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Chapter 4 – Let's talk
Rachel was lying on her bed ready to go to sleep when her phone vibrates with a message.
'Blaine Anderson : We need to talk!'
'Rachel Berry : About what?' Rachel types confused.
'Us!'
'What us? There is no us!' There never was an us ,he is gay, 100% gay. She quotes him in her head.
She waited for a half hour and when nothing came went to sleep.
She woke up the next morning to see there was 3 new messages. Unsurprisingly all were from Blaine.
'Are you sure there is nothing between us?'
'Rachel please answer me!'
'Okay fine be like that!'
Ugh! What is up with him all the sudden. He couldn't get away fast enough when we kissed and now he's all over me. I'm with Finn and He's with Kurt. End story. Now my day had to be ruined by this. I love Finn, or at least I think I do. With Finn I feel…, with Finn feel… I can't finish the sentence. With Blaine I feel complete like two pieces of a puzzle. We fit together perfectly. But I can't break neither Finn nor Kurt's heart. Life sucks.
Blaine POV:
I blew it, I blew it big time. Going off on Rachel via text message , stupidest move ever. Maybe she was sleeping. Well texting someone late at night is a great idea. Uhh! I feel like such an idiot. Maybe I was making it up in my head that she loved me back. Blaine slams his fist into the headrest above his head. Life sucks. Making myself openly gay made it even harder to go straight again. Kurt, Kurt of all people would take it the worst, I see the way he looks at me I'm his role model and he's in love with me on top of that. He even had a photo of me in his locker back at Mckinley with the words courageous underneath. He slams his other fist, but misses the headrest and hits the wall.
"Son of a- ,Ouch!" he screams into the pillow. He can see how his knuckles are bleeding. He rushes to the bathroom and puts his hand under a running tap. He takes out a bandage and wraps it around his hand. That's going to sting. Damn I'm such an idiot. Oh no look at the time. I better get dressed or I'm going to be late.
Rachel :
I can't wait to see Finn again. How I long for his kisses and his huge but loving embrace. Rachel thinks as she is walking down Mckinley High's hallway. She sees Finn leaning against her locker.
As soon as he spots her he smiles at her with his goofy smile and she can't help but smile brightly at him.
As soon as she approaches him, he grabs her into an embrace.
He whispers in her ear "I missed you".
"I missed you too" she whispers back. Rachel smashes her lips into his.
Their kiss lasts for 4 minutes before the bell rings.
"See you at lunch" Finn says to her softly while still holding her.
"Way too long" she says teasing with a smile.
After the period ended Rachel walks out of class and sees Blaine walking down the hall away from where she's standing. What is Blaine doing here at McKinley. She decides to follow him. When she turns around the 5th corner she doesn't see him anywhere.
Probably just my imagination!
She walks into the next class. She is a little late.
"Why are you late Miss Berry?" The teacher asks.
"I got confused with my schedule thought it was Thursday" Rachel says meekly.
"Go sit down, Rachel and don't let it ever happen again" The teacher scolds.
She goes to sit down next to Mercedes.
"You're never late for class, what happened?" Mercedes whispers as soon as the teacher is facing the black board.
"I thought I saw Blaine walking in the halls." She whispers back.
"So you didn't find him?" she asked back.
"No, he disappeared all of the sudden."
"That's really weird Rachel, maybe you imagined him or mistaken someone for him?"
"It's possible." She answers back and turns to the black board to signal that the conversation is over.
POV
As I walk out of class again to the cafeteria. I see Blaine walking down the halls again. But I see him walking at the other side as well. Something's wrong here. I'm definitely am hallucinating. Where did all of these Blaines come from.
I starts to hyper ventilate. "Are you okay?" One Blaine asks me.
I push past him and ran out the front door of the school. I take a deep breath to calm me down and I hear the door closing behind me again.
"Rachel are you okay?" a Familiar voice asks me.
"Yes, I'm fine. It's nothing" I turn around to see it's Mercedes.
"Out with it girl, It's not nothing. You don't run out of the school building if it's nothing." Mercedes asks me with a concerned voice.
"It felt too crowded in the school building had to get out." I lied.
"Okay, I'll sit with you until you feel better." She says to me in a soft voice.
"Okay, thanks." Is all I could say.
"No problem" She pats my back.
We sit here until lunch is over.
"Ready to go back inside?" Mercedes offers.
"Yes" I reply.
Just as Mercedes walks to the door, I take out my phone inserts Blaine Anderson. Typing 'Meet me at Mr. Torks coffee bar '
Seconds later my phone vibrates again. 'Where is that and why?'
'We won't get spotted there and just insert it into your gps you'll find it'
'Okay see you soon'
Now we can talk things out. Today is literally driving me insane.
I walk out of the school yard after glee club.
As I get into my car. My phone vibrates again.
'I can't find the place on the GPS'
'It's right behind uncle Vinnies vegetable shop and Scrapbooking is Fun! Shop'
'Okay, thanks. Found it. See you there'
You may wonder how I know this shop. Well, My dads used to go there every morning for their favorite coffee until the Lima Bean made a better and cheaper version. It was a chocolate chip mocha and it was delicious. But they had to sell half of their real estate to be able to afford keeping the shop open so that's why they are hidden behind other shops.
Blaine POV:
I slowly closed the door of my car. I didn't see any other car around here. Looks like she isn't here yet. What came over me. Why did I even suggest talking to her. Make myself come here and talk to her. This whole idea is crazy. I walk in the bar and sits at the farthest corner in the place. I can't wait till Rachel gets here. We need to talk this out. Oh I'm so nervous.
Rachel POV:
I arrived at the front of the coffee bar. As I climbed out I didn't see any other car except one. I knew it was Blaine's car because he talks a lot about it. I walked into the coffee bar. I saw him sitting in the far end of the place looking really nervous. I walked slowly toward him, not knowing what to say or do. I haven't even thought this through.
"Hi, Blaine." Rachel says softly.
"Hi, Rachel sit." He gestures at the chair.
"How have you been?" He fails miserably to make small chat.
"Fine, fine. Why did you call me here Blaine?" Rachel cuts to the chase.
Blaine rubs his neck and frowns. "I haven't been honest with you Rachel."
"About what?" she asks.
"Remember the day I kissed you in the Lima Bean." Blaine asks
The brunette nods "You told me you were gay after you kissed me."
"About that, look Rachel ,see ,umm" Blaine starts to stutter.
"There's no easy way to say this, I'm not gay Rachel." Blaine looks down not daring to face her.
"But why?" Rachel knew the answer but needed to hear it from him.
"Because it was the easy way out. At least I thought it would be easy. To save Kurt from heartbreak and myself from being judged. I thought I would get over it but it's driving me completely insane. When I'm awake I think about you. When I'm asleep I dream about you. I couldn't take it anymore. I'm in love with you Rachel Berry. Since they day we met. You were all that I ever wanted." Blaine started breathing after he finished talking.
Rachel sat absolutely still not moving an inch.
Blaine sat there waiting for her response. It felt like hours that he's been waiting but its only been a few minutes.
After a few minutes a tear rolled down her cheek.
"Rachel are you okay?" Blaine stretched out his hand towards hers.
"I'm Fine. Oh who am I kidding. I tried to keep strong to make as if nothing happened thinking you didn't feel the same way. I've been forcing myself on Finn just to get you out of my head. It worked up until that stupid text message. I totally forgot about us. But today at school was terrible, everywhere I go I would see you face." Rachel broke down just as she finished saying those words.
Blaine stood up and puts his arms around her. "It'll all be okay." Was all he said. Even while she's crying he could feel an electric pulse where they are touching. They remained in that position for about an half hour until Rachel calmed down.
"Rachel are you okay?" Blaine stared into her eyes.
"Yes I'm better thanks. Sorry about breaking down like that." She apologizes
"Rachel, you don't have to apologize. I'm really sorry if I hurt you like that. I never meant to hurt you. I would do anything for you. I don't ever want to hurt you again. Seeing you cry like that because of me made me feel like an asshole." He rubs his eyes and looks up.
"Blaine are you crying?" she asks.
"No, something in my eye." He lies and knows she knows .
"Blaine it's okay. Everyone cries sometime." She giggled.
Rachel's giggle made Blaine smile. He loved it when she giggled. One of the best things about her was her giggle.
"What are you smiling about?" she asks after she stopped giggling.
"Your giggling is one of the best thing about you" Blaine internally face palms himself.
Rachel tried to not giggle but couldn't hold it in.
"That's what I'm talking about. It's absolutely beautiful almost as beautiful as you are." Blaine smiled at her.
Rachel stops giggling and starts frowning "Blaine, what are we going to do about Finn and Kurt?"
"I think we should tell them. Don't you feel the same?" Blaine starts to rub his neck.
"I do" Rachel whispered.
"I'm going to tell Kurt. Without any hesitation tomorrow." Blaine stops rubbing his neck.
"I'm going to the same with Finn. Tell him the truth." Rachel stops frowning.
"So we tell them the truth. Then what about us?"
"We go on a real first date. See how it goes and take it from there."
"Sounds like a plan to me!"
