OK. i know everyone wants an explination for the HUGE delay and i hope you belive me when i say i had to move...so my mom took away my computer...BYEBYE COMPUTER:Tears: QQ.well now i have it back and i can continue with this...even though it's a piece of shit story that only has imagination and creativity that will never do any good in the reakl world...fics are just for your writting skills that 'bout it.. Thanks to Zeldagamefan I will continue writing this because she likes it XD so thank her for cheering me on. Oh, yea...Just for your information, I'm a little depressed so I'm going to make this chappy Angst. Well enjoy my young ppl. Also I'm feeling lonely so don't expect this to be happy. But expect sadness and self-hatred! . WOOT! Also I might have allotted of smut in the next chap if I get really hot and salty reviews:wink wink: -
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I Am EMOtionally Unstable
CH. 4
Ichigo's Point Of View is in Italics.
Ichigo would be back when his job was done...
Ichigo walked to his house to get his things that he needed to go and fix Orihime's house leek. He grabbed some roofing tiles out of the garage and then a hammer, nails, and patches to plug the hole inside. Isshin decided to drive Ichigo to Orihime's and in return get a quarter of his payment. Ichigo scoffed and then got into the car. On the way to Orihime's Isshin didn't seem too comfortable. He kept fidgeting and moving in his seat as the music played from the radio.
Ichigo shrugged it off and continued to look out the window thinking of Uryuu, of what he was doing, where he was, if he was thinking about Ichigo too. Ichigo's train of thought was cut off when Isshin abruptly stopped in front of Orihime's house. It had a front gate that was green with white flowers and the rest of the fence that guarded their house was white with green flowers. Ichigo walked up to awkward looking guarding posts and went through the gate, locking it back behind him.
He then strided to the front door and knocked on it. The second he did Orihime's gleaming face appeared in the door way. "Thanks for coming Ichigo. I really appreciate it and you can count on getting paid very well!" She smiled and let Ichigo go in. She closed the door and walked to the kitchen. Ichigo followed and stopped when he saw Rengi.
" Rengi? Why're you here?" Ichigo sounded confused as to the last time he seen Rengi was when...'That happened'...
" What not happy to see an old friend? And here I thought you would at least say hi?!"
"Uh, sorry...I just didn't think I'd see you here is all" Ichigo nervously rubbed the back of his neck, and then abruptly changed the subject to avoid any confrontation.
"So Orihime...Where's that uh, leak of yours?" Rengi just looked at him curiously with a confused mind, thinking what Ichigo was trying to hide. Why would he change the subject so quickly if he didn't have something to hide...Or some one? Rengi would find out soon enough.
"Well, last night I only had one in my room but now there's two right next to each other, that's why I asked for Rengi to assist you with your job!" 'What like I can't handle two leaks from a damned roof?' "Rengi was more than happy to oblige! And we thought it would be fun to see each other again!" 'Ishida isn't here so why would it be any fun...I just hope Rengi doesn't try anything...'
Ichigo was in deep thought until Rengi pushed him to move to Orihime's room. Rengi had the tool box full of all the stuff Ichigo brought with him. Once Orihime led them to her room and explained where the leaks were, she pointed at a ladder with two sides to step up on so there would be no need for two ladders to hull around, less clutter, and less complication.
Once she left the two boys to there work and closed the door so the sound of them working wouldn't bother the rest of the house, Ichigo bent down to where the toolbox sat and started rummaging through its contents.
Rengi suddenly grabbed Ichigo by his waist and spun him around to face him. Wide eyed, Ichigo tried to pull away but Rengi's grip only got tighter. "Why are you so...acting all weird, and don't give me some lame excuse" Rengi stated blankly. He wanted to know what was going on.
"It's--It's really none of your concern Rengi, now let go of me so we can get this done." Rengi didn't listen, only slid his hands to Ichigo's back and dipped his thumbs into the back of Ichigo's pants.Rengi neared his face dangerously close to Ichigo's lips. "You know I want you." Ichigo sucked in a sharp breath, but had to resist for his and Ishida's sake. 'Stop! Just push him away! You know you don't' need him anymore. You have someone that will actually be faithful and loyal to you! Tell him or something!.' "Nnn, no Rengi, I don't want this...Y-you know what you did and I will never let that go." Ichigo had a half pained, half serious look on his face. "But why? Has that ever stopped you before? Just because I had another doesn't mean that I don't want you?"
Ichigo didn't know what to say. It was true, Rengi always went back to him whether he wanted it or not, and Ichigo let him...
"Well, I will resist you this time and I won't give in to your devious ways. Now. Off." He sounded serious..
Ichigo pushed Rengi's hands down and turned away to get back to what he was supposed to be doing. Fixing the roof leak.
Ichigo went over to the ladder and put it beneath the ceiling where water still drizzled from the leak from the night before. Rengi sighed and slightly grinned. He would be able to get Ichigo to give in. Just like always. Rengi had his ways.
Rengi walked over to the ladder and while Ichigo started to dry to holes with a rag, he picked up two patches and got upon the other side of the ladder and started to climb up, but before he even took the first step, he saw that Ichigo's shirt was so loose that he could see up it. Those defined abs just made Rengi want him even more.
Rengi shook the image from his head and climbed up on the ladder to hand him the patches. "What took you so long...Next I'll need the white tape, next to the black kind." Ichigo scowled. Rengi always liked it when Ichigo scowled. It was so attractive. "Fine I'll let you do all the work..." "Well, I have to hold up the patches so more water doesn't get through, so just shut up and get the damned tape." Ah, that scowl again. "Whatever..."
Rengi stepped up the ladder with tape in hand. "Anything else, Master?" Sarcasm can be used as humor or an instigator. It just irritated Ichigo, followed by the all well to known scowl. "Just put it on here, my arms are about to fall off from holding this up so long." Rengi ripped a piece of the tape off, long enough to go across both of the patches and stuck it in the middle of them. Then ripped off a few more for good measure. Ichigo took his hands from the ceiling and helped put on the other pieces of tape with Rengi. As the last pieces of tape were put on and secured enough so that no more water could get through, they both let their tired arms fall. At that both of their faces met. Eyes upon eyes.
Ichigo was the first to look away. He furrowed his brows in frustration of what he knew Rengi would do if he looked at him any longer. Too late. Rengi reached out for Ichigo's face, but he smacked it away, annoyed that Rengi was still tiring. "You'll see Ichigo, you will be mine before this day is over and you know it." Rengi with a cocky smirk. "Like hell I'll be! I will never belong to you." Ichigo had a serious tone with that and stepped down from the ladder. Rengi just shrugged it off.
After Ichigo and Rengi received their payments from Orihime and said their goodbyes, Ichigo headed out side and started off towards Uryuu's. He started walking in at a fast pace. He was so anxious to see Ishida that he didn't notice Rengi following him. Rengi grabbed him by the arm to slow him down, almost stopping in place. "Why are you in such a hurry? And where are you going, your house is the other way?" Why would he care? "It's none of your business, now can you let go of me, for the second time today..." Rengi unhanded him but kept walking the same direction next to him.
Walking down the alley way, Rengi stepped in front of Ichigo. "So, what's the real reason?"
"What reason?! The reason why I'm over you and I'm not going to surrender? Surrender to your lies and deception? I'm tired of just being someone you can just use and abuse, then through out in the trash!" Rengi looked surprised; Ichigo didn't think that Rengi would be so struck by those words. Or maybe it was the choice of words. The truth.
Rengi's expression was stern, dominating. He then grabbed Ichigo's wrists and pushed Ichigo up against the wall behind him. Pinning Ichigo's wrists up above his head, Rengi's and Ichigo's lips collided into a violent kiss. It had no emotion, just the feeling of lust, and from Ichigo's side was nothing but hatred.
At that moment, Ishida was walking by the alley to head home or the day, half-expecting Ichigo was going to be there. It was until then that he noticed to figures standing in the alley he was passing. Paused, then realized it was Ichigo...With Rengi kissing him! There, in that split-second, Ishida's whole world crashed before his very own eyes. His heart shattered to pieces. Emotion attacking him like a wild animal. Then only sadness into his eyes. Tears began to form as he bolted off into a river of self hatred. Knowing there was one way to comfort his bleeding heart...Pain.
Ichigo writhed under Rengi's weight aganst him and struggled to get free until Rengi ended the kiss. Ichigo gasped for air and tried to push off Rengi, but to no avail, Rengi held him in place. "Now tell me you didn't like nor want it or you did you?" Ichigo still struggled. "No I did not, you really want to know why...? My heart belongs to another. Not my body. I have a love that will appreciate me for who I am not some toy to leave out and let gather dust forever then come back when you need me the most. Fuck you and your selfish needs, have you ever once thought about me and my wants...? Rengi. Unhand me or so help me gods..."
Rengi let go. "Goodbye. Rengi." That was all that was said, as Ichigo stridded down the alley, leaving a deep-in-thought Rengi behind. Never looking back, Ichigo was now determined to get to Ishida. He had to tell him never to trust or even talk to Rengi again. The only thing Rengi would do is just put lies into Uryuu's head, but he needed to see through Rengi's lies and deception...
'I just hope that Uryuu will believe me and understand...I don't want to tell him what had just occurred...he might interpret it all wrong. Though I did not want it, nor did I even like it. Maybe I did like it a little, but that was because of past memories, they need to be forgotten...'
Ichigo finally reached Uryuu's house witch seemed like an eternity. He stopped in front of the door, about to knock. But the door was already open, not too much but there looked like it had been slammed and bounced back. What's wrong?..Uh,oh...Did Uryuu see Ichigo and Rengi? And did he see all of it? Only Ichigo could find out by opening the door. He grabbed the knob and pushed the door open. Most of the lights were off, it was hard to see and they didn't turn on when Ichigo flipped the switch...Wait. Where's Ishida?!
TBC...
A/N: well I hope this long chappy made up for the long delay. I am truly sorry for it, but I was moving and didn't even have time to inform anyone. So do you forgive me? Well...update and tell me what you think of my little angsty chap. but...there is blood and violence in the next chapter, but it all gets better i swear! Ok well imp not going to spoil it for you. I'll up date when I can... TT Sai-Sai
