I woke up in Mr. Corner today. I still do that sometimes, even though I go to sleep on the bed. I think it's tomorrow. I don't know what time it is but I know I won't be able to get back to sleep. I'm going to go wake myself up so I can focus.

It was horrible Mr. Journal. I don't know what happened. I was doing okay and then I wasn't. Soul was up too, so I asked if I could have some water. I guess I was more tired than I thought, because I dropped the glass on the floor and it broke into a bunch of pieces. I'm surprised Maka didn't get woken up by the sound. I guess I thought the same thing then because I was convinced that she wouldn't be my friend any more because of it. And Soul too. I started picking up all the glass pieces I could. It was hard because I couldn't see very well and the pieces were slippery. I don't remember when I started crying but I made sure to stay silent. I didn't want to wake up Maka. I guess I cut myself on a few different pieces. Soul helped. After he wrapped up my hand in a bandage until Ragnarok was up I couldn't stop crying even though I really wanted to. Soul just held me on the couch for a while. It was nice, and I got better after a little while. I asked him if Maka would be mad at me for it, but he said it was okay and that things happen. I don't know why he was being so nice after I just broke something but he looked more like he was worried I was okay than the glass. I told him I was fine but I was going to go get more rest. I don't think I am okay. I need to do something but Ragnarok isn't up yet so I can't. I was hoping writing it down would help but I don't think it is.

Once Ragnarok woke up I was able to put more into my pattern. My hand is okay now and I don't need the bandage anymore. But... I guess Soul told Maka what happened. She came to see if I was okay. I didn't even hear her coming until I heard the gasp from the doorway. I am glad she didn't see me adding to the pattern, but she saw my back. I don't know how much she saw exactly but I know it was enough. She hugged me and started crying against me afterwards. She kept apologizing until I asked why she was saying sorry. She said she hadn't meant to walk in on me like that and that she saw my back. I didn't know what she meant so I asked her. And she said she saw the marks everywhere. I guess she meant where Ragnarok comes out. I don't know why it surprised her. Ragnarok is my blood, after all. She must have at least guessed he has to make me bleed to get out. She hugged me and I could feel her crying against me even though she was trying not to. I'm really glad she wasn't any earlier. I don't know how she would have reacted. Probably not well. Today has barely even started and I really want it to be over. I'll write again tonight.

The rest of the day was okay. Nothing else bad happened but I felt really bad about the glass. Maka and Soul keep telling me it's okay but I don't see how it is. I'm really trying not to let it get to me, but I don't know how to stop worrying about it. I didn't add any more to the pattern today than I did earlier. I'm going to make sure the door is closed if I need to. Maka seemed to squirm every time Ragnarok came out. I tried to tell her it was okay, but she didn't seem to believe me. Soul told her I built up a tolerance to it. I didn't know what that meant so I asked. I guess I did build up a tolerance. That's all I wanted to write down. I hope I can get more sleep tonight.