I lay on the bed in the hotel painting my nails as Dean talked to Castiel on the phone. I mostly tuned him out but I caught a bit about trying to find the colt. "So what was that all about? We're going to try and find the colt?" I asked when he got off the phone.

"Yeah, Cas still thinks trying to kill the devil is stupid, but he thinks he knows where the gun is. He's going to stop by tomorrow."

"Oh ok."

"Aren't you tired?" He asked.

"Yeah, I'll be there in a bit. My nails aren't dry." He nodded. Really, I'd been avoiding sleeping as much as possible since a few nights ago when I'd had that dream about Sam. I waited until I was sure Dean was asleep before I went to bed. I had just dozed off when I heard Dean's phone ring. I thought about answering it since I was awake but I really didn't want to move, my whole body was exhausted. I managed to fall into a deep sleep before Dean even answered the call.

When I woke up everything was bright and sunny. I groaned and rolled over only to discover the bed I was lying on was just springs. I hopped up quickly. "Dean? Where are we?"

"I don't know."

The two of us stood up and walked out the door. Everything was covered either covered in graffiti or broken. The sound of glass breaking caught my attention and Dean and I walked around the building to check it out. There was a little girl holding a teddy bear digging through the trash. "Hello?" Dean called. "Little girl?" there was no answer. "The not talking thing is kinda creepy." Then she turned and we saw her face. Her mouth was smeared with blood and her eyes looked crazy, she lunged at us. Dean pushed me ahead of him. "Run!" More people joined the little girl chasing after us.

I ran until I came to a chain link fence. There were tanks and they shot over my head at my pursuers, Dean grabbed my arm and pulled me into an ally where we were hidden. We stayed there crouched in the corner until nightfall.

"Come on," Dean said quietly. I followed him to the fence and he broke us out. He grabbed the first car we saw and hotwired it. I turned to read the sign on the fence. "Containment: Croatan virus, August 1st 2014." I hopped in the car with Dean and we drove down the road.

"Croatan virus hits Australia," someone said from the back seat. I whipped around to see another one of those loser angels.

"Zachariah, why am I not surprised?" Dean asked.

"Maybe because you know I'll always get my way," Zachariah said.

"Haha ok. You've had your fun, now send us back."

"No can do, you have to stay here. Take a nice look around. You too witch, we're counting on you to make sure Dean does the right thing."

"I think our definitions of the right thing are a little different," I said.

"We'll see. You have three days." And then he was gone.

"I'm really tired of people referring to me as 'witch'," I grumbled.

OoOoO

I had dozed off in the car and when I woke up we were pulling up outside some place called Camp Chitaqua. "Did you stop at Bobby's?"

"Yeah and he wasn't there so now we're here," Dean said.

"Where's here exactly?" I asked looking around.

"We're about to find out."

We walked around the perimeter of the gate covertly until Dean saw the Impala and took off. "Dean!" I hissed. Before I had a chance to get his attention again another guy, another Dean, stepped up behind him and hit him over the head.

I followed them to a cabin and leaned against the window trying to listen in. I heard Dean explain how we got here.

"If you're me then tell me something only I would know," future Dean said.

"Um…Rhonda Hurley, she made us try on her panties. They were pink and satiny and we kinda liked it," Dean said. I couldn't contain my laughter and fell on the step.

"…And now Sarah knows too," Dean said.

"Sarah?" Future Dean asked stepping outside. I looked up and before I got the chance to say anything he had pulled me up and kissed me. He held me for a minute before letting me go.

"Whoa, dude that's my girlfriend!" Dean said from inside.

"Sarah, I haven't seen you in so long." Future Dean brushed a piece of blonde hair back from my face.

"Am I…am I dead now?" I asked.

"I think so but…I don't know. You chose Lucifer over me; I haven't seen you since then."

"I did that? Why would I-"

"He was pretty convincing."

"Can someone please untie me?" Dean asked from inside.

"No. I can't have some messed up version of parent trap wondering around." He paused and looked at me. "You should stay here too, people know what you did. If they saw you wondering around they'd just assume the worst."

"Yeah you're right."

"I'll be back," he said nodding at Dean. He looked at me for a minute before kissing me again. I watched him walk off before going inside the cabin.

"Um, a little help here?" Dean asked motioning to his handcuffs.

"Right." I picked the lock with a nail and let him go.

"Is it bad that I'm jealous of future me?" Without even waiting for my answer he kept going, "And you kept kissing him!"

"I'm sorry! He's sexy, mysterious, and what's that word you use to describe me? Irresistible? He's you. That's all it is." He didn't look entirely convinced so I leaned in and kissed him. "Believe me now?" I asked. He smiled, grabbed my hand and led me out of the building. He got noticed by Chuck but I managed to hide behind a crate. I followed them to another cabin with smoke coming out of the top. Dean went inside and I snuck onto the back porch until the girls inside left, leaving just Dean and future Castiel. I opened the door and went in. It was smoky inside and I coughed drawing Castiel's attention.

"Sarah?" He looked surprised.

"Hey you," I said awkwardly. "So um can you get us back to 2009?"

"I lost all my wings. I'm just a human now. Sorry buddies."

"Are you high?" I asked.

"Yup."

OoOoO

Later Dean and I were walking along the compound avoiding people until we came along future Dean who had just shot one of his own men in the head.

"What was that?" Dean asked stepping out of the shadows. The rest of the soldier gaped at him.

"Damn it," future Dean said. "Look men this situation is complicated. I think its best I handle this alone."

I followed them into the empty headquarters still staying hidden. "I'm glad one of you actually listened to what I said," future Dean said.

I stepped into the room. "Well I did break him out and go see Cas with him. But I listened to what you said. I just didn't care."

Future Dean laughed. "I should've known. You're exactly the same as I remember you."

"If you would stop trying to put the moves on my girlfriend we could get to work on trying to get me out of here," Dean said.

"She's my girlfriend too," future Dean said.

"No she was your girlfriend, you let her go. I don't plan on doing that any time soon."

"It wasn't that simple."

"You know what? It doesn't even matter," I said. "Can we just drop it?"

"What was your mission today anyways?" Dean asked.

Future Dean pulled the Colt out of his pocket. "Tonight I'm going to kill the devil."

OoOoO

That night the whole group was in the headquarters getting ready to head out, to kill the devil.

Future Dean put his arm around me and Dean glared at him. Some girl walked in and stopped when she saw me. "Oh. You're back. Well you can have him, he's a dick."

I choked back a laugh. "So how do we know where Lucifer is?" I asked.

"We captured a demon last week, he told us where Lucifer would be," future Dean told me.

"You want us to just march into a building, past all the demons not to mention the Croats, and shoot the devil?" future Castiel asked.

"Yes. Are you coming?"

"Of course, but why is he?" He gestured to Dean. "He's you five years ago what if something happens to him, you'll be gone."

"He'll be fine," I said. "We have Zachariah watching out for us." After everyone dispersed to get load up I stopped future Dean. "Why are you taking us with you? I know Zach will save us but you aren't the kind of person to take chances."

"There's something the two of you need to see, Sam."

"You said he was dead," Dean said.

"No, he said 'yes' but he might as well be dead. And now we don't have a choice I have to kill the devil. Dean, when you go back, fix this."

"How?"

"Say 'yes', if I could go back and do it all over I'd say yes. But it's too late now the angels are gone."

"No way, there's got to be another way," Dean said.

"That's what I thought, but this is where I ended up. Sarah, please, make him see that this is what he has to do."

I stared at him for a second without saying anything. "I don't know if I can do that, it's his choice."

OoOoO

I ended up in the truck with future Dean and Risa. We rode in absolute silence until we pulled up outside the building, and then we were all business. Future Dean stopped me. "Wait in the truck."

"You aren't letting me go in?" I asked confused.

"You're going in with me and well me, when it's safe."

I sat in the car patiently waiting, flicking a leaf in the air with magic aimlessly. I jumped out of the car bored, I could be patient but only for so long. Now I just needed to move. I rounded the end of the car to see Dean totally knocked out lying in the garden about twenty feet away being held down by someone. I ran towards him and realized that this was future Dean. He looked at me and our eyes met and he whispered, "I love you," before the man in the white suit broke his neck. I staggered back, wanting to get away. Not wanting to look at Dean, dead on the ground. I backed right into my 2009 Dean and he wrapped his arms around me protectively.

The man in the white suit turned around, the Devil wearing Sam's face. "Oh. Hello, Dean." He paused and looked at me. "Sarah?" It took me a moment to realize that he wasn't talking to me. A blonde girl walked out and smiled sadly.

"I've wanted to talk to you for ages. Can we talk in private?" she asked offering me her hand. I took it and she led me to a quieter area of the garden. When we stopped I studied her. She was me, but at the same time so obviously not me. Dean's doppelganger was virtually a copy of the Dean I knew. But this Sarah was something else, she was empty; a beautiful ghost, nothing more than a shell.

"What happened to me?" I asked more to myself than to her.

She looked around her. "Life did. Sarah, I don't have much time, there's something I need to tell you."

"Are you going to tell me I need to convince Dean to say 'yes' to Michael? Because I've already heard it."

"No, just the opposite actually…listen it will be easier if I just explain. I messed up," she said.

"You picked the side you thought would win and stuck with him, looks like you were right," I said.

"No, you don't get it. I didn't choose Sam because of Lucifer, I chose Sam because he asked me to. The way you feel about Dean now, is the way I feel about Sam. That love that goes so deep that you think you'll never get away from it. You'll feel it too, or maybe you won't." She paused and shook her head. "My mistake was looking at the boys like they were on two sides; Sam vs Dean, Lucifer vs Michael, Evil vs Good. However you want to look at it, it's wrong. They're on the same side, when Sam asked me to choose him I should've said no. I should've made Dean take Sam back but I didn't, I left. Now look at me, look at everything around me. I know a lot of things happened; a lot of choices were made, for the world to end up like this. But you can change that! Make the Winchesters stick together. Even if you never love Sam like I do, just do this to save the world. I still love Sam, but that monster took him from me and I'll never get him back."

She looked over her shoulder and back at me quickly. "I've got to go." She turned and started walking in the opposite direction from the one we came in. "I never meant for this to happen."

I turned back to the path I had taken to get there and found Dean. He grabbed me and I felt someone touch my forehead. When I opened my eyes I was back in my hotel room still wrapped in Dean's arms. I couldn't hold back the tears anymore and I found myself sobbing in Dean's arms as he stood there talking to Zachariah. The more I cried the more I was able to transmit my energy to Dean, everything I had heard future Sarah say to me about needing to reunite Sam and Dean was projected from my mind to his.

And then next thing I knew I was standing in the cold. I opened my eyes to see a dark road. Castiel stood there next to me and Dean. He touched my arm, the most human gesture I'd seen him make and I felt the urge to cry more and I hugged Castiel who didn't have any idea what to do with a sobbing witch.

I heard Dean dialing on his phone. "What are you doing?" Castiel asked him, tentatively putting an arm around me.

"Something I should've done a while ago."

OoOoO

I leaned against a bridge the next morning, glad to have finally put the waterworks away. A car pulled up next to me and Sam got out. "Hey," I said smiling.

"That's all I get? I haven't seen you in a month and all I get is 'hey'?" Sam asked. I hugged him, promising myself to fling myself over the bridge if I started crying again.

"It's good to see you again Sammy," Dean said patting him on the shoulder. I stepped away from Sam and stood next to Dean.

"What made you change your mind?" Sam asked.

Dean and I shared a long look. "It's a complicated story. Let's just say, I know that we're each other's weakness but family is more important than anything."

"So what do we do now?" Sam asked.

"We rewrite the future, one page at a time," I said looking into the distance remembering the way future me had looked when she talked about Sam, that broken and lonely look, and I was determined to not let that happen. I wanted to spare that poor girl from being shattered like that, spare me from being shattered like that. I'll do whatever it takes.