Chapter 3
Andy's P.O.V
(Andy's Dream)
"Andy come on she won't find out. Just come on, it will be fun." Victoria breathed in my face, trying to be seductive, but her breath smelt of tooth paste and mint gum.
"I can't I lov-"
"Shhhh. She won't know Andy; besides how long has it been, 3 or 4, maybe 5 months since? Come on you know you want to." She forced her lips upon mine.
"Victoria! I can-"She cut me off by pushing me back onto the couch and sitting in my lap," I can't I love Meagan. I don't care if she wants to wait, I will wait for her." She pushed me back and forced her tongue into my mouth. I fought until I just gave in. The next thing I knew, she is pulling my shirt off.
I woke up panting, a puddle of sweat surrounding me. I was in my own bed again, the gauze was stripped off and all twenty-five scares were visible. Each cut was deep, very deep. I ran my fingers over the slightly healed cuts, they were rough. Each one represented one thing I did wrong that hurt Meagan.
"Meagan! That's how I got here! I was at her house, and Mason punched me square in the fucking nose!" I thought to myself," That kiss. Those sweet few moments of heaven, she let me back in. She still loves me."
"She still loves me." I whispered. As I heard the door open Ashley, Jinxx, and CC walked into the room. They all looked at me like I was some two year old pre-K kid that just pissed the bed. Which, I wasn't sure if I had or not. No, I didn't still dry.
"How are you feeling bud? The slicing, and dicing, and not to mention the punch to the face." Jinxx chuckled. There was no one laughing in the room. "Well, guess not…"
I just laid there, I didn't want to speak or listen to anyone. I just wanted to lay here and die; I wish Ashley would have never found me. Well, he would have found me eventually, lying on the floor, in a puddle of my own lukewarm blood, razor blade still in my fingertips, barely holding on to reality as I would have watched my body lay there as my soul would have gotten dragged away to hell.
"How is everybody?" I looked at the ceiling as I just wanted everybody to leave.
Jinxx sighed, "Well, since the tour is canceled, I have been eating a hole in the fucking wall, seriously it's like I'm high all of the time." He bit into a piece of toast, "You see what I mean? Seriously, it's getting on my nerves."
"Then don't eat, duh." CC rolled his eyes, "Dumbass."
"Speaking of food, I'm sort of hungry." I pulled the cover off, revealing my scares; this was going to be fun covering for the next 6 months. All the guys in the room stood the gawking at my arms, "Get out, let me take a shower and I'll be down in about 45 minutes. K?"
"K." They all said at the same time as they slammed the door. It made my teeth rattle, damn I was weak.
I walked to my bathroom and pulled my clothes off, turned on the shower and stared at myself in the mirror while the water heated up.
"How many needles did they put into me?" I asked myself," Damn I look like I just rose from the dead."
I examined the scabs, and counted each one of them, 25, the higher the number rose the deeper the cuts were on both of my arms. They all felt sensitive to the light, but it was sort of a good feeling.
Steam began to fog up the mirror. So, I stepped into the shower and the hot water burned my fragile scabs. I just stood there with my face turned up and my eyes shut, the water found its way into my nose and down into my lungs. I coughed back up the water and bent over making sure all of my hair was wet. I washed my hair and conditioned it, like I normally do. I grabbed the bottle of Old Spice Swagger off the shelf and poured in onto my arms, that was a huge mistake. It burned worse than breaking my nose hurt. Now that was pain, not to mention the time I fell off stage.
I washed the rest of my body, turned off the water and opened the shower door. The cool air hit me and my body cringed. I bit my lip as I stepped onto the tile floor and opened the cabinet to get a towel.
"Fuck." I sighed; there were no towels, so I get to run to the laundry room naked. It's not like all the dudes in the house hasn't seen my anatomy, so I opened the bathroom door and took off down the hallway to the laundry room.
"Hey guys!" I shouted as I stopped in the living room, "There were no towels so!"
CC and Jake looked up at the same time and looked away instantly, "Put some damn clothes on!" CC hid behind a pillow.
Ashley walked in behind me and dropped a bowl of milk and Froot Loops, "Dude you have a lady ass."
"You think? I have no ass." I laughed as I walked into the laundry room and came out with a towel.
"That's better." CC came out from behind the pillow, "Just another day in the life of Andy Biersack."
"Well, I am going to get dressed. Then I will come and eat." I walked back into my room and sighed," Life is going to be horrible."
I walked into my bathroom and saw a pair of scissors on the counter, "You know, time for a change."
Meagan's P.O.V
"Mason can we go do something?" I sat down in his lap with a bowl of ravioli in my hand, "Pweazzzzz?"
He smiled, "Yes, of course we can baby, do you want to go to the park or something, or we could go take a shower….?" Mason smirked.
I smiled, "You know I actually would like that." I sat down my cereal, "Carry me bitch!"
He picked me up bridal style, "Alright, but I'm not going completely uncovered." He winked.
"Oh me either, when I took a shower with Andy we weren't." I laughed as I jumped and bounded up the stairs right into the bathroom. I hopped into the shower and pulled my shirt off, keeping on my bra and track shorts.
"Keep your boxers on!" I turned the water on to a hot temperature. I stood there running my hands through my hair, next thing I know, Mason has pulled me against his bare chest and into a kiss.
"I love you." He whispered into my ear," I have since I was 14."
I wanted to say I love you back, but I couldn't it has only been a few days since I found out, "You know I want to tell you I love you back but I just can't not yet."
"You just did." He smiled as he pushed his lips on mine and asked for entrance I let his tongue in. It wasn't as great as my kiss with Andy. I loved those few moments; I hate him so much for leaving me.
Andy, I love him so much, I wish I was with him right now, but I need to get over it and be with Mason. STOP thinking about Andy! What did I say? STOP SAYING HIS NAME! Okay, He Who Shall Not Be Named, yes that was a good name. Why am I mentally fighting with myself? STOP.
"I want you." Mason whispered into my ear as he kissed my neck.
"No, not yet Mason, please understand me."
"I understand you loud and clear baby."
Back to Andy's P.O.V
I looked at the hair in the sink, more than six inches of hair, sitting in the sink. Hair I have been growing for years. Now it was all gone. I looked up into the mirror.
"Looks good." Ashley smiled from the doorway," Andy, why did you cheat on her? It would have prevented all of this."
I shook my head," Broski, honestly I don't know. Victoria is just a whore and that sex didn't mean anything to me at all. I wish I could erase it, but maybe it was a good thing, maybe it was a message that me and Meagan need to grow as people."
"So what I'm hearing is that it was heat of the moment, huh?"
"Yeah basically, so you like my hair?" I pulled my bangs into my face I couldn't bear cutting my bangs, and smiled a big cheesy smile.
"Dude, it looks good. Like really good."
"Thanks, I like it."
"Andy, I think you should go on a date." Ashley shrugged," I mean it would help you get your mind off of all of this drama and everything."
"Maybe in a couple of days, I think I will." I smiled," I might just do that tomorrow. Toss me my cell?"
He threw my phone to me and I dialed a number. Dialing those numbers hurt me at first, I wished it was Meagan I was calling instead, "Hey Morgan. Yeah it's Andy, so I was thinking, do you want to go out tomorrow, maybe to the café down on 3rd street?... Great I'll pick you up at 4 o'clock. Alright bye."
"Someone's got a date!" Ashley smiled," Dude you got all them bitches knocking down your door."
I rolled my eyes and logged onto Twitter, I was amazed at how many people tweeted to me.
Andy why was the tour canceled? I was so ready to hear you.
Andrew, I wish you a happy recovery, I heard about you tripping over a cord and getting a concussion.
I love you! Hope you get better!
That's what they told them? I have a concussion? Great. Another lie in my life.
I got tired after three of this so I tweeted,"Hey guys, sorry about the tour. I have a concussion and I wasn't able to perform. Love you all. You guys rock."
I locked my phone screen and walked down stairs to the kitchen, " CC order pizza?" He looked up from his phone and his jaw dropped, "What happened to your hair?"
"Like I told Ashley, it was time for a change, now that pizza?"
"Righttttttttttt." CC called the pizza place and ordered a pepperoni pizza.
"You guys, I have something to tell you." Ashley stepped in front of the TV and smiled.
"I'm….." He smiled, "Gay."
"HA. Just fucking with you." Ashley doubled over with laughter.
I walked over to him and hit him with a frying pan, "Don't ever do that again."
"Shit that hurt!"
I laughed and smiled it was good to be feeling better now, but I just wish I knew if Meagan was okay or not.
