Bella's POV:
I didnt stop him when he leaned down and kissed me. I didn't stop him when he kissed me with desire, holding me in his arms; His warm arms warming me inside and out. "Jacob" I gasped against his lips, but I never pulled away. I couldn't get enough of him. I never wanted the moment to end...and it almost seemed as if Jake didnt want it to end either.
"You're so silly Bella.." He whispered against my lips as he continued to kiss me. "You are my imprint." I didn't pull away. I didn't dare to pull away.
Instead, I wrapped my arms around his neck and sighed; enjoying my sun, my warmth...
"I can't love anyone else, Bella." Jake whispered. " I only see you."
"Take me away from here, Jake. I want to be with you. I don't want these problems anymore." I felt Jake's hand gently press against my hair, his fingers still gently playing in my locks.
"One day, Bella.. "
I looked at him, and waited... waited for him to run, to question.
"Do you believe me, Jake?" I whispered, glancing at him. "That I love you...that I want only you. No one else?" I hesitated. "Because, I can't live without you."
He semmed pleased at this.
"Either can I."
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Jacob's POV:
I couldn't stop kissing her, and she wasn't stopping me. So, I continued, determined to do so until she pushed me away, willing me to cease. "Jacob" she inhaled against my lips, only making me want her even more. I kissed her again, before pulling away for a second to speak, "You're so silly Bella." I stated, grinning, before pressing my lips to hers again. "You are my imprint." I clarified, before kissing her again. She then wrapped her short arms just around my neck, setting her body even closer against mine.
"I can't love anyone else, Bella." I whispered. "I only see you." I repeated myself, setting my forehead to hers, trying to get her to remember my words.
"Take me away from here, Jake. I want to be with you. I don't want these problems anymore." she looked deep into my eyes, the brown shining brightly in the dim light that seeped in threw the window.
I rubbed fingers in her hair, playing with the soft silkiness it held. I couldn't take her away, not now, Charlie needed her to badly for me to take her way now. And this would all be too soon, what would everyone think? "One day, Bella." I promised.
I remained looking into her eyes, trying to read every thought she had in her pretty little head.
"Do you believe me, Jake?" she asked, her eyes searching both of mine. "That I love you. .that I want only you. No one else?" she stated firmly. So serious I couldn't help but believe it. "Because, I cant live without you." she finished, her words solum and final. I smiled happily, knowing now that she was truthful. "Either can I." I replied.
I untangled my hands from her hair, and wrapped them around her small frame, pulling her into a hug. I kissed the top of her head, breathing in the sent of her familiar strawberry shampoo.
"We still need to figure out how this is going to work." I spoke into her hair. "Do you have a plan on how you are going to break this to Edward? I'll come with you, if you want. Or I can stay here, if you think it'd be better if you did it alone." I explained, pulling her away at arms distance, only to see her expression.
"Whatever you want, whatever you think is best, I'll do." I said hunching over so I was at her eye level. I loved her height. I loved everything about her.
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Bella's POV:
I stared at Jacob in horror. Have him come along with me to tell Edward? Or ...even the thought of me facing Edward alone...telling him that I chose Jacob. Could I stand the pain...the sight of his face crumbling with sadness.
I hated myself.
What was I doing?
I was putting myself back into my rut. I loved them both. I knew my face spoke first, and Jacob glared at me. He could read the confusion.
Perhaps he was angry now, because he knew that I couldn't face Edward.
Alone or with him.
"Do you plan to tell Edward, Bella?"
"I have to...don't I?" I whispered, glaring back at him. It wasn't fair to lead anyone on.
"Don't bother." He growled, pushing me away. This hurt more than I thought it would. Not because of his strength, but because of how emotionally linked I was to him.
How I wanted him for myself so much.
"You already are planning on marrying him, Bella. You can't just cancel because of me..." I looked at him confused.
Didn't he want this? Didn't he want me to pick him?
Was I too late?
"Jacob..."
"Bells, as much as I want this..." He gestured at the space between us. "I can't promise you..."
"You hypocrite!" I shouted angrily. He wanted to play this game? "You...you liar!"
"How am I a liar?" He snapped, glaring at me. "I'm not the one who can't choose between two people here."
"Its not so easy, Jacob."
"It wasn't just so easy to let you kiss me either, Bella." His words were true. I knew I was just hurting him...and myself.
"Jacob, if you were to imprinted on another girl... you would feel like you would have to chose between her and I."
"No Bella...that's where you're wrong." He sighed, shaking his head. "There wouldn't be a choice."
He was right. Once he was imprinted, he was with her. Forever.
I shook my head, looking down at my feet. We were impossible.
"Bella, I love you." He said, grabbing my elbows and cradling my cheek in his large, warm hand. "I love you. I wish you were mine. I wish... I knew all the answers, but I don't have them. I'm always going to feel like Edward...is going to come in between us.. He's always...going to be looming in the shadows."
"Take me away then."
I dashed all thoughts of Edward from my mind and lifted myself to my tippy-toes and kissed his jaw, slowly grazing his chin and then my lips covered his. I felt him shiver and then give in to me.
"Jacob..." I gasped against his lips. "Will you take me as I am or not?"
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Jacob's POV:
The look on her face said enough. I didn't need anymore closer then that. "Do you plan to tell Edward, Bella?", my voice turned ridged as I glared at her.
"I have to . .don't I?", her tone was rough as well, angering me further. "Don't bother." I growled, pushing her away softly, not wanting to hurt her, despite my fury. I could feel the rage building, but I fought to control it.
"You're already are planning on marrying him, Bella. You can't just cancel because of me." I said, as calmly as possible. "Jacob . ."she began, looking away from me for only a moment.
I decided to interrupt her and try from a different angel, making sure she'd see things from all sides, so if she i did /i end up making a final decision tonight, she'd know all the consequences.
"Bells, as much as I want this . ."-I gestured to the gap between us.- "I can't promise you..." but before I finished it was she who interrupted me.
"You hypocrite!", she yelled, my eyes widened in slight shock."You . .you liar!", she shouted. My eyebrow raised in confusion, "How am I a liar?", I snapped back. "I'm not the one who can't choose between two people here" I used the situation against her.
"Its not so easy, Jacob." she shook her head, closing her eyes for a moment. "It wasn't just so easy to let you kiss me either, Bella.", I pointed out. If it were up to me, as much as I wanted it, I wouldn't have let it happen. Not if she'd end up walking out of here like I feared she'd do now.
"Jacob, if you were to imprinted on another girl . .you would feel like you would have to chose between her and I." she said, trying to make a point out of a dead theory.
"No Bella. That's where you're wrong." I sighed."There wouldn't be a choice." As harsh as it sounded, it was true. If it i did /i happen, the girl, my imprint, would be my main focus, Bella would be shoved aside against my will, maybe even forgotten and there would be nothing I could do about it.
But, as far as I was concerned, Bella was my imprint. There was no one else for me. She was it, and I was going to keep it that way as long as I could.
"Bella, I love you." I said, reaching out for her elbow, pulling her close enough to grasp her cheek in my palm. "I love you. I wish you were mine. I wish . .I knew all the answers, but I don't have them. I'm always going to feel like Edward . .is going to come in between us. He's always . .going to be looming in the shadows." I said, dropping my hand to take hers.
"Take me away then." she said with a sense of finality, as if it were that easy. But before I could manage a reply all thoughts were lost to the feeling of her lips at my jaw, trailing kisses toward my lips. My whole frame quivered, shacking away my feelings of rage and I gave into her kiss.
"Jacob..." she whispered, her lips still on mine. "Will you take me as I am or not?" I was taken aback by her question. Setting my hands on her shoulders I pulled her way, looking her in both eyes, "I wouldn't have you any other way." I explained. "But, a choice needs to be made, Bella. It's that leech, or it's me. There is no both." I continued to examine her expression.
"He may be to much of a coward to have you choose, but I'm not. Him or I. What's it going to be?" I went silent, bracing myself for the worst.
