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The Winchester's didn't even need to knock on Elba's front door before it was hauled open in front of them.

Before them stood a furious-looking Elba, her eyes red and sore, with tear tracks that streaked her porcelain face.

She was gazing at them angrily, her arm propping herself up against the door. Sam narrowed his eyes at her? "Are you…. are you drunk?" he asked.

"We've been gone like a half hour?" said Dean incredulously as Sam pushed his way past her into her little apartment.

She swayed slightly as her arm broke contact with the door.

Sam snatched up a half drunk bottle of vodka from the table. "All your money goes on food and clothes, does it?" he said shaking his head.

Elba scowled. "Don't you dare lecture me, Sam Winchester!" she said loudly. "You were the ones who lied to me."

Dean shook his head. "I know, Elba honey, were-"

She turned on him, a furious look upon her face. "Don't you dare Dean. Don't honey me. When were you going to tell me that he was still alive? Huh?"

Elba stared hard into Dean's eyes. The elder Winchester, rubbed his face with his hand. "Look we found him, but he wasn't the Cas you knew-" he began but Elba cut across him sharply.

"I loved him!" she cried stepping forward, squaring up to Dean. "I loved him Dean. But as usual it always has to be about you."

Dean's demeanour hardened slightly, he lowered his chin. "Fine! You want to go and see him, then we'll take you there. Take you to see just how messed up he is," he yelled. "But for the record I was just trying to protect you. I saw how you were with him at the end. You told me you barely recognised him anymore. That he was obsessed with consuming those souls and becoming the new God. I just didn't want to see you hurtin' like you were back then."

Elba's lip trembled but her eyes remained fixed on Dean, even when silent tears rolled down her cheeks.

"I have to see him Dean," she said her voice breaking.

Dean blinked heavily before pulling her towards him into a tight embrace. He chanced a glanced over at Sam who was chewing his lip.

"Come on," uttered Sam as the pair finally pulled away. "Let's get you sobered up and we can drive to the hospital."

Elba nodded as the younger Winchester headed into the kitchen to get the angel a large glass of water.


"Well, here we are," said Dean as the Impala came to a halt outside a tall building, its façade filled with tiny windows. He turned in his seat to look at the blonde angel.

Elba was staring out of the car window and into the dark treeline beyond the hospital fence. She looked as though any moment she was going to make a run for it.

"Elba?" said Dean, causing her to jump and turn her head violently towards him. "We're here."

She nodded and gave a small sniff but didn't move.

Dean glanced up at his brother. "Sammy will you give us a minute."

Sam let out an annoyed sigh before exiting the car.

Dean waited until Sam slammed the door shut behind him before he spoke.

"El, sweetheart, you don't have to this," he muttered, his body twisted around to face her in the seat.

She lifted her eyes and her gaze met his. "I have to Dean."

Dean's eyes fell to lap for a moment before he lifted his gaze towards her once again. "Do you remember what you said to me, when Cas was off on his mission, killing all those people?" Elba stared up at Dean sadly. "You said that you couldn't love him anymore. Not after he abandoned you…. forgot about you."

Elba slowly nodded, tears spilling from her eyes.

"He just left me Dean," she said sadly, tilting her head, "and I've just got to know why."

"I know," uttered the ender Winchester with a nod, biting his cheek.

Elba turned and reached for the door handle, making to get out of the Impala, but she paused. "I don't love him," she said glancing up at Dean. "Not now. Not anymore. But I've just…. I've got to see him…"


The building was dark and cold inside. Dean and Sam walked either side of Elba, both brandishing weapons which swung from their arms.

Elba wiped her tear tracked cheeks with her sleeve. All these human emotions were getting the better of her. Part of her wished she had never come to earth, never found herself part of these human's lives. But where would she be without them? Probably being ordered around and intimidated by the higher angels up in Heaven. She remembered the fear that she felt surrounded by the likes of Michael and in contrast how warm and comforting Dean's embrace had been earlier. The only other person she had felt warmth like that from was Castiel, but the memory of how he had betrayed her, stabbed through her like a knife.

They turned a corner and found themselves in a brightly lit dayroom filled with soft chairs and small tables. A space had been cleared in the corner of the room, where a large Twister mat was now spread.

"He's here," said Elba gazing around and coming to a halt in the centre of the room.

The Winchester's peered around just as a sudden voice came from behind them.

"Hello Winchesters…"

"Hello Meg," said Dean gritting his teeth, as they all swung around to face the female demon.

"Oh, I see you've brought Cas' ex along," she said in a mocking tone. "Trying to pull out the big guns to get him to come with you?"

Elba almost snarled in fury, striding forward, past the two brothers, to come face to face with the demon before her. "Where is he?" she growled.

"Well hold your horses there Tweety-Bird-" Meg began before Elba snapped across her.

"Tell me where he is or I'll rip you limb from limb," she said dangerously.

Meg's eyes narrowed. "Oh, I don't think you'll be doing that, the word from my Unicorn is that you've lost your mojo and I could snap your neck before you could even try and stop me."

Elba paused for a moment before smiling at Meg. "You're right," she said in a deadly voice. "My grace is gone. I can do nothing to you. But that doesn't mean they can't."

She gestured to the Winchester's behind her who she knew were hiding weapons of various size and calibre all about their persons.

She saw Meg's eyes twitch, eyeing up the two boys.

"No one will lay a hand on Meg," came a sudden voice.

Elba swung around. Her heart pounding furiously in her chest.

Castiel.

There he was. Just there. After all this time.

Elba felt tears once again flowing from her eyes. She was so torn. He was her Castiel, the one she had followed, devoted her existence to but he had betrayed her. Abandoned her. And here he was, defending that demon.

"Castiel," said Elba, taking a step forward. "It's me."

Castiel's eyes were suddenly on her. He frowned. "I'm sorry? Have we met?"

Elba's lip quivered.

"Cas, this is Elba," said Dean gesturing to her. "Remember?"

Castiel narrowed his eyes at her, tilting his head to the side. "Yes, Elba… I… I think I remember now." He looked over at Meg uncertainly.

Elba glanced between the two of them, shaking her, so confused at the situation.

She turned on Meg. "What have you done to him?"

Meg smirked and folded her arms across her chest. "I didn't do anything to him, sweetie," she said. "Clarence here is just recovering."

Elba scowled, shifting past Meg and moving over towards Castiel.

"Cas-" she began, as the male angel suddenly reached out towards her, gripping her shoulders tightly.

Elba looked up desperately into his eyes, hoping he could see her, remember her, remember the time they had spent together.

He smiled down at her, blinking heavily, before taking a deep breath and speaking.

"Elba…. Would you like to play Twister with me?"


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