? 'Who cares what Finn is going to think,' Blaine thought to himself. Since when did he ever care about what Finn thought? Blaine should be able to do what he wants.

Quickly, he took a look to his left and right to make sure no one was watching him and hurriedly scribbled his name on the audition list. This year was his chance to get it right, and he wanted his senior year to be perfect.