*English is not my first language, plus I don't have a beta reader... so just bare with me, okay? I know that there are a lot of mistakes*

After a long time, I decided to update . And I really hope that you'll like this chapter.

The next thing that Cody remembered was him lying in the warm bed. Comfortable warmth was hugging his body. Cody opened his eyes and looked at his right. His twin brother, Zack, was lying next to him. Zack's eyes were closed; his breathing was deep and calm. He was sleeping and he had his arms wrapped around Cody's waist. Cody smiled a little and then looked the clock on his alarm clock, so that he could see what the time was.

The alarm clock showed that the time was 3:15 pm. Cody then realized that he had fallen asleep in Zack's hug. After a long time, he finally got some rest. And he finally slept calmly after a long time. Cody purred like a cat and he slowly stretched his body. As he did that he let out a silent moan and woke Zack up.

Zack opened his beautiful eyes and yawned. Then he looked at Cody and sent him a warm smile.

"I think we've fallen asleep" said Zack with sleepy voice. Then he ran his fingers through Cody's hair and he started gently caressing and massaging Cody's head.

When Zack's hand touched Cody's head, Cody's heart skipped a beat. He could feel how the adrenaline started to spread through his veins and he blushed. Zack's hands were very warm and Cody purred at every new touch. However, every Zack's touch stung. He knew that touched like these was all that Zack could offer him. He knew that Zack could never love him the way he loved Zack.

At that time all that Cody wanted was to be alone in his room. His heart started to fill with sadness and anger. Cody pushed Zack's hand and then he sat down on his bed. He knew that Zack didn't forget how thin Cody was, and that's why he wanted to get away from him as quickly as possible. He didn't want to lie to his brother. When Cody wanted to get up and leave the room, Zack stopped him. Zack grabbed his wrist and forced him to sit on the bed again.

"Where do you think you are going?" asked Zack and looked at Cody.

Cody didn't answer him and he wanted to get away from Zack.

"Stay with me, Cody. Please" quietly plead Zack.

Cody shook his head. "No, I have to go. Please Zack, let me go."

Zack sent him an angry look and asked him with a small and sad voice "No. Cody, why are you always running away from me?"

Cody sighed and looked at his brother. "You know this isn't true, Zack."

Zack shook his head. "Always when I want us to have a serious talk you always run away. Cody, I know that I hurt you, but I promise that I won't do it again."

Cody sighed again. He knew that Zack would never hurt him. The only think that was keeping Cody away from his brother were his sick feelings that he had for his brother. Always when he was with his brother, his heart broke. He knew that he could never have Zack. That he would never be his. And his heart always broke when his brother was bragging with how many girls he had gone out with.

"Zack, look. I am not running away from you. I just don't know what we could talk about" quickly lied Cody, but he knew how would his brother react.

"Oh, really?" asked Zack and raised his left eyebrow.

Cody nodded and he became really confused and scared.

"Then just tell me one thing. What the hell were you thinking when you decided to lose so much weight?"

"I didn't lose weight" answered Cody quietly.

"Cody, please don't lie to me. You know that I hate lies" raised his voice Zack.

"Then look at me a little better and then you'll immediately see why I decided to lose weight" said Cody, angrier this time.

"I'm looking at you, Cody. And I still don't see a reason why you decided to starve yourself."

"That's because I'm fat, Zack. I am so fucking fat!" screamed Cody and hot tears started to fall down his cheeks.

Zack's eyes were wide open at that point. He stepped closer to Cody and grabbed his brother's wrist.

"Zack, stop it. You are hurting me!" yelled Cody.

Zack ignored Cody's screams and dragged his twin in front of the mirror. When Cody saw his reflection in the mirror he immediately closed his eyes and began crying really hard. He couldn't stand his fat reflection.

"Cody, open your eyes!" said Zack, with cold voice.

Cody shook his head. His crying calmed down a bit.

"Open them" repeated Zack and tightened the grip around Cody's wrist. Cody finally listened his brother, because he was really afraid and opened his eyes. Zack then raised Cody's shirt a little. When Zack did that, Cody started to cry hysterically and he fell on the floor. He just couldn't see his fat stomach. He was disgusting. He was disgusted by himself. He was too fat and Cody knew that.

"Now tell me if you still think that you are fat" said angry Zack.

Cody couldn't stand it anymore. He needed to get away from Zack. He just wanted to be alone.

"Yes, Zack. I am still fat and nothing can change this" yelled Cody and hugged himself.

When Zack heard Cody's words he just sat down. Zack was silent. The only thing that you could hear was Cody's crying and coughing.

"Please, let me help you" said Zack after a few minutes.

"Zack, nobody can help me. Plus I don't even deserve help and especially not yours"

"Why do you think like this?" asked Zack and got closer to his brother. He put his left arm on Cody's back and started caressing him. With his right hand he found Cody's face and lifted it, so they were looking at each other's eyes. Zack whipped Cody's tears away with his hand and got even closer to his twin. Cody felt amazing, too amazing. Cody completely lost control over his body. He got closer to Zack and wrapped his arms around Zack's wait.

Zack let out a loud sigh and then he kissed Cody's forehead. Cody let out a quiet sigh and then his lips got dangerously close to Zack's. Zack nervously looked at Cody, but he didn't pull back. Cody got even closer and finally pressed his cold lips against his brother's. When their lips touched, Zack's body stiffened. Before Zack's brains could register what was happening, he kissed Cody back.

The twins were kissing each other for a couple of minutes, but then Cody landed back to planet Earth. He quickly ended the kiss and looked Zack. Zack looked confused and scared a little bit. At that moment, Cody hated himself so much. He lost the only person who loved him. And that was his entire fault. He felt sick and he got up quickly. He ran into the bathroom.

When Zack realized where his twin was headed he immediately got up and ran after him. However, he was too late, because Cody had already locked the door. Zack started panicking.

Cody's body was shaking terribly and he felt really sick. He had never felt so sick in his entire life. He needed to throw up. But this time he didn't need the help of toothbrush.

When Zack heard the voices coming from bathroom, he felt sick. He sat down and put his hands on his ears. He couldn't bare it. He could feel how the air was disappearing from his lungs. He didn't know that his brother's condition was so bad. Zack realized that he could lose Cody forever.

Zack started crying and he yelled: "Cody, please stop. Stop! Come out, so that we can talk. I don't hate you because we kissed. Just come out. Everything will be okay. I won't scream at you. I promise... just stop it. I am begging you, stop!"