Disclaimer: Victorious and it's characters don't belong to me.
Third Person Omniscient
Great day! Yeah! What a fantastic year this will be in HA. Fuck it! I need to just keep my mind off everything; Gaby thought as she got home and went straight to her room. She opened her table's hidden drawer and pulled out some weed, stepped out of her bedroom window —phone in hand— and headed to the rooftop of her house.
She loved when Ash and her used to go out there to get high, smoke or simply talk. It was beautiful and quiet.
God I miss her. I just can't stop thinking about her, if I could just call her or even message her.
But she couldn't, they decided to give each other a month apart, alone, before trying to be friends and it's just been a week since they broke up.
God I don't know if I can do this.
Just the idea of having a friend to go through the fire of everyday life was comforting. Sadly, she didn't have one anymore.
She couldn't shake off the feeling of idiocy, of course Jade was jealous of Beck, he was a great friend and very handsome guy, she was sure that lot's of girls came up to him everyday. Her girlfriend must have been exhausted of pushing them away… or just incredibly insecure. Well, it wasn't like Gaby would ever get with Beck, but that was something she didn't need to know.
I'm about to run out of Weed, well that's a shame, she thought looking at the bag in her hands. I better enjoy it while I have some. I always could ask Tyler to get me some. He could easily ask a guy at college, it was no big deal.
Thinking about everything that happened that day and how she was going to keep away from Beck and his friends clouded her mind. Therefore, she decided to use her usual zombie suit for the next day. Just like the past month at her old school and probably all next year in Hollywood Arts.
"Way to go Gaby!" she said out loud.
There she was, on that windy afternoon, smoking away her feelings and she fell asleep on the rooftop listening to some soft music.
When she finally woke up, she realized she'd been out there for hours, it was too cold and she had homework. So she climbed down into her room and saw her mom there with a disapproving look.
"Gaby how long have you been up there?" Her mom asked. "Are you smoking again?" Nikki pointed to the plastic bag with weed.
"Mom please, not now," Gaby said as she saved what was left of it, inside the drawer.
"Gaby, you know that I don't mind the 'occasional smoking' you do, but not over the rooftop, we have spoken about this before. Go to the garden, where is flat and you can't fall down," her mom suggested, trying to sound commanding.
"Mom you know I'm careful," she babbled.
"Yes, Gaby I know… Anyway, how was your first day? Did you make any friends?"
"Yes! Can you please just leave now, I have to finish homework for tomorrow," Gaby said pushing her off.
"Okay, okay! Your dad said hello,. He called, but I couldn't find you," she said looking at her daughter with a smile.
"I'll call him back later, now go," the girl closed the door and started the hell of homework once again.
At the other side of town, Jade was at her place unable to understand what had happen at school. She had blown out things incredibly out of proportion. Beck wouldn't answer her calls and she couldn't concentrate at all in homework.
«And what if she finds out Beck? It's the old thing all over again I just can't do it,» Jade remembered overhearing, and couldn't take those words out of her head.
What are they hiding? Why can't Beck just tell me? I'm his girlfriend; he should trust me. Although after today I doubt he will even want to say hello to me tomorrow, Jade thought.
She picked up her phone and called him again. It was the twenty-fourth time and it kept going straight to voice mail.
Maybe he spoke with Tori. I'll call her.
"Hi Jade!" The Latina answered happily, as always.
"Vega, sup?"
"Wait, don't tell me… I'll guess why you are calling," Tori said, she always wanted to guess why this and why that. Not that she get's it wrong, most of the times she knows exactly what's going on.
"You want to know why Beck hasn't picked up your… twenty-fourth call?" The Goth's mouth dropped to the floor and she went a little paler.
"Jade? Jade, did you have a stroke?"
"How did you know?" She asked in awe.
"You dumbass!" The brunette laughed. "He left his phone here, it fell of his pocket into the couch, I'm taking it to school tomorrow," she said giggling. "So did you guys fixed it up yet?" Jade didn't answer fast enough.
"Did you kill her? Jade?" Tori started panicking.
"No, I didn't kill her. I made it clear that she is not to come close to him. Beck got upset and… yeah, he is really mad. We haven't spoken since," she said trying not to sound worried, she didn't want to seem weak.
"I know he was upset. We had to work on the writing assignment for tomorrow but he was totally in a different universe. Andre and I finished it by ourselves," Tori said. "So, he got mad at you because you threatened Gaby? Has he ever been this upset about your homicidal tendencies?"
"No, he hasn't, that's what scares me," the Goth tried not to give her too much information, but she needed advise and in all Beck's problems Tori was always the one that helped her, no questions asked.
"It was a huge fight, I mean huge. He told me that if I hurt Gaby we were done," she sighed.
"I can't believe that, I don't think that it's a good start, did you try him at home?" Tori asked worried. Which Jade appreciated, she actually liked her as her friend.
"Nope, I've been trying to do homework without any luck," she finally said closing her books.
"Well, get there right now. It's not late yet and you need to talk. Besides it beats you two ignoring each other tomorrow or having a bigger fight at school," Tori said.
"You are right, I'm going, thanks Tori!" Jade said, hanging up.
She planed on being completely honest with Beck that night. She would even confess the phone thing, she needed to be free from the pressure and start taking control of her life again.
Right at Beck's RV, he kept trying to decide what to do.
How can I be with someone like Jade? She is great with me but completely different with other people. Mean, cruel, vicious. Is that what I want? To have someone by my side that just pushes people away from me. People I care about.
Gaby will keep her word and stay away from me, but I actually like having her back. My true friend, the girl I could talk about anything with, look at girls on Sundays at the park and keep score, —he thought with a big grin on his face— But it only goes away when I think back to Jade.
And the thing was that he could never be sure if he should tell her anything anymore, she just might take it badly and explode on him or others. She seemed so strong but then she is so fragile, that anything that could cause her pain, she rejects and yet, she opens up to him and she is different.
Should I feel lucky or cursed?
Everything had been so weird lately, especially since their last break up. Beck knew he loved her, but he didn't know if he was really in love with her anymore. She had started to put walls around them and he didn't know what to do.
If everything was different or even like it used to be, just some months ago, he wouldn't have had a problem with telling her about Gaby.
Suddenly he heard a car he could recognize from a far. Jade was parking outside his RV.
He got up and opened the door, then he got back to his bed, he knew that if she were mad she'd just storm in anyway.
In a minute or so, he heard a knock on the door, which was, in itself, very odd.
"Beck? Are you in there?" She said.
"Come in Jade," Beck said, and, as she walked in, he could see her worried and sorry face. He was actually shocked, he expected her to enter the RV yelling at him.
"Beck, we need to talk," Jade said slowly approaching his bed.
"I know Jade, I think we just can't…" she interrupted him right there and said:
"Stop, please just hear me out," and took a place beside him and started to talk.
"I know we haven't had the best of relationships, in fact I know that the thing that has kept us together is our friendship not our love," she paused for a bit.
"I also know that I have been really jealous of you since we started but my insecurities have grown and I feel I'm out of control," she sighed heavily before continuing, worried that she might not be able to explain her feelings properly, but her boyfriend was listening with attention, he was there for her.
"Beck, I've been doubtful of our relationship for a while now. I know I love you I just don't know if I'm still in love with you. The thing is that even though I'm really jealous of your 'friend' what bothers me the most, is that you can't trust me at all and tell me things that go on in your life," she took his hands in hers and continued. "I'm your girlfriend Beck, where did our trust in each other go?
I'm going to confess something that happened here last week. While you were at the store, I picked up your phone and read some of your messages with Gaby," she dropped her face to her lap and waited for him to say something.
"I…Well… I…I guess that you didn't trust me either… and that drove you to take that extreme measure," he paused. "Don't get me wrong I'm pretty mad at you for that, but I can understand why you did it," She looked up surprised Beck didn't go all mental on her for it.
"I have been messaging Gaby for over a month now, I didn't tell you because… I honestly like when we get along and we were doing so good. I didn't want to make you jealous or hurt you by going behind your back. Gaby it's just a friend and nothing was going on."
By this time Jade had realized that both of them had been feeling like this, that they love and care for each other but their relationship had ended and she started silently crying.
God, I hate this. She is so beautiful and fragile, just with me. I don't want to lose her.
"Beck, I think that we are both afraid of losing the good things we have, but maybe we should just realize that all the good things we share make us friends, not a couple," Jade finally said looking straight at his eyes and letting a very relieving breath out.
"I think that you are right Jade. It hurts, because I know I love you and I don't want to lose you, but maybe if we keep pretending we are in love there will be no more love to have, even as friends," he said squeezing their hands.
"So, we are done. Hmm?" she said smiling sadly but somehow at ease.
"I guess we are, but I need you to promise me that you won't put walls around us. We are friends, I do love you and I don't ever want to lose you," Beck said firmly, sharing a look with her big blue eyes he had once, called his.
"Only if you promise the same, and that you will let me know when I need to change or if I'm getting out of control. I actually love that about you. You can call me on my bullshit and I always listen," Jade sincerely smiled at his now friend.
"A promise is a promise…" Beck started. "…And we'll seal it with a kiss," Jade ended.
They gave each other their last sweet kiss and hugged.
Author's Note:
I know this story is complete but, how about a simple ":)" or a ":(", to show me if you liked it or not. Everything is welcomed, good luck and until the next chapter.
