Rachel had vowed not to return to Lima again after Glee club had
been disbanded. Watching Quinn and Puck sing their beautiful version
of just give me a reason had showed her that she couldn't do this.
She couldn't be in this town and pretend that every single second
didn't break her heart. The only reason that she was even in town
now was because sweet baby Quick had been too early and she
knew how much that they had on their plates with Beth there now.

She didn't actually expect the baby to die especially not today.

Today would have been the anniversary of the day that she and Finn
first sang in Glee club together. Most people probably wouldn't
remember something so silly and they certainly wouldn't allow it to
ruin their whole evening. She had ignored calls and texts from
everyone including Kurt and Blaine's invitation to come over and play
Broadway pictionary. She would only ruin the evening by stealing
glances at Finn's picture.

The only people that she was willing to answer calls from were Quinn
and Puck on the off-chance that they had news about the baby.
"Hello? Puck? Is everything okay?" "The baby.. We've decided to pull..
We're going to let... She's tired and Q... We really want everyone to
see her before she goes." Go and see the baby die? Witness the tiny
life that she resented for so long die? Yes, Rachel Barbra Berry had
once been extremely angry about something as wonderful as a baby
coming into the world.

She hated it but her first thought when she heard that Quinn and Puck
were having yet another baby was jealousy. It wasn't fair that she
and Finn weren't going to bring little Aria and Christopher into the
world while everyone else went about their lives. They acted like they
cared when he died but nobody really did. They all expected her to go
back to being regular Rachel who only thought about singing and
getting the solo.

Finn's death had made her realize that she didn't want to be the lead
solo anymore. She wanted to be a part of a duet! Finchel was always
supposed to be endgame especially over the other couplings in Glee.
She hadn't switched partners like it was a huge game! The only
person that she had ever truly loved was Finn which said more than
Brittany and Santana. Brittany had gone and tried to marry Sam just
because she thought that the world was going to end! "Yeah.. Yeah...
I'll be there, Puck. Do you want me to swing by Beth's preschool and
pick her up?" If there was one person that could turn this day around
for her then it was miss Beth.

Nobody talked about Finn's feelings after Beth's adoption but the two
had a few talks about the girl who he had grown to love as his
own. They hid it from the other members, including Quinn and Puck,
but they had visited Shelby a few times to see her. Seeing him with a
child showed her that he was going to be such a wonderful father
when they had children. These visits were actually what led to them
deciding that they wanted two children. A boy first who would be
Christopher after his father and Aria because it meant solo melody.

It took everything inside of her just to get out of bed with that dark
thought looming inside her. Finn wouldn't want this. He wouldn't
want her to mope around in one of his baggy old shirts! He would
want her to be happy.. live her life.. Maybe even meet someone who
made her happy not as happy as she used to be but happy. Loving
someone means accepting that they deserve to be happy even if it
isn't with you and he certainly loved her. A reluctant sigh escaped her
lips as she pulled his shirt over her head. Her eyes went to her 'Finn'
tattoo and a sweet image came to her mind.

He might not be here physically but he would always be with her. She
slipped into a suitable outfit before grabbing her keys and finally
making her way to the outside world. Was she even on the accepted
pick up list for Beth's school? It didn't matter if she wasn't. She was
the Rachel Berry... Only the finest Broadway star that had ever
come from this town! How could they not know who she was?

Apparently things don't really work like that and the office ended up
needing to call Quinn to confirm that Rachel was indeed allowed to
pick up Beth. Now that they were safely in her car, she was able to
talk to the three-year old. "Did your mommy and daddy tell you that
you had a baby sister?" The mini Quinn nodded with a large smile,
"Daddy said that she was so excited to meet me that she came early!
But I don't get to meet her yet because she's too little." Rachel
actually found herself smiling at her biological adoptive sister's
innocent view on the situation. Quinn and Puck were doing a lovely
job with her.

"Well.. You're going to meet her today and some of your mom and
dad's old friends will be there.. Brittany, Santana, Kurt, Blaine.." She
didn't expect to be cut off by Beth's innocent yet heartbreaking
announcement, "Finn! I want Finn to come!" Oh goodness.. Did she
understand death? "Honey.. Finn is dead... Finn can never come back."