My mom always told me that "Stronger than lover's love, is lover's hate. Incurable in each, the wounds they make" Now that I think about it, I regret not listening to her wise words.

I wake up instantly as I hear the door to my room open, it's dark and I can't make out the identity of the intruder right away, it takes me few seconds to recognize Nick. However, he's got the same mix of emotions I've seen lately on his face. No excitement, no happiness, no relief…just pain and anger.

"What happened with Juliette?" I ask breathlessly, unable to mask my fear anymore

Nick starts towards me and I scoot away in the bed in an attempt to get further from him "She drank it, didn't she?" I don't even recognize my shaking voice. So much for the badass Hexenbiest everybody thought I was.

Juliette is probably back to being normal…almost normal. The Hexenbiest in her is suppressed now and Nick is here to get rid of me. I mean, why would he keep protecting me and our baby?

He got what he needed from me. I'm useless to him now and he finally can kill me. Me, the woman behind all his suffering and torment.

My heart is hammering against my chest. My hand flies to me belly in a protective movement. I don't want to die…I want a second chance in life. Have a family, raise my children along side and be the mother I never had.

"It worked, I saved her and now you are getting rid of me" As he sits on my bed, I switch on the side lamp to see what he's about to do

"Adalind, I'm not gonna hurt you" his voice is all soft and reassuring, but I don't buy it. I mean, let's be honest here, I made his life a living hell. I am a freaking monster in his eyes. The reason why we're even here today is me. The big bad Adalind…Ok, maybe not big, but still bad…at least this is what everybody thinks.

"Why not?" I ask Nick "If she's better, then…"

He cuts me off "It didn't work"

That's impossible. There must be some mistake

"What? It had to. It worked on me, I can't do anything anymore"

He looks me in the eyes "She didn't drink it"

Seriously! Do I have to explain everything?

"No wonder it didn't work. You had to get her to drink it" Duh

"She destroyed it" Nick sighs

Whoa. I'm getting lost here "Why? Isn't this what she wanted?"

"Not anymore" he shakes his head

"I don't understand" not at all

"She likes what she is…She likes the power. She doesn't want to give it up" and for the first time, I notice disgust in his eyes when he speaks of her

Oh…Like Ohhhhh…She likes it. I should have expected that, but it still came as a shock. Saint Juliette craves power as everybody else I guess, but doesn't she care about Nick?

She just threw away years of relationship to keep her powers and…I have just thrown away my powers hoping to have an ordinary life…

"There's another problem" Nick adds getting my attention "There's something wrong with Renard. He keeps dreaming about being shot and when he wakes up, his scars are bleeding"

Oh No, this is not good

"As if the bullets just got into him" I ponder

"Yeah"

"Is he having blackouts?"

"He's been waking up in strange places and he can't remember how he got there" Nick confirms my worries, but I have to be sure it's what I suspect it is

"Did he die?"

"What do you mean?" Nick furrows his brows in thought

"When he was shot at the hospital" I clarify

"I don't know" Nick shifts uncomfortably on the bed "I know they didn't expect him to survive"

Well, it's definitely what I suspect, but it requires great powers to be able to perform such a spell. Bringing back a person to life is not something any Hexenbiest can do and we know damn well how risky it is.

"Was anybody there with him?" although I have an idea of who did this

"His mother" Nick shrugs

Sean's mother is one of the most powerful Hexenbiests I've heard of "Then he did die and she brought him back and someone else from the portal"

Nick doesn't seem to understand what I mean. Well, I don't blame him. Just how crazy is that? Someone dies, he's brought back to life…Shocking, someone tags along…Ten times more shocking. I guess his brain refuses to process that information "What are you talking about?"

"When he died, Sean was dead just long enough for something to siderite and when his mother brought him back, that something came back with him" I sigh "That's why he's bleeding. He is taking control" Nick is stunned "Does he know?"

"Oh, he knows there is something wrong" Nick explains "But, he can't remember anything"

"It's good, because when he does, that would be too late" and believe me I'm choosing my words

"Too late for what?" Hank, who apparently was listening, steps in the room

"Whatever he brought back with him would have taken over…spirit possession" I try to make it as clear as possible

"So how do we get rid of him?" Hank inquires

That's the difficult part "You can't, unless you open the portal"

"How do we do that?" Nick asks

How should I put it? Ok, just say it "You'd have to kill him"

Nick and Hank leave right after I tell them that last piece of information, probably on their way to save Sean's life.

Later that night, as I was trying desperately to find a comfortable position to sleep, I heard a commotion in the living room. As I stepped out of the room, I saw Nick, Hank and that other Grimm who everybody calls Trouble.

No need for a pleonasm here. Grimm is trouble by definition

"Where's Adalind? I need to talk to her" Nick says breathlessly

That's not good "About what?" I ask

"The royals have Diana" he runs to my side

Oh My God. Diana. My baby is with those monsters?

"What? I thought she was with your mother" I yell

Nick swallows "My mother's dead"

No. Nonononon. This is not happening. I never thought I'd feel sorry for a Grimm's death, yet here I am "Kelly's dead?" I gasp

"I'm going to kill whoever did this" He declares and I don't doubt him. He's got that look about him that says he will inflict a long painful death to anybody who was involved in his mother's murder. How can I be sure? I had that same look on my face when Diana was taken from me. As crazy as it sounds, I relate to the Grimm right now

"That would be Kenneth, he took over when the king called Viktor to Vienna and Rispoli, he's in charge of the Verrat" I tell him

"Where would the royals stay?" Hank asks me

"Here in the penthouse of the Hotel Deluxe. Do you think they're still there?"

"Can you get into the penthouse?" Hank wonders and I remember I still have the key. I get quickly ready and join the guys who explain the plan to me.

The first thing I do when I arrive to the penthouse is to check if anybody's there. That must be my lucky day, because it's empty. I go to the master bedroom and put the head of a member of the Verrat that Trouble had beheaded that night, after she caught him hanging around Nick's house, which has been attacked tonight by Kenneth and the Verrat, fortunately the head is covered in plastic. I placed it in the closet and just like that, I screamed until my lungs started burning and my throat refused to emit anymore sound.

As predicted, the hotel staff ran to the room, discovering the horrific scene unfurling before their eyes, called the police and made sure the poor shocked pregnant woman –me in case you didn't guess- was taken care of.

Wu was the first one to arrive. He gave me a nod of acknowledgment and I responded likewise, not wanting to raise suspicions. Nick and Hank were next, escorted by the hotel manager.

"Miss Schade, this is Detective Burkhardt and Griffin" Wu introduced them

"Can you tell us what happenened?" Nick asks all business

I've always been a drama queen so here's my chance to show my talents to the world…not that big of an audience though

"I came back to my room. I've been gone a couple of days and I opened the closet door and there it was" I say in a desperate tone "It was awful" I sigh overdramatically "I'm pregnant you know"

"We're gonna need the names and vehicle information of everyone who's staying in this room" Nick orders the hotel manager. When he's out of sight, Nick shift his attention to me "You're ok?"

I sit on the chair, exhausted by tonight's events "I was almost in labor with all that screaming"

"You did good" he reassures me

"It looks like they haven't packed up yet" Hank comes back to us

"Now what?" I ponder

"Now we find out which vehicles they are driving and pull out arrest warrants for Kenneth and Rispoli" Hank says

Through the head placed in Kenneth's closet, the police can prove he is involved in a murder. From, there they will put on his account the murders of the prostitutes, killed actually by Jack the Ripper and say Kenneth was an imitator. Seeing how it's impossible to explain that Sean Renard, Portland Police Captain, who by the way is safe and sound now, was possessed by a murderer.

Kenneth corresponds perfectly to the description as he shared some features with Sean, such as their height and more importantly, he deserves to rot in hell

I must confess, this plan is genius. It's a fantastic way to get back at him

Wu tells the guys the list of information Nick required is ready on the front desk. Just when they start to follow him, I grab Nick's arm "I'm sorry about your mom. I know how much that hurts" I remove my hand "She died trying to save my daughter" He nods at me and leaves

I do feel sorry for his loss and I can see the pain on his face. Truth is, I haven't seen Nick this unhappy in all the years I've known him and God knows the guy has been through a lot and that guilt I was starting to feel few days earlier intensifies and becomes sympathy.

When I go back to Bud's house, Monroe and Rosalee are waiting there along with Touble and Bud of course. We all gather around the dining table, sharing the same anguish and pain. If anyone told few months ago, I'd be sitting at the same table as theses people, sharing their worries, I would have laughed. Told you life has a great sense of humor

"I can't believe Kelly's dead" Monroe shakes his head

"I feel so bad for Nick" Rosalee looks at Trouble "Were you with him when he found his mother's body?"

"Yeah, but it wasn't a body" Trouble says between bites of food "They put her head in a box for him to find"

Everybody around the table gasps

I think I might throw up

"Nick is going to need us now more than ever" Bud is quick to say

"And Juliette" Trouble nods "Wait, shouldn't she be here?"

"Nick didn't tell you?" Rosalee gasps

Well, if that's not the case. I'm happy to oblige

"There were some side effects to him getting his Grimm back" There. It's done

Trouble gives me a sidelong look "Yeah, I remember but…"

Monroe sighs "Juliette is a Hexenbiest"

"No way" she's in shock

Yes way, darling. A very naughty one

"She torched the trailer and almost killed Monroe" Rosalee informs her

Hey, didn't you forget someone

"And me" I say but nobody seems to care

We hear a car pull out near the house. Monroe runs to the door, followed by Trouble who hides quickly her sword when Monroe sighs in relief "It's Nick and Hank"

Both guys come into the house.

"Juliette is a Hexenbiest" Trouble assaults him immediately

"Yeah and she's with the royals" he seems to accept the idea better that me

Oh my "That bitch has my kid" I yell

"She helped the royals take her" Hank chimes in

Really! What's wrong with her? I might have slept with her man, got pregnant with his baby, but the rest is not my fault, so why doesn't she stop? Ok, I might have done a lot more than that, but I tried to repent and Diana…she's just a kid…she's innocent

My throat is burning when I realize once again that my mistakes put my babies in danger, this is why I want to be a better person…I'm doing it for them

"We're going to need you on this" Hank tells Trouble

"You got it" she answers, putting her sword back in its cover

Nick's phone rings. It's Wu. He puts him on speaker. He gives us the address where the royals are staying. Nick and his friends quickly set a plan, while Rosalee and Bud stay with me in the house.

As soon as the guys leave, she comes to me "How are you feeling?"

"Tired, angry, scared" that about sums up how I feel

Rosalee spends the rest of the night trying to make sure I'm ok, which I'm very grateful for. I never expected such kindness from all these people. By the time Nick and his friends come back, I feel like I can't stay in one place.

Nick has this serious face again. He walks to my side. I'm afraid to say it out loud, although I know it. She's with them…They took her from me, for good this time. This was my last chance. My baby is now with these monsters "You didn't get Diana" I shake my head, tears streaking down my face

"I'm sorry" Nick says

"What about Juliette? Is she there?" Bud asks

"She got away too" Trouble answers, regret in her eyes

"You can go back home now" Nick informs everyone

I swallow "What about me?" my voice is so low, I'm not sure he can hear me "Where am I supposed to go?"

"You stay here with bud, till we wrap all this up" after that he heads to the door, looking both exhausted and tortured.

My heart is aching so much.

Both Nick and I lost someone tonight and in this very moment, I realize I no longer see Nick Burkhardt as the deadly Grimm, but as a man whose mission caused more destruction in his life that in the one of others. At some point, I've come to dissociate Nick Burkhardt from the Grimm, or maybe, I've simply accepted who he is

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A/N: Hi Hexenreaders, hope you enjoyed this last chapter from season 4. I'll try to submit a new one ASAP; I'm really excited to start working on season 5, as it has great Nadalind feels :D Don't forget to let me know what you thought of this chapter. Xx. Shino87