A/N: I am writing in Edwards POV now. Well just for this chapter and maybe in the future. I don't want anyone to hate him. I was going to start from his reaction to Jacob but I didn't so here you go.
Okay so maybe I am being a jackass. Or in Bella words an asshole but she doesn't even know this guy. I can't believe she would go out with this guy. She just met him and he is from that reservation. What does she even know about him? He is like a giant. He could really hurt her if he wanted to. Then after I try to look after her she goes off on me like that. What the hell? Okay so it might look like I am jealous but I can't help it. I love Bella, you know like a sister. Who goes out with someone after just meeting them anyway? Okay I do but I just want to have sex with the girls. Oh no maybe that is why she is going out with him so she can have sex with him. No it can't be. Girls don't think like boys. I think she would tell me about it if that is what she wanted. We tell each other everything.
I looked over at Tanya who was staring down at her plate of food. I am sure she could tell that I am upset especially after Bella's Dramatic exit.
"I am sorry" I said to her.
"It's okay. I know you like Bella." She said back
I was shocked "WHAT? No I don't like Bella. Well I like her but I don't like like her"
"Sure"
"No I am serious."
"Yeah, right look just take me home." She said getting up. Time for the Edward charm to work. I grabbed her arm.
"Look I don't like Bella. I don't have any reason to lie to you do I? So why don't you just sit back down. If you really don't believe me though I will take you home." I said than looked up at her. She was staring at me thinking, good sign. I got out the seat and said "come on" than the reaction came.
"No wait" she almost shouted.
"What?"
"I don't mind staying. I believe you"
"Good" I said and smiled at her. Then I sat back down. I felt a little bad about how I play girls, but the way I see it is you can't be played if you don't want to. Girls are always throwing themselves at me and tell me thing they would do to me if they could just have a night with me. I have no choice but to act on it. The only girls who aren't like that are Rose, Alice and Bella. Rose has never even looked at me that might be because the first person she saw was Emmett the same goes for Alice. And Bella, well I care too much for her to treat her like the girls I date. Bella is someone you have to be in a serious relationship with and that is something I can't do. Let's face it I am a slut.
Tanya and I talked for a while then I drove her home. We made out in the car for a long time. She was a good kisser and I could tell she wanted me because she kept stopping and saying I was a good kisser. It is all the practice I have had. Then out of nowhere Bella's face popped up in my head. I almost bit Tanya on her lip. Oh God what the hell was that? Maybe I am feeling guilt about how I acted tonight with Bella. I mean I was really mean to Jacob and her. If I am feeling so guilt why is my heart speeding up.
Oh no, I think I like Bella. Why else can't I stop picturing her lips or he smile. Maybe it is just the whole jealous thing. I can't be in love with Bella. She is my best friend. We have grown up together. I can't ruin our friend. How do I even know she likes me? Great now I sound like a 2nd grader. She can't like me though she has never said anything. OH God I like Bella. I really don't know what to do. She is and always will be my best friend; I can't go after her like any other girl. Bella is special. I have to talk to her.
"Tanya I got to go, I have to do homework and stuff but I will call you" I said breaking away from her.
"Oh Okay well I have a curfew anyway so I will see you" she said and opened the door.
"Okay, Goodnight" I told her and pecked her on the cheek when a flash of Bella's face again.
"Goodnight Edward, I had fun."
"Me too." I said. She got her stuff and walked to the door. I watched until she got in and drove off. I could get out Bella out of my head the whole way home. I mean I had flash backs like from the other day when I climbed though her window and found her in a bra and underwear. She was so sexy. I had bad thoughts that day but I just pushed them away. I thought about how I felt when Jacob came into class and she was staring at him like she should be staring at me. Then I was heartbroken when she said she had a date with him. I called Tanya when I got home and asked her out.
When I got home I pulled in the driveway and went around to the door. I noticed a truck parked in her driveway and looked over to see something that I could have lived without. It was Jacob and her kissing- no making out on the porch. I hurried up and opened the door. I felt like my heart was breaking. At that moment I realized something I don't like Bella not even a little bit. I am in love with her.
A/N: Okay Short I know. But it was good right. I had to end there I have homework I have to do. My teachers are killing me. Anyway I felt weird writing in Edward POV but I will do it again maybe longer next time. I will update soon.
