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BPOV

At Jasper's house we lay on his bed wrapped in each others' arms. He holds me close and kisses my forehead gently. At the hospital I tried to put on a brave face until we were completely alone, I think part of me was still shock too. Rose took us back to their place and Jasper's dad, Paul, excused us to talk.

"How long have you known?" I ask quietly as I weave my fingers through his.

He studies our hands as I do before he speaks. "I found out the last week of school. I started having chest pains, and when they did x-rays they found tumors in my lungs. I was one of those rare cases where I showed no real signs of cancer until the tumors metastasized too far."

"How long…" I trail, I can't bring myself to say the words I don't want to hear.

"A month. Even with Chemo and radiation, it would just prolong it and I'd still be in a lot of pain."

"Does it hurt bad?" I whisper.

"Some times," Jasper says. "But others it's just a background kind of nuisance. The coughing hurts the most because it makes me bleed, I've gradually start to cough up my own blood. Doctors say I'm lucky to be doing so well, and that I can still talk clearly and easily. They say it's going to get worse in the next couple weeks."

I reach up with my other hand and wipe my tears away. This can't be happening. This talk is so morbid, I can't fight the sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. Jasper is the strongest man I know, he's holding himself together better than I ever could.

I take a deep breath and move to look at him. "Are you afraid?"

JPOV

I shake my head, "I'm not scared of dying. I'm scared of what I'm going to leave behind."

Bella looks at me to continue. "The reason I left you was because I didn't want to ruin your life. I'd rather you thought I was an asshole than you have to grieve my death with my family. It's painful enough to think that I'm going to leave Rose with Dad and Gram, but the thought of leaving you with all of this? That pain alone might kill me."

Bella buries her head in my chest and just cries. Any wall she had built up just fell. I hold her close to me and close my eyes. God, if you can hear me please don't let her suffer. She doesn't deserve this pain. When I die please take care of her, because I can't any more. "I love you Bella. Don't ever forget that."

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